Am I Worthy and Deserving?
I am worthy and deserving of awesomeness in my life.
It’s interesting how often I need to remind myself of this. There have been many instances where I do not feel as though I deserve to have the things I desire in my life.
Crossing the Bridges is the most personal of my weekly posts. I am exploring not only my philosophies and approaches to life, but my actual, factual life.
In Positivity I pointed out that YOU are amazing! Part of the reason for this is because recognition of worth is something we take too often for granted. Along this same line, Pathwalking involved looking at the empowerment of praise. Praising can raise our frequencies. Higher frequencies are associated with better feelings. I don’t know anyone who doesn’t want to feel good.
For much of my life, I have struggled with my self-esteem. Some of this is borne of depression, some of it is life experiences along the way. Recognizing my own self-worth, and deserving of good things has proven to be challenging at times.
While getting outside validation of my worth can help, it’s really a matter of me recognizing my own deserving. Am I worthy of success, abundance, and overall good things in my life? Logically, I know the answer is yes. But feeling it is where the challenge often lies.
Feeling emotions has been a struggle for me most of my life. Sure, there are several instances from my past I can point to for this, but they do not matter now. No, I am an adult. I need to take responsibility for how I feel. When I am not feeling right, it’s up to me to work in the here-and-now to adjust that.
There is never a quick-fix when it comes to this.
Recognizing being worthy and deserving is not a selfish act.
One of the other issues that comes from this is a fear of being perceived as selfish. We are socially so inundated by stories of unbelievable greed and selfishness, it’s hard not to see any act that does not help other people as one that’s not selfish.
Taking care of ourselves is not the same as being selfish. Being selfish comes from a lack mentality. It’s the notion that there is not enough to go around, so I have to hoard what there is. Greed is of the same ilk, and a monetary form of selfishness.
When I say I am deserving and worthy of awesomeness in my life, I am also suggesting that you are, too. But in order to have more to give, I need to have some for myself.
We live in an abundant universe. This is not an easy thing to recognize, because our society is hyper-focused on lack and scarcity. Consciousness creates reality. The more we focus on what we don’t want, the more we are in danger of creating.
I am a good person. Maybe I am not always the best office worker, and from time to time I can be stubborn. But I am a good person, with a good heart. I want to live a life with abundance and prosperity. Not just so that I can have more of the things I want, but so that I can also give more.
The awesomeness I am worthy and deserving of is both tangible and intangible.
Nobody but you can determine your own worth. Yet regularly, we turn to peers and loved ones for affirmation. The thing is, even if they tell us we are worthy, we might not feel it.
This is why I am stating in the open that I am worthy and deserving of a good life. Because everyone is.
We are worthy even when we screw up.
Every single one of us is perfectly imperfect. Part of the human condition is that we’re going to get it wrong. We will cause someone to feel hurt, or disrespected, or unloved. We will make mistakes. There will be foul-ups both great and small along the way. These are the lessons that help us to grow. They do not lessen our worth.
I have been reciting a new Mantra or Mightiness, as Jen Sincero calls it, for almost two weeks. As often as I am putting it out there, I need to do so even more. It reminds me of my worth, and that I deserve to be abundant and happy.
There is always work to be done. This is actually a good thing, because that work is how we grow. I have a lot of things I am aiming to do with my life. I know that I can make them happen.
Abundance and prosperity are things I am worthy and deserving of, just the same as you are. It is ok to be aware of this. Awareness is consciousness, and consciousness creates reality.
As always, thank you for crossing the bridges between my worlds with me!
This is the sixty-eighth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series. My collectively published writing can be found here.
