The Ramblings of the Titanium Don

Explorations of Conscious Reality Creation and Other Matters

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How Does Being Aware Take Me Across The Bridges?

For me, being aware of my mindset, mindful of what I am thinking and feeling, is the key to creating what I truly desire from this life.

Conscious reality creation is the ultimate gift humankind has.  The other animals on this planet, no matter how intelligent they may be, don’t have the same capacity to create as we do.  We are the only animals that can build tools to allow us to travel anywhere across the globe, infinitely expand our knowledge base, and live in any environment.

AwareTo create anything at all, I have to begin with thought.  I have to think of an idea, and bring it into existence.  This applies to characters and worlds for my writing; a job I envision working; relationships with friends and lovers; ideas to make life better.

Great or small, thoughts are the starting point of everything.  I have had some pretty cool thoughts and ideas, but if I did not go to the next steps, they never got past this first point.

This is where I usually face the greatest challenge.  Feeling.  To consciously create reality, you cannot just think of a thing, you have to feel it.  I have been struggling with feeling for most of my life.

Let me get really personal here.  I was a smart, sensitive kid.  Didn’t know it back then, but as an empath I was good at feeling the feelings of others.  Due to things that happened in my youth, mostly around my parents’ divorce (and for the record, I am NOT blaming my parents here) I went into therapy.  Because this was the early 1980’s, there were no drugs like Prozac and such.  It was a difficult time, and I was hurting.  Some thirty years later, I learned that I had shut down.

I was aware of feelings, but not feeling them.

Logically, I reasoned out what these emotions were supposed to feel like.  I shared that with my therapists, and they thought I was adjusting.  For the most part, I was.  But…my ability to truly feel emotions was less developed than anybody realized until much later.

In my thirties, I found the best therapist I have ever had.  Together, we realized what I had done, and started the process of repairing it.  With that work, I became more aware of my emotions.  For the first time in my life, I was truly mindful of both thoughts and feelings.

Important tangent here.  I know a lot of people who have had traumas both emotional and physical, greater and less than my experiences.  In this week’s Pathwalking I wrote about accountability.  Thing is, while I could blame any number of people and factors for the issues I had in regards to emotions, I recognize that ultimately I did this to myself.  Blame could not fix it.  So I made a choice to acknowledge and then repair the damage, rather than get angry or depressed about it.

Once I became aware of the issues I had regarding emotions, I did the work to learn how to truly feel them.  It was in this process that I began to truly understand the idea of conscious reality creation.  I saw how I had healed from my accident faster and more completely than expected, because my thoughts and feelings wholly supported, expected, and worked towards that outcome.

Still, this has been an ongoing struggle for me.  Because the emotions I have recognized and expressed the longest are negative ones, like depression, anger, jealousy, and other fears, when I am not mindful and fully aware, guess where my subconscious goes?

Being aware will take me across all the bridges.

Because I am an empath, I feel the emotions of other people around me.  Due to spending probably too much time on social media, I get inundated with a whole lot of negativity.  Our fear-based society is being pushed around in new and horrifying ways.  Those in power are hiding their selfish agendas less and less, yet still enjoying control over a huge swath of the collective consciousness.

I am working to better recognize when I allow my subconscious to drive the bus.  I set myself up in my Pathwalking post to regularly ask at least two questions about my mindset, so that I am better aware of what I am thinking and feeling.

When my thoughts and feelings are aligned, taking intentional actions to manifest what I am desiring is virtually effortless.  When I allow doubts, or the negativity of the collective consciousness to get between my thoughts and feelings, I am like an inverted bicycle.  You can pedal the wheel round and round as much as you like, but you are not going to get anywhere at all.

I challenged myself to ask at least two of these questions several times a day.  What am I thinking?  What am I feeling?  How am I feeling?  Where is my mind?  What am I thinking about?  What am I focused on?  I know that when I ask these questions, I become aware of the here-and-now, and allow my conscious self to take the wheel.

One additional challenge with this that I tend to get down on myself when I do not live up to my own standards.

I need to be more aware of how I think about myself.

For most of my life I have chewed my fingernails off.  Trust me, I know this is a terrible habit.  For a while, I mostly stopped.  There they were, fingernails, and I actually needed to clip them like a normal person from time to time.  Recently, I have found myself chewing them off again.  If I do not make a conscious effort to restrain myself, when I am bored or nervous or frustrated I find myself removing a fingernail with my teeth.

It does not matter how aware of this, or any other emotion I am.  What matters is what I do with that knowledge.  Do I stop from biting my nails?  Will I acknowledge the negative feeling, and do something to change it?  Am I going to get mad at myself for not doing this, that or the other thing, or will I make the necessary change?  Being aware is only the beginning.  What I do with that mindfulness is the difference between manifesting the life I want, or never quite going to the places I desire to be.

I am aware.

What will I do with this awareness?  Stay tuned.  As always, thank you for crossing the bridges between my worlds with me.

 

GOAL LOG – Week 45:

Diet:  I was very conscious of what I was consuming, but not so good about writing it down.

Exercise:  Fenced once, did a bunch of walking.  Need to up this game.

Writing:  Three blog posts, and some other writing work.

Meditation: I really need to resume this.  One day this week, about 8 minutes.

Gratitude:  I was not tracking gratitude again.

 

This is the sixtieth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series.  My collectively published writing can be found here.

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What Is Reality?

Reality is how we perceive the world around us.  It both is and isn’t that simple, of course.

No less an authority than Albert Einstein said, “Reality is an illusion, albeit a persistent one.”  What that means is that what we perceive as our reality is different for everyone.

To me, this thoroughly supports the notion that consciousness creates reality.  Since the reality we perceive is completely individual, and a persistent illusion, isn’t it completely logical that we can create our own?

We can all agree that our perception of the world around us is what we name reality.  We can see it, smell it, feel it, touch it, hear it, even taste it.  Yet there is more to the world than just that which we can sense.  Everything is energy, and energy is constantly flowing all around us.  This is also, I would argue, real.

As children, we are less invested in accepting the reality we’re presented with.  How many kids have imaginary friends that are almost completely real to them?  The wonder that children view the world with, before we tell them the what of things, is impressive.  The world a child considers to be real encompasses numerous illusions that, as they get older and “educated”, fade away.

I am in no way saying education is bad.  Quite the contrary, the more we know, the more we gain.  The issue is not education, it’s losing a sense of wonder with the world around us.

So many people feel “trapped”, or “stuck” or otherwise held back from things they want by the reality they perceive.  They have lost sight of wonder and joy be becoming entrapped by a world they think is beyond their control.

Conscious reality creation transmutes the illusion.

I am always seeking new wonders in this world.  I love hiking in nature and coming across a beautiful, tree-lined path or rocky river offering me never-before-seen vistas.  It is from these experiences that I still believe in a wondrous world, full of endless possibility.

When we lose sight of that, and get caught up in the world as we currently perceive it, we are disempowered.  Once that happens, it’s difficult at best to move past, and regain a sense of curiosity and possibility for what could be.

Pathwalking is my ideal for creating a life I most want to live.  Rather than let the world as I currently perceive it be that which I live in, I want to consciously create a better reality.  It is my desire to change how I perceive my world, and manifest one more to my liking.

If this which I already perceive is but an illusion, then changing it is a matter of practice.  It’s up to me to change what I sense, and create something even better.

I know you might be thinking to yourself, what is it with this hooky-spooky mumbo-jumbo?  Einstein meant something totally different with that statement.  Sure, I’ll give you that is possible.  But then, consider this:

Just over a hundred years ago, the first commercial airline came into being. Horse drawn vehicles still outnumbered cars.  There were no satellites, cellular phones or fitness trackers.  That reality was long ago changed, arguably far more drastically than any prior hundred year period.  The illusion of our world shifted considerably into what we have today.

Anyone can change their world.  Anyone.  Some changes are going to be colossal, wide-ranging, and life-changing.  Most, though, will be individual, but could be equally life-changing.

Whose illusion of reality is it?

Relationships change our reality.  So do new places we live, jobs we work, and locations we visit.  How we each perceive these things is wholly unique.  The way I see the world differs from your way, or that of any other.

This is why we can choose our illusion.  You and I possess the ability to consciously create our reality.  When we empower ourselves, and recognize this for the truth, there’s a lot more that we can do than we currently believe there to be.

Unfortunately, one of the big challenges with this is our fear-based society.  Everywhere we turn we see lack, are told there is not enough, and that we need to be afraid of *insert racial group or religious entity or other nonconformists here*.  To add to this, whenever someone violates or otherwise does something that is not the “social norm”, we tend to scoff at it.  Rather than support the new, frequently we warn of dangers and pitfalls.

Everyone makes poor life choices.  This is part of the human experience.  Frequently, we believe that our choices are more limited than they actually are.  We get worn down by the lack and fear of our culture, and accept the illusion before us as truth.

The world has been changed before.  It will be changed again.  Change is inevitable.  We have the power within us to direct change, rather than be a pawn of it.  We do it all the time, but much of it we take for granted.

When you change your clothes, hair, job, or car, you alter the illusion of your reality.  It is a small alteration, but everything is built up from the small stuff.  If you find yourself dissatisfied with larger matters, you have the power to take control over it.

What do you want your reality to look like?

 

This is the three-hundred-sixth entry in my series. These weekly posts are ideas for, and my personal experiences with, walking along the path of life.  I share this journey as part of my desire to make a difference in this world along the way.

Thank you for joining me.  Feel free to re-blog and share.

The first year of Pathwalking, including some expanded ideas, is available here.

If you enjoy Pathwalking, you may also want to read my Five Easy Steps to Change the World for the Better.

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