What do You do With Your Personal Demons?
We all have our personal demons. They manifest in different ways, sometimes they are subtle, sometimes overt. They are the things that keep us from going to the places we wish to go in life.
Personal demons can manifest as the devil on your shoulder, the voice inside your head telling you that you’re not good enough, smart enough, worthy or deserving. Brain weasels or brain squirrels, whichever rodent you identify, are another manifestation of the personal demon.
This can also be a familiar voice from without that has lodged itself within. A teacher, a parent, the obnoxious person who never shuts up. The form may even vary depending on the situation.
One of my greatest personal stumbling blocks has been my fear of abandonment. Underlying every other fear I have is this ultimate fear. Succeed, fail, when all is said and done I will be abandoned and left alone.
This is a primal fear. It is a fear that I cannot survive on my own, and that I will be forever shunned and neglected. Achieve the amazing things I know I am capable of achieving, and suffer. Lots of old, bad examples from my childhood have had a tendency to attest to this being how it works. A long-held personal demon.
Frequently, we find ourselves working against personal demons. But like all such things, it is better to work for something, rather than against it.
I know that when it comes to personal demons, this is particularly challenging. These are the voices in your head that are telling you all about your lack of worth, and affirmations can only do so much. This is true…but there are other additional ways to stand for something rather than against the personal demons.
Personal demons are liars
You are worthy, you are deserving of all the good things you want in your life. You don’t need to do anything extra to get them, because they are yours. That is what we can stand for, rather than against. KNOW that you deserve all the good you desire for yourself.
I am going to face down one of my personal demons here, and take several steps to make some desired change.
This blog has been refocused over the past couple years from three slightly different angles to three connected posts a week. Everything focused on the notion that consciousness creates reality, and each of us as such is capable of manifesting our destiny. We can create a life we most desire to live, and we can do, be, and have virtually anything we desire.
When I began doing this regularly, one blog a week was an interesting challenge. Then, along the way, it became two. Now three. Additionally, because of my author website, sometimes four. And with my plan to start podcasting in the coming weeks, that’s a lot to maintain.
At the end of the month, this particular weekly posting will be leaving The Ramblings of the Titanium Don. It will still occur every Friday, but it’s going to have a shift in format, and will be posted on my author website. It will remain a personal blog post, but it will be getting new direction, focusing more on the craft of writing, my new adventures in podcasting, and where I am hoping to take it all.
I am done letting the squirrels in my brain run free. I am driving this bus. There are a lot of bold plans I have down the line, and it is time for me to realize them.
Personal demons can be exorcised
Taking my author website to another level is important, which is why the time has come to blog weekly over there, now. Also, while this post certainly ties in with the rest of my conscious reality creation approach, the idea behind it was to cross bridges between my worlds.
What worlds am I talking about? First, there are my three writing sides. Professional, where I do work for small businesses and edit resumes. The blog and my holistic work, my work with conscious reality creation and striving to help more people be who they really desire to be and do what they really desire to do. My fiction work, writing my sci-fi novel, Steampunk, and working on the next books in The Source Chronicles.
Then there is the world of the SCA. I do a lot of different things in the SCA, and some of that actually involves writing. I love this game, and the people in it…and I know that in addition to the whole business I wrote about Monday, there are some ongoing issues, which I believe I may be in a position to help work with to foster change and growth.
Then there is my personal world and work world. I have a job I really like as a content editor, working with website content for a small boutique marketing firm locally. I am an actual, factual professional editor, and have been for about six months. Personally, I have some awesome stuff going on, and I am super-excited about where I am, and where I am going.
Personal demons? Their days are numbered
Thank you for your continued support. What are you doing in order to face down your personal demons?
As always, thank you for crossing the bridges between my worlds with me.
This is the ninety-ninth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series. My collectively published writing can be found here.
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