If I don’t bother to decide, I leave my fate up to my subconscious.

Sure, I could blame outside influences or circumstances or what-have-you.  But the truth is that when I don’t make conscious decisions, my subconscious is driving the bus.

This can be a particularly complicated concept to grasp.  Probably the biggest reason why is because we live in a society that lacks accountability.

Our government is the perfect example of this fact.  At almost every level, nobody takes responsibility for their actions.  The blame gets tossed about and analyzed, but actual accountability is nil.  Because we see this on so many levels of our reality, we generally go with the flow and tend to also lack accountability.

That’s the first part.  The second is recognizing that we create our own reality.  Consciousness creates reality.  But when I do not consciously decide for myself, subconsciousness creates my reality.

I still find this concept difficult to grasp.  Yet I know that it’s the truth of the way the Universe functions.  Nobody but me can think what and how I think.  I alone feel what I feel, even when I allow outside influences to affect my feelings.  Only I can act on things I decide, or don’t, to do.  That being said, the reality in which I live now, for good or bad, is of my own making.

To decide is to take control.

A great deal of the issues I have with my current reality are products of past thought, feeling and action.  Every thought that you seat deeply enough into your psyche and put feeling behind has the power to create.  Even when you cease to attend to that thought/feeling, if it’s rooted deeply, it gets acted upon.  If you do not consciously create reality, you still create reality subconsciously.

Ever notice when you expect something to be terrible, and start visualizing it, you’re seldom disappointed?  You didn’t consciously want to create that – but you subconsciously DID.  And so you have.

When you work on being aware and in the here and now, you empower yourself.  You gain control of your decision.  Awareness of conscious creation makes for creating better realities.

As I am working on improving my reality, this is hugely important.

Don’t let your subconscious decide.

I want to choose my life.  I don’t want to let my subconscious and limiting thoughts do it.  Yet most of my life, that’s how it has been.  While I have created some pretty amazing stuff in my life, I know I am capable of manifesting even better.

That’s why I want to consciously create my reality.  I am walking the path of my own choosing.  I am crossing these bridges I am creating between the paths in my life.  If I choose to do so consciously, I gain the power to build amazing things.

I have done this before, more than once.  Yet I allow myself to cede control of my emotions to the media, or in reaction to outside influence too readily.  When I do that, I let my subconscious feelings mix with subconscious thoughts, and I create mediocrity where I want to manifest greatness for myself.

Decide to be aware.

This is the key.  I need to be aware of my thoughts, my feelings, and my actions.  I know that this comes down to decision.  I need to decide that this is my life.  I need to decide what to do. I need to decide what to keep, what to change, and what to act on.  Frequently, not occasionally.  As my current reading material points out, this is a muscle.  Like any muscle, you have to exercise it to make it stronger.

I know I can live in a better reality than this one.  I also know that I need to be grateful for this reality.  My life is good.  This is not me complaining about it.  Good, however, is not all I want.  I want great.  I want to be happier.  I want to enjoy how I spend my days more than I do now.  Life is too short to live halfway.  I want to live bigger.  I am capable of that, and I know it.  The key is conscious reality creation.

I ask myself questions several times a day to heighten my awareness.  Yet because most of my weekday hours are in a place that numbs me, I am still struggling.  I have to change this.  I need to decide to change this.  That’s the first step.

Decide to overcome the fear.

Deciding is scary.  I worry that if I decide wrong I will invite failure.  But the truth, and I know this, is that doing something and failing beats doing nothing and failing.  Make a decision.  Think, feel, act.  DECIDE.  Conscious reality creation is powerful, but I am the only one who can manifest for myself.

More decision.  More actions.  I know I can do this.  Let’s see what I do with this.  As always, thank you for crossing the bridges with me.

 

GOAL LOG – Week 25:

Diet:  Overall I have been good on my food intake.

Exercise:  Fencing two days, one lap around the small lake three different days, a walk with my friend and her dog, AND three days at the gym!

Writing:  The three blog posts were done.

Meditation:  Every day last week, never less than 6 minutes.

Gratitude:  I expressed gratitude for 5 things every day last week.

 

This is the thirty-ninth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series.  My collectively published writing can be found here.