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Where Is My Intent?

I have been working with the question of the intent for my life a long time, now.

For decades, my answer was usually, “I don’t know what I want.”  I became particularly skilled at saying “I don’t know”.  Over time, my indecision extended out to include restaurants, jobs, relationships, hairstyles…you name it.  When it came to decision-making, I left that to anyone else that I could.

IntentLess than ten years ago, however, I began to really think about what I wanted from my life.  I became less indecisive, and started to make choices.  Eventually I began to act with far more intent than not.

Over time I have begun to achieve more of the things I set out to do.  I finished and self-published my novels, began to blog regularly, got into a stable relationship, and overall started to work on manifesting the life I most desired to have.

Some people know from a pretty young age just who and what they want to be.  Some people never figure this out at all.  Then there are people who think they know, but then keep changing their minds.  The term I have seen for this nowadays is FOMO – Fear Of Missing Out.  If I choose wrong, what might I miss?  I spent a lot of time in this place.

There have, of course, been moments of brilliant and not-so-brilliant conscious reality creation in the course of my life.  On many of those occasions, I didn’t realize I was manifesting my experience.  There were, however, a few times along the way that I got it.  I thought, felt, and intentionally acted upon the intended goal.  I had no doubt, did not second guess, saw and accepted only the one outcome, and sure enough that’s what I got.

Intent needs to be in the now.

The idea behind crossing the bridges has been my personal work to bridge the gaps I perceive in my life.  Or more specifically, lives.  There is the vastly different types of writing I do, which includes multiple genres of fiction; different non-fictions like this blog, my humorous narrative, and other empowerment and self-help works; business and professional writing that seldom gets my name attached to it.  Different formats, all me.  This is also ignoring Malcolm, my SCA persona, and all the things I do there.

The initial issue was, can I write all these different things under one nameOr do I created different personas for different genres?  I created these posts as part of the solution, and started to work from here.

After spending a great deal of my life uncertain of my intent, I know what it is I want now.  The life I want to make manifest is clear.  I know who I am, who I want to be, and what it will be like to get there.

Then I reach this same problem.  I can see it…ahead.  In my mind’s eye I envision what it will be like…soon.  Before me are the things I want to have, the person I want to be, the life experience I want to enjoy.  Here I am, right on the cusp, and I am so very nearly there I can almost taste it.  Every single one of my senses anticipates how it will feel, how it will be.

Consciousness creates reality.  If I always see these things ahead of me, as not yet happened, then why am I surprised I can’t quite get what I desire?

I need to be aware of when my intent is for.

If my intent is focused ahead instead of in the now, is it any surprise I frequently feel as if I am on the cusp of achieving my desire, but can’t get over that last hump?

This applies to numerous things in my life.  My weight, my career, my overall goals.  All of these I can see as I want them to be.  But I leave them ahead of me, down the line, coming soon.  They are not getting the fuel they need in the here-and-now to truly come into being.

The key to manifestation of any goal is to see it as already done.  How many times have I written this over the years?  It doesn’t matter, because until I take it to heart and apply it, I need to keep writing it down.

When I have consciously created my reality before, I KNOW, without a shred of doubt, that I saw only one possible outcome.  What’s more, I saw it as already done, not coming up or down-the-line, but done.  I wasn’t healing, I was healed.  The car I needed wasn’t going to be acquired soon, it was already mine.  No doubts, no second-guesses, no skepticism, already a done-deal.

It is this spirit I need to take to heart.  I have to get out of seeing things ahead of me, and see them here-and-now.  I have to let go of my doubt, stop second-guessing, and think, feel and act with intent on these things today.

Action with intent manifests conscious reality creation.

This is not me placing the blame on society, but acknowledging that part of my issue is there.  We live in a society obsessed with the past and future, rarely focused on the now.  Too much time reading things on social media can subconsciously pull me away from the now.  Knowing this, I see what I need to work on.

I need to find and take more intentional actions in order to get out of my own head.  The specifics will require some work.  As I have written before, and will certainly write again, nothing worth having is ever too easy.  I know what I want from my life.  Now, right now, I need to envision it as here.  Not coming up, not soon, not ahead, but here.

Consciousness creates reality.  New mantra/affirmation: I see myself living in abundance, with all the joy and awesomeness and people I love surrounding me.  Rinse, repeat.  Manifest the life I desire.

I hope that the coming New Year brings you everything you wish to create.  As always, Thank You for crossing the bridges between my worlds with me.


This is the sixty-sixth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series.  My collectively published writing can be found here.

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Pathwalking 148

Manifestation can be quite the paradox.

On the one hand it is astoundingly simple. On the other hand, it is intricately complex.

It is in fact both. I believe, however, that the hardest part of manifestation is the basic idea of what it is you want.

I know that a lot of people see this hooky-spooky bs. New-agey mumbo-jumbo. However, I have first-hand experience with making this actually work, and I know that it is more than just possibility, but reality.

The first and most important fact in manifestation is the simplest, but hardest to grasp. What is it you really, truly want? What do you desire to have in your life?

A lot of what we THINK we want are in fact abstracts. They are grandiose ideas that in and of themselves will not grant us what it is we really want. We want these huge, all-encompassing things that on the surface seem to be our desire, but in truth are actually either the result of what we really want, or only a lesser part of the greater aspiration.

Most of the things we really, truly desire are simple. Amazingly simple. We want to be happy. We want to love. We want to be loved. We want to have material things that ultimately make us feel good. We want good things in our lives to make life better, more efficient and/or more convenient.

The other important thing about what we want to manifest is this: We can ONLY manifest for ourselves. We have no control over the lives or actions of others, and as such we cannot make their lives for them. It can be surprising how often the thing we think we want is not actually about us, but about someone else and how they play in our lives.

Once you know what it is you want, the thing you truly want to manifest, there are three things that have to occur:

One. You have to put the thought into it, you have to see it as a part of your life.

Two. You have to desire it, you have to feel how its presence will make you feel on an emotional level.

Three.   You have to take action, doing things in a manner that will both bring that which you desire to you, and taking actions to help bring it about.

You cannot just pull things out of thin air. Manifestation does not work like that. There has to be a base, and that is why there has to be thought, emotion and action.

There are grand and glorious things some people want. You cannot be President if you do not get involved in politics. You cannot be a best-selling author if you never write a word. You cannot be a singer in a rock band if you are not creating a band.

There are simpler, more practical things some people want. You cannot acquire a new car if you are not looking for one. You cannot find a lover if you are not putting yourself out there. You cannot have the job you desire most if you are not seeking one out.

These are the necessary actions. The Universe will provide, but not from a pure vacuum. You can’t just think it, you can’t just feel it. You have to take action.

I healed from severe injuries FAR beyond and far faster than expected. If I do not show you my scars, you would never know what happened to me. I didn’t just believe I’d heal completely, I didn’t just feel that I would get well, I took action. I pushed through all of the physical and occupational therapy they gave me, and demanded more. I took every action available to me to mend, and thinking, feeling and acting upon it succeeded.

I didn’t just find the car I am currently driving. I needed a new car, I started looking into it, I started making inquiries. Yes, I believed I could make it happen, despite the obstacles in the way of it. Yes, I felt what it would be like to have a more fuel-efficient and sound vehicle. But I also sent e mails and took phone calls and visited the dealership to make it happen. I took actions to make it manifest.

These things I made manifest were both simple and complex on a number of levels. But that is the way the Universe works. I can manifest what I need and what I want, but I can only do so if I employ thoughts, feeling and action together. Alone, none of these will manifest anything but dreams. You must awaken from the dreams in order to think, feel and act upon your desire to make them manifest.

This brings up my final point on this topic. You can dream big, you can dream small, but unless you are awake and aware, you cannot manifest any reality. No matter how simple, complex or both, dreams cannot be reality without being awake and aware of your thoughts, emotions and actions.

What do you want to manifest for yourself?


This is the one-hundred forty eighth entry in my series. These weekly posts are specifically about walking along the path of life, and my desire to make a difference in this world along the way. Feel free to re-blog and share.  Thank you for joining me.

The first fifty-two weeks (Year One) of installments of Pathwalking is available in print and for your Kindle.

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