The Ramblings of the Titanium Don
Explorations of Conscious Reality Creation, Mindfulness, and Other Matters
You choose if fear controls you or you control it. I am about to do something slightly terrifying. What is it? I’m going to take a step into the unknown. I’m doing something that is financially risky – but has the potential to be incredible. This is really scary. It’s bringing up a lot of my deep-seated fears, which can be dangerous when I allow them to control me. Like every other thought and feeling – fear is under my
Negative emotions are unavoidable. But we can choose to work with and through them. Negative emotions: everyone has them, feels them, and experiences them. How that manifests for me is not how it manifests for you. But in our own way, we each experience this. I started my day with enthusiasm and positive anticipation for what was coming. My morning reading ritual started got underway – but then, noting the time, I had to end it early to post my
Everybody will fall from time to time. How you get back up, however, is a choice. Last week, I began a couple of new freelance gigs. This has been excellent. I am enjoying doing both. They are quite different from one another – and each completely in my wheelhouse. What’s more, they feel very much as if they are part of my path. However, in getting adjusted to a new timetable and the requirements of these new gigs – I
I forgot how powerful journal therapy can be. Let me start by stating that I am in no way a medical professional, therapist, or the like. All of what I know is based on many different life experiences over the years. From the mid-90s through about 2004 I journaled regularly. I have multiple formerly blank books filled with many thoughts, feelings, intentions, and ideas from that period. When I maintained those journals, I was writing as little as weekly and
You get to decide to choose – or not – when faced with a choice. For the longest time, I was really good at deciding not to decide. I would stand with a choice before me – and overthink the crap out of it. I’d explore every possible “what if?” scenario, fear getting my choice wrong and having to suffer due to that – until the choice was no longer mine to make. Opportunities passed me by. Things happened outside
How does the question “what if I succeed?” evoke subconscious fear? This question has been plaguing my path for a long time. Every time I work on a path I desire to follow – something happens that causes me to abandon it, stop giving it my full attention, and/or self-sabotage. This is, of course, not conducive to success. Why? Why do I always do this? How come I am constantly getting in my own way? What causes me to get
I don’t think so – but it’s possible I am lying to myself. The only person who can truly know me, in-depth, is me. This is because there is nobody but me here inside of my head, heart, and soul. No matter how much I connect with anyone else – in any way, shape, or form – I’m still the only one in here. The only person capable of getting at my motivations, recognizing my beliefs, values, and habits is
Releasing a long-time fear isn’t the bitter pill I thought it might be. For most of my life, the opinions of others have been of the utmost importance to me. I’ve sought approval, recognition, and generally being liked. More and more, though, it’s become increasingly evident to me that this doesn’t matter. At least, not in the way I tend to emphasize it. What do I mean? The short answer is that the opinions of others are not what makes
Overcoming the desire for people to “get” me is ongoing. I’ve spent a lot of my life trying to make an impression on people. Some of those people are or have been close to me. Family, friends, coworkers, etc. Others have been far more removed. You might be among them. Like most teenagers, I worked hard to “fit in” to this group or that. Mind you, I was never a popular kid – I was (and still am) a geek.
The question of “when will then be now” is not uncommon along a given path. The other night, we were watching Mel Brooks’ Spaceballs. There is a fantastic scene in the movie where Dark Helmet (Rick Moranis) and Col. Sanders (George Wyner) – while searching for the protagonists – turn to Spaceballs: The Video Tape to find them. During this scene, confused by seeing themselves “now” on the video screen, They have the following exchange. “Everything that happens now is
