The Ramblings of the Titanium Don

Explorations of Conscious Reality Creation and Other Matters

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What Makes Me Feel Satisfied?

I have worked any number of jobs that didn’t leave me feeling satisfied.

We all have to earn a living, right?  You can’t just laze about your home, on a beach, or wander aimlessly all the time, because clothing, food and shelter cost money.  Also, frankly, doing nothing at all gets pretty boring pretty fast.

SatisfiedWhen I started college, I remember preparing to register for my first classes.  It was orientation, and I had not yet chosen my major.  I told my dad that I was going to major in procrastination and hesitation, with a minor in bureaucratic red tape.  He laughed, I laughed…and then I ruined his golf game because I get in line with my temporary advisor at 6am so that I could get into the classes I desired to take, and was done early.

The irony of this is that, in many respects, I really did choose procrastination and hesitation as my major.  Yes, I got my Bachelor’s degree in four years, but after college I was aimless.  The degree program and studies in college that I chose satisfied me, but were not, in the real world after college, sustainable.

Thus I spent my mid-twenties bouncing between jobs, and places I called home.  Then, I got hit by a car crossing a street, and would become the Titanium Don.  A year of my life went to recovery.

My body was changed, not just because of the fused bones in my right leg and titanium plates in my shoulder, but the muscle groups recovered in many unique ways.  Because I was not satisfied with the notion of recovering at any-old pace, I pushed, and pushed, and got past several of the obstacles my doctors expected.  No limp when I walk, and full use of my right arm.

What does it take for me to be satisfied?

After my recover and my return to a more-or-less normal life, this question continued to pop up.  What did it take for me to be satisfied by my life?  I found a job I was good at, but that bored me.

It was during this period, however, that Seeker was professionally edited.  Not only did my novel get thoroughly improved, but I learned how to strengthen my own writing, and became a far more skilled editor.

Perhaps it was my equal fears of success and failure, and the underlying fear of abandonment…or maybe it was my penchant for indecision, procrastination and hesitation…but I was not satisfied.  Satisfaction didn’t come from dating, the new home I moved into didn’t bring it about, and while I got a job I actually truly loved, the pay was not so satisfying.

My best friend told me on more than one occasion that consciousness creates reality.  I sort of accepted that idea, but didn’t really give it much attention.  Except on more than one occasion, I had used it successfully.

As I began to explore this idea, and found the best therapist I had ever seen, my life began to shift.  I was starting to find things that satisfied me.  I started to date an amazing woman, I got a couple different opportunities to publish some of my writing, and the notion of a New Year’s Action birthed Pathwalking.

It has been more than six years, now, since I started blogging weekly.  Rather than continue to submit my novels to agents and garner more rejections, I decided to self-publish.  That woman I was dating became my wife, and I began to realize that more things in my life made me feel satisfied than I had been acknowledging.

The satisfaction from the little things is actually huge.

When we look at the “big picture” of the society we live in, it’s easy to lose sight of the little things in life.  Every single day presents new opportunities, new options, new experiences.  Of course life throws curveballs, and we need to do things that are less fun like taking out the garbage, cleaning the toilet, and scooping the litter boxes.  Expressing gratitude for the things and people we have in our lives can help us feel satisfied, even in the face of bad days.

Currently, I have reached a point in my life where I am working on manifesting the life I want.  I am seeking ways to earn my living with my writing, because this is what makes me feel most satisfied.  This weekly section of the blog was created was so that I could explore how to bridge the gaps I envision between the styles of writing I do.  This blog, and the work in conscious reality creation, is as important to me as the fictional worlds of fantasy, Steampunk and sci-fi I write.

Published novels can lead to pay.  Nothing I have put out has become any sort of best-seller, yet.  Sure, I suppose it is a form of arrogance on my part to desire that sort of status, but as a writer with a lot of characters, stories and worlds in my head, I believe it is possible.

Conscious reality creation is an idea I can take several steps beyond this blog.  Maybe a podcast, and possibly speaking engagements to explore how this can and does work for everyone, when we are aware of what we think, how we feel, and the intentions of our actions.

Am I afraid of how it might feel to feel satisfied?

Maybe.  I long ago came to the conclusion that my fear of failure has an equal partner in a fear of success, both of which lead to the deeper, underlying fear of abandonment.  It is not the easiest path, but I am striving to create the joy I most desire, and crossing the bridges between my writing styles is the key to that.

I blogged on my author website that I was launching a Patreon.  I have been studying just what exactly Patreon is, and the best description I can provide is this:  Patreon is a place where people have the opportunity to be your patron.  They have a chance to provide you with support for that which you provide to them.  To quote Patreon directly: “Patreon is a membership platform that makes it easy for creators to get paid.”

Why do I want to do this?  What am I aiming to accomplish?  I want to be able to put into action the conscious reality creation I am blogging about.  As I continue to share the ideas of this blog, I want to be able to contribute more to my household and pay bills.

Today, I launch my Patreon.  It is my goal that this will allow me to create more, cross more bridges, and live a life that will bring me satisfaction on more levels.  I believe that what I have to offer is of tremendous value, and while I worry that this might come across as selfish, I believe that there is nothing unreasonable about taking this step.

Thank you for being a part of my journey.  Thank you for your continued support.

As always, thank you for crossing the bridges between my worlds with me.

This is the seventy-second entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series.  My collectively published writing can be found here.

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What Happens When the “Other Shoe” Drops?

When the other shoe drops, do you pick it up?

I have been anticipating this situation for several months now.  I had hoped to depart on my own terms, but I suspected this was coming.  So it was not much of a surprise.

The job I have held for the past year, and been duly grateful for, has come to an end.  Now my eight hours a day in a place where I was all-too-often bored, and frequently unhappy, is no more.

I am not upset nor angry about this.  Rather, I am seeing it as an opportunity to move my life forward.  Consciousness creates reality, and I know what it is I want to create.  There are bridges I want to cross, and cross them I will.

Since I was let go from the job, I have made excellent use of my time.  A while back I created a schedule I called A Day in the Life – The Life I Most Desire.  In that schedule I laid out my work day (starting at 8:30am), giving myself time for writing and editing, exercise, reading, lunch.  I even gave myself time to goof off in the morning, play games, put my brain in gear at my own pace.

How will this make me money?  That is not what I am currently focused on.  I am concerned with living life in the manner I have long desired, and from this action find everything I need to live as fully as I can.

Can I sustain this?  That remains to be seen.  I am striving to find a way, because this is how I want my life to be.

Can I make money doing what I love?

This is the elephant in the room, the question that most needs to be answered.  Can I work this all out so that I will make money doing this?  How can I make this happen?  Is there a way I can get this blog to make money; more books to sell; other options that involve writing for money?

The first step in manifestation is believing.  Faith, which I mentioned before, is important to conscious reality creation.  Most of all, faith in myself as a creator, and from there faith in the Universe.  Faith in my belief in conscious reality creation and manifestation.

I know that this works, as I have made it work before.  I need to apply it to now, to my life as it currently is, and to become whom I want to be.  To do that I have to think it, feel it, take actions like following this schedule I created to make it so.

The Secret approaches conscious reality creation with different words – Ask, Believe and Receive.  Action for the thought – ask; for the feeling, believe; for the intentional action, receive.  In thinking about this life I want to live, I am asking of myself to become a professional, full-time writer.  When it comes to feeling, I am believing that I have made this manifest.  Lastly, my actions are a reflection of my receiving what I have asked for.

Where do I go from here?

Now that I am not spending most of my waking hours in a place where I was unhappy, I am better able to feel positive, to feel how it feels to succeed at what I want.  Yes, I could dwell on the loss of my salary and changes to my benefits, but in what way will that be healthy?  I instead am making a choice to take this situation and make the very best of it that I can.

Life is too short to spend so much of it unhappy.  How come we accept so readily that this is what work is meant to be?  I know that I need to make money to pay for the things I want and need in life, but do I have to miserable making it?  Why do we so easily accept that at face value?

I think somewhere along the way we, as a society, have lost sight of what we work for.  We are not on this planet for the limited time we get to be here just to go through the motions, we are here to live.  We are here to experience life, good and bad, up and down, in all its amazing glory.  Spending eight or more hours every day in a place that leaves us exhausted, unhappy and stressed does not make any sense.

Yet we all know that we have to earn money, and to earn money we have to work.  The goal is often to earn as much money as possible, and that being the case we will take the jobs that pay the most and offer the best benefits, even when they do not make us happy.  That’s the standard way we do it.

I am not a standard person.

I have never been “normal”, whatever that means.  My life has regularly involved partaking of a different path, a unique way of being – sometimes by choice, but in my youth more often by circumstance.  For example, I didn’t choose for my parents to divorce when it was an uncommon thing in the 1980’s.  It was not my choice to be a part of the relatively small Jewish community in the ‘burbs of Minneapolis, surrounded by a majority of Lutherans.  I chose to pursue theatre in my high school rather than with the local JCC.  Then I chose to be the only graduate of my HS to attend Ithaca College in New York State.

Before I understood intentional actions and conscious reality creation, I frequently did unusual things.  I made choices that were entirely my own.  But due to my lack of understanding about conscious reality creation, I frequently have experienced being the square peg attempting to fit into the round hole.  I need to leave no room for doubt, and create the life I most desire.

Sometimes this is more challenging than not, but I am going to make it work.  As always, thank you for crossing the bridges with me!

 

GOAL LOG – Week 30:

Diet:  I’ve been pretty good this week overall, following a weekend of not as good.

Exercise:  Fencing one day, four days of various exercise at the gym, and an afternoon of swimming.

Writing:  The three blog posts were done; editing of Harbinger occurred; I did some work on my sci-fi novel.

Meditation:  Five of seven days last week, never less than 5 minutes.

Gratitude:  I expressed gratitude for 5 things on five days last week.

 

This is the forty-fourth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series.  My collectively published writing can be found here.

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Election 2016

I am sorry if this offends you, but I feel rather strongly about this, so I am going to say it.

This is the reality of the situation.  We have two choices for President.  Trump or Clinton.  Unless you agree with a self-aggrandizing, hate-mongering, sexist, racist narcissist, it is in your best interest to vote for Clinton.  She may well be the status quo, and a corporate shill, but that is of far less import than we give it.  I know a lot of people thoroughly dislike her, and for that matter I am not her biggest fan either.  But we have ONLY these two choices, whether we like it or not.  She is the best of them by far.

America has two choices for President this year.  I am sorry if you are a supporter of one of the third party candidates, but the sad truth is that they can’t win, because the system is designed to stop them from doing so.  Want to change that?  It won’t change from the top.

This is the truth, whether you want to believe it or not.  You cannot change the system from the top down.  The continued failure of the theory of Trickle-Down economics has proven that.

Thus, you can throw away your vote for President if you so choose, but the statement you are making by voting for your third party candidate might as well be a shout in the middle of the dessert, because it will have the same effect.

Want to change the system?  Since you can’t do it from the top, let’s address the much, much larger issue at hand.  Congress.  The President DOES NOT MAKE LAW.  Read the Constitution, the President signs or vetos laws, but DOES NOT make them.  That’s Congress’ job.  And they are not doing their job.

We have an embarrassing, useless, obstructionist body politic right now.  There are so many people in office who just should not be there.  They are focused on meaningless drivel, and doing nothing to address important matters that could improve the lives of the people they are supposed to represent.  Their elections are the ones we should care the most about.  They are the people in office we should REALLY concern ourselves with.

Do you know who your Congresspeople are?  Take a look at the lawmakers, people.  These are the people we should be focusing on, not the people running for President.  I believe that ALL of the House of Representatives is up for election this year.  Want to change the system?  Get rid of these nimrods and get in new blood where it counts.

Want to support a third party?  How about a third party candidate for Congress?  Bernie Sanders is NOT a Democrat, but he understood that to have ANY chance he had to run for President as one.  We need more independents and third party men and women in the House and the Senate.  THAT is how we change the system.

It might seem like a bleak reality, but that’s what we have.  We need to accept that, and choose the less frightening of the two choices before us.  Meanwhile, let’s turn our attention towards the scary, do-nothing people in Congress, and start making the change that would do our nation the most good.

We CAN change the system.  But we have to work our way from the bottom to the top, not the other way around.

Election 2016

I am sorry if this offends you, but I feel rather strongly about this, so I am going to say it.

This is the reality of the situation.  We have two choices for President.  Trump or Clinton.  Unless you agree with a self-aggrandizing, hate-mongering, sexist, racist narcissist, it is in your best interest to vote for Clinton.  She may well be the status quo, and a corporate shill, but that is of far less import than we give it.  I know a lot of people thoroughly dislike her, and for that matter I am not her biggest fan either.  But we have ONLY these two choices, whether we like it or not.  She is the best of them by far.

America has two choices for President this year.  I am sorry if you are a supporter of one of the third party candidates, but the sad truth is that they can’t win, because the system is designed to stop them from doing so.  Want to change that?  It won’t change from the top.

This is the truth, whether you want to believe it or not.  You cannot change the system from the top down.  The continued failure of the theory of Trickle-Down economics has proven that.

Thus, you can throw away your vote for President if you so choose, but the statement you are making by voting for your third party candidate might as well be a shout in the middle of the dessert, because it will have the same effect.

Want to change the system?  Since you can’t do it from the top, let’s address the much, much larger issue at hand.  Congress.  The President DOES NOT MAKE LAW.  Read the Constitution, the President signs or vetos laws, but DOES NOT make them.  That’s Congress’ job.  And they are not doing their job.

We have an embarrassing, useless, obstructionist body politic right now.  There are so many people in office who just should not be there.  They are focused on meaningless drivel, and doing nothing to address important matters that could improve the lives of the people they are supposed to represent.  Their elections are the ones we should care the most about.  They are the people in office we should REALLY concern ourselves with.

Do you know who your Congresspeople are?  Take a look at the lawmakers, people.  These are the people we should be focusing on, not the people running for President.  I believe that ALL of the House of Representatives is up for election this year.  Want to change the system?  Get rid of these nimrods and get in new blood where it counts.

Want to support a third party?  How about a third party candidate for Congress?  Bernie Sanders is NOT a Democrat, but he understood that to have ANY chance he had to run for President as one.  We need more independents and third party men and women in the House and the Senate.  THAT is how we change the system.

It might seem like a bleak reality, but that’s what we have.  We need to accept that, and choose the less frightening of the two choices before us.  Meanwhile, let’s turn our attention towards the scary, do-nothing people in Congress, and start making the change that would do our nation the most good.

We CAN change the system.  But we have to work our way from the bottom to the top, not the other way around.

Taking a Stand for Equal Rights for ALL

It is time to take a stand.

Full disclosure: I am a white, straight, non-Christian male.  And I believe that EVERYONE deserves equal rights.

I do not care in the least if you are white, black, Hispanic, Asian or what-have-you; it does not matter if you are male or female or gender fluid or no gender at all; it doesn’t matter if you are straight, gay, bi, omnisexual or any other option; it is of no matter to me if you are spiritual, agnostic, atheist, Muslim, Christian, Jew, Buddhist, Hindi or so-on-and-so-forth; fat, thin, short, tall, flat-footed, blonde, brunette, grey, American, European, Indian, rich, poor, etcetera; EVERYONE DESERVES EQUAL RIGHTS.

We live in a world where people still hate based on the must ludicrous perceived differences.  People act out of fear of those who are different from them, and spew hate and anger at whole groups of people who have never done anything but not be the same as them.

Hatred gets us nowhere.  Period.  Fear only drives us to cower from change and to allow a small, vocal minority to disempower people.  This has got to stop.

Take a stand.  Express your support for equality.

And if you are afraid of people who are different from you, ask yourself this question – WHY?  What are you afraid of?  Are you afraid of being changed?  Are you afraid of losing what you have?  Are you afraid of anything tangible?  Are you afraid of being shown that your fear is completely irrational?  WHY are you angry, why are you afraid?

Everyone deserves equal rights.  We need to love more, fear less, and seek to make the world a better place, together.

I am not afraid of you if you are not like me.  I support you in having the right to worship as you want, to love as you will, to have a life of love and peace and equality.

Equal Rights.  For EVERYONE.  Resist the hate and fear with love and courage.  Do not give back the hate and fear and anger, turn it around and give what you want to get.

I stand with the LGBT community.  I stand with the black community.  I stand with women.  I stand with Muslims and Christians and Buddhists and Jews and Atheists and anyone else trying to worship, or not, freely.  We all deserve to be treated with respect, with dignity, and with equality.  That’s our birthright.

Disagree with me?  Ok, that’s your prerogative.  You are entitled to your own opinion.  What you are not entitled to, however, is degrading, belittling, condescending or denying the rights of those you are in disagreement with.  Don’t politicize basic human decency, and don’t treat people as less than you, because none of us are.

We are all one.  We are all equal.  We all want and deserve equality.  That’s a plain, simple, unbiased fact.

I stand for equality for all.  Will you stand with me?

The Wrong Side of History

Dear haters, bigots, misogynists, and homophobes,

Congratulations – you are on the wrong side of history.

I am sorry to tell you that your hatred will not change public policy. Blacks, women, homosexuals, Hispanics, Hindis, Muslims, transgendered, fat and thin people and everyone else all will win equality, because that is what is right.

There is no “gay agenda”, except maybe they want to be treated like everyone else. There is no Muslim world take-over conspiracy, the vast majority of Muslims think about their religious beliefs the same as everyone else. Women should be paid the same as men for the same jobs. Transgendered people have the right to use whatever bathroom they choose. Black, Hispanic and Indian people are not trying to push out white people.

There IS a war on women and their rights to choose how to treat their own bodies. There ARE religious extremists out there who want their intolerant ways applied to all – and not just Muslims, there are plenty of Christian and even Jewish extremists out there. There ARE haters who fear change and dislike seeing women and homosexuals and anyone who is not white and male in positions of power or as major characters in books, TV, movies and other media. There are nut jobs running for office who deny science and logic and reason in favor of extremism and their own power.

I cannot speak for everyone who feels as I do, but let me just tell you this: We are all one. Stop hating, stop being afraid of change because change is going to happen, you are simply in the way. Let go of your hatred, because it is irrational and useless. You aren’t going to keep the “status quo” because it’s not. Everyone deserves equality, everyone has a right to live the life they would choose, and intolerance and hatred won’t stand.

Those of us who feel this way need to speak up. Stop letting the haters spread their hate unanswered. Spread inclusion instead of exclusion, unity instead of division, peace instead of war, love instead of hate, education instead of blind faith, logic instead of extremism. Stop letting the fear mongers win supporters – Let’s work on spreading truth over irrationality.

Maybe I am espousing a hippy-crunchy love-over-hate message, but I see nothing wrong with that. The world needs less fear and hate and more rationality and love. I’m doing my part – what else can we do to change the world for the better?

Equal Rights and Religious Freedom

The United States of America is NOT, repeat, NOT a Christian Country. Period. End of discussion.

Further, please correct me if I am mistaken, but didn’t Jesus preach equality? From the low to the high, all are children of God and should be respected as such? Who do you think you are claiming your hatred, your bigotry, your discrimination, or your misogyny is in the name of God?

Let’s discuss another absolute fact. There is no war against Christianity in the USA. Period. End of discussion.

America is a great big melting pot. EVERY SINGLE RELIGION you can imagine is found here, and allowed to be practiced. No one religion dominates. Nor should it. That is the definition right there of freedom of religion – go ahead and practice it, no matter what it is.

Besides, do you realize how many forms of Christianity exist? Beyond Catholicism, Lutheranism, Protestantism, Methodist, Baptist…how many more forms are there? How many divides even amongst these? And do they all agree? No. So you are completely off base if you believe that anyone is waging a war against Christianity as a whole.

Look, I have nothing against anyone practicing their religion. Go for it. What I DO have a problem with is when you try to push your beliefs on anyone else. In especial if you work a mundane, private-sector job.

If you do not work for a church or other religious organization, you have NO RIGHT to use your beliefs to deny someone goods or services. Are you a pharmacist? Ok, you prescribe birth control and morning after pills and all other drugs, PERIOD. No debate, that’s what you do. Are you a butcher? Unless you are specifically a Kosher butcher I would bet you sell pork. Justice of the Peace? You marry couples, gay or straight. That’s how it works.

It is extremely disconcerting to see so much outright hatred, bigotry and misogyny happening in this day and age. The so-called leaders who unapologetically spout it somehow stir-up the old animosities, and we’re tossed backwards in time. Suddenly it is acceptable to openly express your bias against anyone who is not like you.

What happened? I grew up when we were talking about inclusion. Equal rights for EVERYONE. Color of your skin, religion, gender, economic standing – they didn’t matter. Equality was the word. Now – suddenly its ok to proudly be discriminatory in the name of…take your pick. God. Money. Race. Creed. Whatever group you want to tag yourself onto.

You know what? It’s NOT ok. Equality IS everyone’s right. There is only so much I can do as an everyman to express this, but here it is: WE ALL deserve equal treatment. If you are male, female, transgendered, black, white, Hispanic, Asian, Christian, Atheist, Muslim, Jew, young, old, rich, poor, heterosexual, homosexual, bisexual, fat, thin, hot, cold…whatever – you deserve equal treatment!

There are people in positions of leadership RIGHT NOW that do not stand for equality, and make no bones about that. There are people attempting to gain positions of leadership who are unabashed bigots, haters and misogynists. PAY ATTENTION, and let’s kick them to the curb. Don’t allow them and their disparate followers to turn back the clock to the inequalities of the past.

Stand up and make your position known.

Join me in shouting more loudly than the haters – EQUAL RIGHTS FOR EVERYONE!!!!!

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