Where Is My Intent?
I have been working with the question of the intent for my life a long time, now.
For decades, my answer was usually, “I don’t know what I want.” I became particularly skilled at saying “I don’t know”. Over time, my indecision extended out to include restaurants, jobs, relationships, hairstyles…you name it. When it came to decision-making, I left that to anyone else that I could.
Less than ten years ago, however, I began to really think about what I wanted from my life. I became less indecisive, and started to make choices. Eventually I began to act with far more intent than not.
Over time I have begun to achieve more of the things I set out to do. I finished and self-published my novels, began to blog regularly, got into a stable relationship, and overall started to work on manifesting the life I most desired to have.
Some people know from a pretty young age just who and what they want to be. Some people never figure this out at all. Then there are people who think they know, but then keep changing their minds. The term I have seen for this nowadays is FOMO – Fear Of Missing Out. If I choose wrong, what might I miss? I spent a lot of time in this place.
There have, of course, been moments of brilliant and not-so-brilliant conscious reality creation in the course of my life. On many of those occasions, I didn’t realize I was manifesting my experience. There were, however, a few times along the way that I got it. I thought, felt, and intentionally acted upon the intended goal. I had no doubt, did not second guess, saw and accepted only the one outcome, and sure enough that’s what I got.
Intent needs to be in the now.
The idea behind crossing the bridges has been my personal work to bridge the gaps I perceive in my life. Or more specifically, lives. There is the vastly different types of writing I do, which includes multiple genres of fiction; different non-fictions like this blog, my humorous narrative, and other empowerment and self-help works; business and professional writing that seldom gets my name attached to it. Different formats, all me. This is also ignoring Malcolm, my SCA persona, and all the things I do there.
The initial issue was, can I write all these different things under one name? Or do I created different personas for different genres? I created these posts as part of the solution, and started to work from here.
After spending a great deal of my life uncertain of my intent, I know what it is I want now. The life I want to make manifest is clear. I know who I am, who I want to be, and what it will be like to get there.
Then I reach this same problem. I can see it…ahead. In my mind’s eye I envision what it will be like…soon. Before me are the things I want to have, the person I want to be, the life experience I want to enjoy. Here I am, right on the cusp, and I am so very nearly there I can almost taste it. Every single one of my senses anticipates how it will feel, how it will be.
Consciousness creates reality. If I always see these things ahead of me, as not yet happened, then why am I surprised I can’t quite get what I desire?
I need to be aware of when my intent is for.
If my intent is focused ahead instead of in the now, is it any surprise I frequently feel as if I am on the cusp of achieving my desire, but can’t get over that last hump?
This applies to numerous things in my life. My weight, my career, my overall goals. All of these I can see as I want them to be. But I leave them ahead of me, down the line, coming soon. They are not getting the fuel they need in the here-and-now to truly come into being.
The key to manifestation of any goal is to see it as already done. How many times have I written this over the years? It doesn’t matter, because until I take it to heart and apply it, I need to keep writing it down.
When I have consciously created my reality before, I KNOW, without a shred of doubt, that I saw only one possible outcome. What’s more, I saw it as already done, not coming up or down-the-line, but done. I wasn’t healing, I was healed. The car I needed wasn’t going to be acquired soon, it was already mine. No doubts, no second-guesses, no skepticism, already a done-deal.
It is this spirit I need to take to heart. I have to get out of seeing things ahead of me, and see them here-and-now. I have to let go of my doubt, stop second-guessing, and think, feel and act with intent on these things today.
Action with intent manifests conscious reality creation.
This is not me placing the blame on society, but acknowledging that part of my issue is there. We live in a society obsessed with the past and future, rarely focused on the now. Too much time reading things on social media can subconsciously pull me away from the now. Knowing this, I see what I need to work on.
I need to find and take more intentional actions in order to get out of my own head. The specifics will require some work. As I have written before, and will certainly write again, nothing worth having is ever too easy. I know what I want from my life. Now, right now, I need to envision it as here. Not coming up, not soon, not ahead, but here.
Consciousness creates reality. New mantra/affirmation: I see myself living in abundance, with all the joy and awesomeness and people I love surrounding me. Rinse, repeat. Manifest the life I desire.
I hope that the coming New Year brings you everything you wish to create. As always, Thank You for crossing the bridges between my worlds with me.
This is the sixty-sixth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series. My collectively published writing can be found here.
