Crossing the Bridges: Manifesting
Mind over matter.
I am constantly seeking new and better ways to get control over my mental and emotional state. I know, from the ever-increasing number of books I have read on the subject, that to truly manifest anything I want, I have to absolutely focus on it, without fear or doubt.
I have had success at this process a few times. I know why, I know how…and yet I struggle to succeed regularly.
Why? Because I let my inner skeptic have too much say. Because I have doubt, and fear, and they often overwhelm or at least overshadow my reason. No matter how hard I try to stay focused on what I want to create, I have become rather talented at getting to a certain point, and then…either nothing further, or it all comes tumbling down.
I am constantly working on improving this. I read new and different books on the topics of the Law of Attraction and manifesting and consciousness/awareness and being your genuine self. Much of it sticks, and yet I still have doubt and uncertainty managing to hold me back.
When I recovered from my numerous injuries so totally, it was because there was NO doubt, no uncertainty, and no other option allowed to take hold. I accepted no other scenario, no other possibility but total and complete recovery. And I got it. If I don’t tell you about what happened to me, or I don’t show you any of the scars, you’d have no idea the extent of the damage my body took.
When I acquired my current car, against seemingly impossible odds, I simply saw the outcome and knew, without doubt or uncertainty, that the situation was going to work itself out in my favor. I accepted no other scenario, no other possibility but replacing my dying car with a better car. And I got it. It may not be my dream car, but I am deeply grateful that I have it, and it’s pretty awesome.
So how come I have succeeded at this idea a time or two, but cannot manage to do it more frequently? I believe this boils down to a large number of different factors. Might be depression, might be skepticism, might be a lack of focus. It’s most likely a combination of many different things when all is said and done.
So, what do I do with this information? How do I improve my mindset, change my thoughts so that my feelings are more positive and less negative? Besides using the Pathwalking in Practice items I have recently begun to create (gratitude, awareness questions, journaling thus far) I need to get clearer on what I want when all is said and done. And more than that, I need to not worry about the how.
I like to know how things work. Even when my knowledge is fairly general and not specific, like the workings of cars and airplanes but not enough that I can be any kind of mechanic, I like knowing. I love learning. Learning is everything, and I am striving every single day to learn things.
Unfortunately, when I cannot see just how I might get from here to there, from my current situation to my dream, I want to examine how. I want to know what steps I need to take, and I want to be aware of all the workings.
The problem with this, however, is that I also know that to truly consciously create reality, I have to trust the Universe. I have to focus on the outcome, not the how. Yes, the path is just as, if not more, important…but it I don’t believe completely the outcome is real, then I sabotage it every step of the way.
I see my future in the future. And I know, because I have traveled these paths before, that I have to see it in the here and now. I cannot be thinking about the crossing of the bridges – I need to think about what I get on the other side.
This is a process. There are always new questions, always different answers. I need to become less fearful, less skeptical, more sure and more focused. I need to stop getting partway there, I need to get all the way in. I need to see my life as I want it, not as I would hope it to be. I need to be more positive in the here and now, less fearful, less skeptical.
As such – it may be time for me to back off social media. I want to stay informed of our current disastrous political climate…but the constant barrage of all the awfulness is getting to me. It makes me sad, angry, frightened, and overall unhappy. I will do what I can to combat this awfulness, but I cannot let these things so very far from my control dominate my existence. I just can’t. Nor should I. I need to live for my life, my happiness, my goals…and where I can help out along the way, in whatever ways that I can, I will.
I have seen this work. I know I can use this, I know I can create the life I want and manifest my own destiny. Consciousness creates reality…and I have the power to ask for what I want, believe that I can have it and make it manifest, then receive it into my life (yes, I know that I just used The Secret there.) I know I have this in me. I just need to pull the things I see ahead of me into the now, and KNOW they are mine. How this will work…is not for me to figure out.
Life is a work in progress. Thanks for reading these ramblings. Thank You for crossing the bridges between my worlds with me.
GOAL LOG – Week 4:
Diet: Continuing with being mindful about what and how much I am eating.
Exercise: One day of fencing, one day at the gym.
Writing: The three blogs got written, and I did some major work on the sci-fi story over 2 days. Also wrote a couple unpublished pieces that may wind up here eventually.
Meditation: Only 1 day of mediation, but for nearly 30 minutes with a group.
Gratitude: I wrote five things I was grateful for every day this week.
This is the eighteenth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series. My collectively published writing can be found here.
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