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What Am I Thinking?

I am always thinking.  But then, really, who isn’t?

Our entire reality as we perceive it is based on thought.  We see this life in our own, individual ways, which differ as they do because of our thinking.

ThinkingWhile it’s true that at our core, we are all energy, and thus all the same, as I have been writing about this week both in Positivity and Pathwalking, how we think defines our individuality.  Not simply what we think, but how we think.  And this is the single most variable thing between me, you, those people, and the often referenced “them” and “they.”

It’s not just a matter of the what of our thoughts.  That’s complicated enough as it is.  HOW we think, the manner in which we begin our thought process, is dramatically different.

Take clouds for example.  I might look up in the sky, see a triangular cloud, and think, oooo, Star Destroyer.  You might see the same cloud and think, cool, racing horse and rider.  Another person might see race car raising dust behind it.  Someone is going to see it and think, huh, cumulous. Same cloud, completely different perspectives on it.

This is where the difference between conscious and subconscious thought comes into play.  When we are more aware in the here-and-now, we become conscious.  Once we are conscious, we are more aware, and being aware we can take control of our thinking.

The subconscious also is built on thought.  In some respects it’s easier to let the subconscious do the driving.  Unfortunately, when we do, often we will find dissatisfaction in where we are, because we didn’t do all we could to control that.

Is conscious thinking harder to do than subconscious thought?

Simple answer – no.  More complex answer, and given my deep and abiding love for all things Star Wars, let’s borrow a quote from Yoda.  It was about the Dark Side, but it also could be applied to subconscious thinking.  Luke asks, “Is the dark side stronger?”  Yoda replies, “No.  Quicker.  Easier.  More seductive.”  Subconscious thought is just like that.  More seductive, simply because it is easier to just fall into the pattern and routine of the subconscious.

We do more subconsciously than consciously.  Breathing, blinking, swallowing, etc.  Thinking also happens subconsciously, because we are always thinking.  Conscious reality creation is a matter of choosing how we think.

I am at an interesting place in my life right now.  I know what I want to be doing.  Crossing the bridges between the worlds I live in and the worlds I create is important to me.  I am aware of my own tendencies to self-sabotage, get in my own way, and let completely intangible fears derail me.

When I was almost five years old, Star Wars came out.  Yes, I know it’s now referred to as Episode IV – A New Hope – but it was and probably always will be The Original Star Wars for me.  There are a lot of missing memories from my childhood, but I remember watching that Corellian Corvette flying past, pursued by a Star Destroyer, lasers blazing back and forth.  I was instantly hooked.

To some degree, Star Wars inspired me to become a writer.  I spent a lot of hours creating my own adventures for the heroes of the Rebellion in my backyard with my action figures.  From there, I began to create my own original stories, and my love of science fiction and fantasy blossomed.

I am always thinking of new story ideas.

There is a near-constant stream of characters, starships, swords, sorcery and ideas careening through my thoughts.  When I went on my first hike through Sedona, I took pictures of rock formations that instantly sent my brain to fantasy worlds or far-away planets.  One of the things I most love about a good hike in general is discovering unusual landscapes to inspire me.

With the completion of my recent move, I uncovered my old journals.  I started keeping a paper journal in 1992.  There are eight books full of my thoughts.  Some are pretty interesting, and some are just reflections of my struggles with depression.  Physical journaling gave way to LiveJournal, some of which I began to share, some of which was kept private.  Then I created this blog, and almost six years ago began weekly posts with the creation of Pathwalking.

While to some degree I write these things for my own edification, I also share them because I know I am not the only one thinking in these ways.  The how of our thought processes are different, of course.  Many of the actual thoughts are dissimilar…but if you are seeking to be more empowered, and to consciously create reality, then we’re going in similar directions.

It is all too easy to get discouraged.  Let’s face it, these are chaotic, surreal, frequently distressing times we live in.  Yet on the other side, there is unbelievable possibility.  We are capable of manifesting incredible things.  To do so, we have to be aware of how we are thinking.

We can control only our own thinking.

The single most important thing to remember about the idea of thought is that we can only control our own thinking.  We cannot think for anyone else.  We can tell people how to think, but they will only do so by their own choice.

So why bother sharing my thought processes with you?  I am striving to empower myself to manifest a better reality.  My belief that Consciousness Creates Reality is strong, and how I am thinking is constantly testing it.  I share because I know I am not alone with these challenges, testing my steps.  Maybe in sharing the journey, I can help you on yours.

We are always thinking.  Consciously or subconsciously.  If Consciousness Creates Reality, then we need to be more aware of how and what we are thinking.  Conscious thinking gives us more control, and with control we can manifest almost anything.  That’s what I am striving for.

As always, thank you for crossing the bridges between my worlds with me.


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How Is Pathwalking Mindful?

When we are mindful of our thoughts, feelings and actions, we can walk any path.

The key to doing this is to work on spending more time in the here-and-now.  When we are mindful of where we are, at this very moment, we empower ourselves to best walk the paths for the lives we desire.

Mindfulness is awareness.  When we are aware, we have control.  Pathwalking is about taking control of the life we lead, so being mindful is imperative to success along the path.  If we are aware of what we’re thinking, how we are feeling, and from that what actions we intentionally are taking, we can make more informed and desired choices.

Being in the here-and-now, which I have discussed before, can be a particular challenge.  Why?  Because our society has this maniacal obsession with the past and the future.

We are constantly looking back at what was.  I know I am using this example a lot, but it’s really hard not to these days: Look at current American politics.  There is this obsession with taking us “back” to a time and place that never actually existed.  Recreating a nation of “values” and “morals” that existed, at best, in 1950’s television and movies.

On the other side of that coin, we’re frequently discussing the future.  We are looking ahead to things that don’t exist yet, even though they could.  We want to build this utopian world that might be possible, but is nearly equally as non-existent as the world that some want us to go back to that never was.

Here and now is where we have balance.  But when we live in the here-and-now, we have to pay attention to the world around us.  That would require accountability.

Being accountable is being mindful.

Another problem in modern society is a major lack of accountability.  Everyone finds someone to blame for this, that or the other thing.  We blame our parents for our emotional issues as adults.  Hell, the President tells outright lies and is seldom called out on it.  We almost take pride in avoiding being responsible for our feelings, thoughts or actions.

The sad truth is that accountability is not tremendously important in this society. Why does that matter?  Because when we do not take responsibility for our own actions, let alone our thoughts and feelings, we haven’t the strength to consciously create reality, let alone anything else.

When we are aware of what we are thinking, it allows us to be mindful of what we are feeling.  When I am thinking, damn this society is screwed up, that leads to my feeling sad, depressed, and angry.  If I do not accept this, and don’t take accountability for it, I can’t change it.

When I do take responsibility for how I am thinking and feeling, I can take control of them.  Rather than focus on my negative thoughts, I can instead think, if I write about conscious reality creation, that can be shared to spread more positivity.  From there, I will start to feel good about what I am doing, and that in turn will put me back in control.

When we think and feel negative, then act from there, consciously or subconsciously, we tend to create other than what we want.  Further, if we are not accountable for that creation, creating something new and better becomes that much more challenging.  This is why we need to be mindful of thoughts and feeling.

The mindful path is where we are now.

Being in the here-and-now allows us to truly be mindful of everything.  When we aren’t looking back to the past or ahead to the future, right here, right now, we just ARE.  This is the ultimate awareness, and this is where our paths can be found, traversed, and changed.

This is the hardest lesson for me much of the time.  I get caught up in all these outside influences, and lose track of the here-and-now.  When I work to be in the now, I can do more with my thoughts and feelings, and with that take better actions.

How do I stay in the here-and-now?  I need to ask myself more frequently, What am I thinking?  What am I feeling?  How am I feeling?  Where is my mind?  What am I thinking about?  What am I focused on?  Any one of this questions will snap my attention to the now.

It is so stunningly easy to lose track of the now.  Start browsing through Facebook or Twitter and see how long it takes you to get lost in social commentaries.  Watch how easily you can become flustered by news of idiocy and amoral politics.  Before you know it, you’re angry, feeling depressed, and your subconscious mind is driving the bus.

During the day, as we go about our activities and routines, it’s really easy to let our subconscious take control.  Because we tend to be utterly unaware of things, in particular our own hearts and minds, this becomes more and more the norm.  But we can do something about that.  We can be mindful of what we are thinking, how we are feeling, and what actions we take from there.

Being mindful is not as hard as it first appears.

This is my challenge for putting Pathwalking into practice for the next week.  I am going to ask myself at least two of the above questions three times a day for a week, and WRITE IT DOWN.  Not only will this keep me mindful of what I am thinking and feeling, but the action will make me accountable for it.

The goal of this practice is to make myself more aware in the here-and-now.  I believe that doing this will let me be a far better Pathwalker, and allow me to truly consciously create the reality I want to see.  Care to join me in this endeavor?

Are you mindful of your thoughts, feelings and actions?

This is the three-hundred-seventh entry in my series. These weekly posts are ideas for, and my personal experiences with, walking along the path of life.  I share this journey as part of my desire to make a difference in this world along the way.

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Can Consciousness Create Reality?

Consciousness creates reality when we work to be aware of our thoughts, feelings and subsequent actions.

Positivity 196All too often, most of us get caught up in our day-to-day activities.  There are patterns and routines each of us follows.  Before you realize It, you may find yourself just going along with things, and finding that you are dissatisfied because you are seeing more things you don’t want than things you do want.

We are living in a fear-based society.  Everywhere you turn those we have placed in power use fear to control us.  When we are afraid we tend to cease to be reasonable, and before we know it we’re living half-a-life because the compounded fears overwhelm us.

I believe we are all energy at our core.  Energy vibrates at a specific frequency, and like attracts like.  When the collective consciousness leans in a certain direction, its attractive force grows.  Thousands of people feeling fear will attract more and more to join them.

Because we get busy and have many different needs, desires, and obligations, a lot of people tend to let their subconscious do most of the driving.  As such, the collective consciousness draws them in, and the fear and concern and negativity takes hold.

Remaining conscious of your awareness requires active consideration of thoughts, feelings and subsequent actions.  Sometimes it just appears easier to go with the flow.  Trouble is, when the collective consciousness is inundated with fear-mongering and negativity, we draw more of this to ourselves.  Before we know it, dissatisfaction leads to distress and depression and down and down we go.

The collective consciousness can be disempowering.

Consciousness Creates RealityAllowing the collective consciousness to pervade our thoughts and feelings takes away our own empowerment.  When we are disempowered, we open ourselves to being controlled by outside forces, and as such the collective consciousness continues to build on fear.

Awareness of our individual consciousness empowers us to manifest better.  The positivity of this is tremendous, and powerful, and could change the world.  When we make an effort to focus on the positive, and work on conscious creation of our desires, we become more capable of controlling our own lives, and breaking from the collective consciousness.

Consciousness creates reality.  I know I prefer to work on building a better, more positive world.  Wouldn’t you like that, too?

Finding positivity is not hard, but it does require action.

Knowing that we can use our individual consciousness to create reality, we can work on creating more of what we want than what we don’t want.  When we break free of the collective consciousness and are aware of our thoughts, feelings and actions, we empower ourselves.  When we feel empowered, we frequently spread that feeling to others around us; as such, we can build more positive feelings in the collective consciousness.  We can use the positive feelings this generates to dissolve negative feelings.  When we take away negative feelings, we open up space to let in positive feelings, and that is something we can be grateful for.  Gratitude leads to happiness.  Happiness is the ultimate positive attitude.  Positive attitude begets positive energy, and that is always a good thing.


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What do I want from my Reality?

What do I want?

I have been asking this question of myself for most of my adult life.  It is both the single most basic question I can ask, as well as massively loaded.  This is a question that can be rooted in the past, awareness in the present, or looking to the future, which complicates things further.

One of the more complex issues I encounter with this question has long been its opposite.  I was less sure of what I DID want, than of what I DIDN’T want.  While that can be useful, it can also be distracting.  In many ways it becomes the ultimate procrastination.

I spent my twenties indecisively.  I went from relationship to relationship and job to job, always seeking the greener grasses.  While getting hit by that car shifted my thinking in many ways, I proceeded to spend my thirties in nearly the same indecision.  Relationships came and went, jobs came and went, and I never made a decisive choice about anything.

Now, in my forties, I am deciding my life.  I have begun to work with consciously creating my reality.  This has required me to undo a lot of long-held beliefs that no longer serve me, which in turn slows the process, sometimes seemingly to a crawl.

I have decided.

I have been posting to this blog at least weekly for over five-and-a-half years.  Twice weekly for almost three-and-a-half years.  Thrice weekly for forty weeks now.  This was the result of me deciding to do something.  It was one of the first solid, unquestioned decisions I made after decades of indecisions.

Now, in my forties, I have come to realize the importance of decision.  Rather than hmm and haw and deliberate endlessly, I am working with deciding.  This is not always easy, as I have spent most of my adult life afraid that the wrong decision would make me unhappy, so more often than not I decided not to decide at all.

One of the pitfalls of this realization for me is a vague sense of regret.  How much of my time did I waste on my lack of decisions?  However, the other side of the same coin is recognizing all that I learned from my previous, indecisive ways.

Now that I know how powerful working with decision is, I am forgiving myself for my past missteps and non-steps, and working more in the here-and-now on being who I want to be.

Present reality is a product of the past.

This concept is very hard for me to wrap my head around.  Yet every single self-help and spiritual book I have read or listened to espouses this same idea.  The life I have, right now, is the result of decisions made and not made in my past.  Because consciousness creates reality, decision is a product of conscious choice.  When I decide, I am the one responsible for the reality I am creating.

Knowing this, and not being entirely satisfied with my current reality, I am working on making more conscious decisions to create better.  I can take better care of my body and mind; I can do work that makes me happy rather than saps my energy; I can focus on abundance to bring more good into my life, and the lives of those I care about.

I am completely aware of this.  I know how this works.  Knowing what I want and making decisions in the here-and-now will build the life I most desire.  Yet I still struggle with indecision, and not letting outside influences upset me.

World news can be distressing.  The American political landscape is thoroughly upsetting.  Friends are struggling with all kinds of different issues.  Awareness of these things is important, so long as I don’t let them interfere with my decision making process.  The only life I can directly influence and effect is my own.  The only reality I can consciously create is mine.

Knowing what I want is just a step across the bridge.

Change is scary.  The unknown can be unsettling.  Stepping out of my comfort zone has always been particularly challenging, but I have done it before successfully.  I went to college halfway across the country all on my own, and restarted my life.  After college I moved to New Jersey, again restarting my life.  I completely recovered from serious injuries without ever considering any alternative.  So what is holding me back now?

Me.  I am holding me back.  I know what I want, but not how to make it happen.  Yet everything I know about conscious reality creation, every book I have read or listened to tells me the same thing.  To move out of my comfort zone I have to get uncomfortable.  I need to decide to get clear of my limiting beliefs, to take the necessary steps and go for it.

The how is not my concern.  It is the decisions that need to be made.  I need to let go of the uncertainty, the fear, the doubt, the indecision.  The time to decide is now.  I am not my past, and unless I work in the present I will not attain my desired future.  Nothing is holding me back, except of course for me.

What do I want?

I want to be decisive.  I want to live in the now.  I want to consciously create the reality that will have me waking up every morning with a sense of excitement for the day ahead.  I want to straighten my back, square my shoulders, and take steps across the bridges, head held high and confident.  I know what I want.  As always, thank you for crossing the bridges with me.


GOAL LOG – Week 26:

Diet:  Overall I have been good on my food intake, though slightly less so when in Knoxville last weekend.

Exercise:  Fencing two days, one lap around the small lake three different days, four laps around the small lake one day, and a trip to the gym.  Exercised four solid days last week.

Writing:  The three blog posts were done.

Meditation:  Four of seven days last week, never less than 7 minutes.

Gratitude:  I expressed gratitude for 5 things on four days last week.


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Five Effects of Conscious Reality Creation

How does consciousness create reality?

When we focus on what we are thinking, how we are feeling, and then taking intentional actions, we become truly aware, and conscious of our decisions.  When we are aware, we take charge and gain control over what we are doing.

Life is too short to not be fully present and conscious of the reality we live in.  We are not on this planet for all that long, so wouldn’t it be better to spend more time being excited about possibilities?

The Law of Attraction, simply put, states that like attracts like.  In other words, what we think about, we can create.  Unconscious thought is how we have created most of the realities we live in now.  Conscious thought, as such, can create the more ideal reality we desire for ourselves.

This is one of those things most people just cannot wrap their minds around.  We each have the power of creation within us.  It is entirely up to us to figure out the best ways to use that.

Conscious reality creation has the following effects on us:

  1. When we think, feel, and act on our hearts’ desires, we are creating joy.
  2. When we create joy, we want to do things that will bring us more joy and happiness.
  3. When we are happy, we are working from a high frequency, and open to attracting more happiness.
  4. When we are happy with our lives, we are more capable of spreading that to others.
  5. We shift to being more excited for every day and the possibilities before us.

It is all-too-easy to believe that we cannot control the world around us.  In part, this is true.  You cannot control any other person and their actions.  You, however, are the ONLY person who can control YOUR thoughts, feelings and actions.  We accept that the reality that has been created by others is the truth.  Yet we are actually able to create whatever reality we most desire for ourselves.  We have that power, even when we do not see it for what it is.

This may seem simple, but if you do not truly believe, really think about what you want your reality to be; seriously feel how that reality will feel as if it is already a done deal; then take intentional actions based on those thoughts and feelings, you will remain in the reality you are in now.

If you are happy in this reality, then you have probably consciously created what you want.  But if you are not happy, not living your life to the fullest you believe you can have, then take the power that is already yours, and work through your awareness to manifest what you truly desire.

Consciousness can create reality, but it takes awareness of our consciousness and that which we desire to make manifest the life we seek.  Even if the process is imperfect, the act of conscious creation is enormously empowering, and that can change your world for the better.

Positivity: Attitude Shifters

To help yourself be more positive, it is extremely helpful to have attitude shifters.

What is an attitude shifter?  A shifter is something you can think about or focus on that will make you feel good.

Shifters can come in any number of forms.  A picture of a person, place or thing that makes you feel happy.  A song or movie dialogue or comedy routine that puts you in a good mood.  A scent, the smell of something that brings your mind to positive thoughts.  Pretty much anything that stimulates your senses in a manner that makes you feel good can serve as an attitude shifter.


Because shifters can take on so many forms and can come from a vast landscape of lifetime experiences, it is a good idea to choose specific shifters.  It is also a good idea to have certain shifters that can be used in particular circumstances, as some may be more readily reached than others.

Attitude shifters are more often than not memory.  It is the recollection of the thing, whatever sense it stimulates, that is most useful in changing your mood.  Because you are working on a memory, you do not need to have a physical object in order to use the shifter.  This can be very useful when you are somewhere you cannot physically change, but mentally take a new approach – meetings, waiting in line, horrid traffic, etc.

How do you know if something is an attitude shifter for you?  When you think about that image, that scent, that touch, that taste, that sound, that emotion – does it put a smile on your face?  Does it make your heart happy?  Does it make you feel good?  If the answer is yes – you have found a shifter.

Using attitude shifters takes work.  It is not hard work, it is conscious work.  All too often we get caught up in the goings-on around us, and let the neutrality or negativity overwhelm us.  To use a shifter, all you have to do is this:

1.  Ask yourself this question – How do I feel?  You might be amazed how seldom you actually pause to ask that.  If you are feeling good or feeling positive, you don’t need an attitude shifter.  In fact, the experience may create a new shifter for future use.  When you find that you are feeling nothing or you are feeling negative, go to:

2. Choose an attitude shifter.  Sometimes this takes more work than others, depending on whether the situation you are in is passive or active.  Remember that child’s laugh, think about that song that makes you want to dance, remember holding your lover’s hand – or whatever shifter you can use to change your attitude.  If one is not working – choose another.

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The great thing about attitude shifters is that they are many and varied and constantly being renewed.  It is not so difficult to take a moment in your mind to bring forth that memory in order to change how you are feeling.

Here is how I would suggest getting started with this (this idea is as much for me as it is for you):  Consciously choose five things that make you happy.  Take some time to firmly place them in your memory.  Even when you are feeling good, focus on them, so that they are clearer and easier to reach to.  When you need to shift your attitude, you will have five readily available options.  After a month, choose five more.  Guess what?  Now there are ten options readily available.

Finding positivity is not hard, it just requires action.  Attitude shifters are a great tool on the road to Positivity.  Positive attitude begets positive energy, and that is always a good thing.


This is the second entry of my Positivity series.  It is my hope these weekly messages might help spread positive energies for everyone.

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