What Will be the Rewards and Consequences of my Decisions?
Conscious reality creation takes place in the now.
We cannot undo the past, and as Yoda says, “Always in motion is the future.” The only part of reality we truly control is the present.
This week has marked several changes on my part. All of them involved decisions. One was in regards to changing this blog for its growth, one will close a long-standing issue I’ve spent more than half-a-decade trying to resolve. In both instances I had to make a choice, to decide to take an action, each with consequences both real and perceived.
As I was writing Pathwalking this week, I had a moment where a lightbulb went off in my head. Yes, I long ago recognized that I am the most successful at sabotaging myself, but this is not a matter of sabotage, but of perception. That matter of perception is a large part of the why behind my not yet manifesting the reality I desire.
To reiterate that point, I constantly feel like I am on the cusp of creating what I want, on the verge of consciously creating my desired reality…and because I keep it just ahead of me, just about to happen, it never manages to actually happen. So close…but not yet here.
Consciously creating reality requires being aware and present in the here-and-now. When I am aware, I am able to think what I want, to feel what it will feel like, and take the necessary actions and make the decisions to do it.
Changes and decisions made.
I spent more money than I was comfortable spending shifting this blog from being hosted with the limitations of wordpress dot com to a new host and using the tools of wordpress dot org. I spent even a bit more because I set-up the ability to move more of my domains to WordPress, so that I can make them better and more powerful, too. The consequences of that choice were both tangible and intangible. The former being the money spent is spent, the intangible being the concern of losing what I had already created. I am pleased to note that, thus far, that does not appear to be the case here.
I took steps to resolve a long-standing matter both personal and financial. An investment I am no longer benefitting from has been hanging over my head for some time. The investment is not mine alone, it is shared with family. We have had different priorities in regards to this, and it’s been the cause of some strife for several years. The other party has taken action to resolve this, and while I requested specific remuneration, they disagreed. I disagreed with their reasoning, but rather than draw this out even further, I chose to accept what was offered and move ahead. The consequences of this choice were both tangible and intangible. The former being getting less than I feel I should be, the intangible being lost respect between myself and the other party. This is not yet complete, but I expect no further issues in finally getting resolution.
In both instances there were choices to make. Though they are vastly different matters, they are the same in being steps forward versus remaining in the comfort zone I am existing in. Both involved being in the now, and accepting the consequences, good or bad, of my actions.
Being present to manifest.
The point has been driven home this week multiple times how important it is for me to be in the present. I can only work in the here-and-now to consciously create my reality, and that will only be accomplished when I take my choices and make decisions for action.
I need to stop viewing the manifestation of the reality I desire as being just slightly ahead of me, on the cusp of actually BEING. I need to see it NOW, here and present and happening. Last week I discussed the power of I AM in crossing the bridges, but this is exactly that. By thinking, feeling and saying, “I am on the cusp of making this happen!” I am leaving the reality I want to live in just ahead of myself. There it us, just out of my grasp, almost, nearly visible through the haze. So. Close.
I need to decide that “I am manifesting my reality.” In the present, in the here-and-now, I am creating the reality I want and manifesting the life I believe I am capable of having. This is a decision no different from the others I have made this week, albeit composed of more intangibles.
I need to choose to think in the here and now, “I am consciously creating my reality. I am doing it. It is manifesting all around me, right here, right now.” The consequences of this choice are both tangible and intangible. The former is getting to do what I really want to be doing with my life and truly practicing what I write about. The latter is the concern that the people I care about will think I am off my rocker, that they will abandon me and I will fail.
I think this is a decision I will ultimately be happy with. I know that, here and now, I am. As always, thank you for crossing the bridges with me!
GOAL LOG – Week 24:
Diet: Overall I have been good on my food intake.
Exercise: Fencing three days, one to four laps around the small lake three different days.
Writing: The three blog posts were done, worked on my modern alchemist story one day.
Meditation: Every day last week, never less than 5 minutes.
Gratitude: I expressed gratitude for 5 things every day last week.
This is the thirty-eighth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series. My collectively published writing can be found here.
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