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Explorations of Conscious Reality Creation and Other Matters

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How Does Being Aware Take Me Across The Bridges?

For me, being aware of my mindset, mindful of what I am thinking and feeling, is the key to creating what I truly desire from this life.

Conscious reality creation is the ultimate gift humankind has.  The other animals on this planet, no matter how intelligent they may be, don’t have the same capacity to create as we do.  We are the only animals that can build tools to allow us to travel anywhere across the globe, infinitely expand our knowledge base, and live in any environment.

AwareTo create anything at all, I have to begin with thought.  I have to think of an idea, and bring it into existence.  This applies to characters and worlds for my writing; a job I envision working; relationships with friends and lovers; ideas to make life better.

Great or small, thoughts are the starting point of everything.  I have had some pretty cool thoughts and ideas, but if I did not go to the next steps, they never got past this first point.

This is where I usually face the greatest challenge.  Feeling.  To consciously create reality, you cannot just think of a thing, you have to feel it.  I have been struggling with feeling for most of my life.

Let me get really personal here.  I was a smart, sensitive kid.  Didn’t know it back then, but as an empath I was good at feeling the feelings of others.  Due to things that happened in my youth, mostly around my parents’ divorce (and for the record, I am NOT blaming my parents here) I went into therapy.  Because this was the early 1980’s, there were no drugs like Prozac and such.  It was a difficult time, and I was hurting.  Some thirty years later, I learned that I had shut down.

I was aware of feelings, but not feeling them.

Logically, I reasoned out what these emotions were supposed to feel like.  I shared that with my therapists, and they thought I was adjusting.  For the most part, I was.  But…my ability to truly feel emotions was less developed than anybody realized until much later.

In my thirties, I found the best therapist I have ever had.  Together, we realized what I had done, and started the process of repairing it.  With that work, I became more aware of my emotions.  For the first time in my life, I was truly mindful of both thoughts and feelings.

Important tangent here.  I know a lot of people who have had traumas both emotional and physical, greater and less than my experiences.  In this week’s Pathwalking I wrote about accountability.  Thing is, while I could blame any number of people and factors for the issues I had in regards to emotions, I recognize that ultimately I did this to myself.  Blame could not fix it.  So I made a choice to acknowledge and then repair the damage, rather than get angry or depressed about it.

Once I became aware of the issues I had regarding emotions, I did the work to learn how to truly feel them.  It was in this process that I began to truly understand the idea of conscious reality creation.  I saw how I had healed from my accident faster and more completely than expected, because my thoughts and feelings wholly supported, expected, and worked towards that outcome.

Still, this has been an ongoing struggle for me.  Because the emotions I have recognized and expressed the longest are negative ones, like depression, anger, jealousy, and other fears, when I am not mindful and fully aware, guess where my subconscious goes?

Being aware will take me across all the bridges.

Because I am an empath, I feel the emotions of other people around me.  Due to spending probably too much time on social media, I get inundated with a whole lot of negativity.  Our fear-based society is being pushed around in new and horrifying ways.  Those in power are hiding their selfish agendas less and less, yet still enjoying control over a huge swath of the collective consciousness.

I am working to better recognize when I allow my subconscious to drive the bus.  I set myself up in my Pathwalking post to regularly ask at least two questions about my mindset, so that I am better aware of what I am thinking and feeling.

When my thoughts and feelings are aligned, taking intentional actions to manifest what I am desiring is virtually effortless.  When I allow doubts, or the negativity of the collective consciousness to get between my thoughts and feelings, I am like an inverted bicycle.  You can pedal the wheel round and round as much as you like, but you are not going to get anywhere at all.

I challenged myself to ask at least two of these questions several times a day.  What am I thinking?  What am I feeling?  How am I feeling?  Where is my mind?  What am I thinking about?  What am I focused on?  I know that when I ask these questions, I become aware of the here-and-now, and allow my conscious self to take the wheel.

One additional challenge with this that I tend to get down on myself when I do not live up to my own standards.

I need to be more aware of how I think about myself.

For most of my life I have chewed my fingernails off.  Trust me, I know this is a terrible habit.  For a while, I mostly stopped.  There they were, fingernails, and I actually needed to clip them like a normal person from time to time.  Recently, I have found myself chewing them off again.  If I do not make a conscious effort to restrain myself, when I am bored or nervous or frustrated I find myself removing a fingernail with my teeth.

It does not matter how aware of this, or any other emotion I am.  What matters is what I do with that knowledge.  Do I stop from biting my nails?  Will I acknowledge the negative feeling, and do something to change it?  Am I going to get mad at myself for not doing this, that or the other thing, or will I make the necessary change?  Being aware is only the beginning.  What I do with that mindfulness is the difference between manifesting the life I want, or never quite going to the places I desire to be.

I am aware.

What will I do with this awareness?  Stay tuned.  As always, thank you for crossing the bridges between my worlds with me.

 

GOAL LOG – Week 45:

Diet:  I was very conscious of what I was consuming, but not so good about writing it down.

Exercise:  Fenced once, did a bunch of walking.  Need to up this game.

Writing:  Three blog posts, and some other writing work.

Meditation: I really need to resume this.  One day this week, about 8 minutes.

Gratitude:  I was not tracking gratitude again.

 

This is the sixtieth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series.  My collectively published writing can be found here.

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How Is Pathwalking Mindful?

When we are mindful of our thoughts, feelings and actions, we can walk any path.

The key to doing this is to work on spending more time in the here-and-now.  When we are mindful of where we are, at this very moment, we empower ourselves to best walk the paths for the lives we desire.

Mindfulness is awareness.  When we are aware, we have control.  Pathwalking is about taking control of the life we lead, so being mindful is imperative to success along the path.  If we are aware of what we’re thinking, how we are feeling, and from that what actions we intentionally are taking, we can make more informed and desired choices.

Being in the here-and-now, which I have discussed before, can be a particular challenge.  Why?  Because our society has this maniacal obsession with the past and the future.

We are constantly looking back at what was.  I know I am using this example a lot, but it’s really hard not to these days: Look at current American politics.  There is this obsession with taking us “back” to a time and place that never actually existed.  Recreating a nation of “values” and “morals” that existed, at best, in 1950’s television and movies.

On the other side of that coin, we’re frequently discussing the future.  We are looking ahead to things that don’t exist yet, even though they could.  We want to build this utopian world that might be possible, but is nearly equally as non-existent as the world that some want us to go back to that never was.

Here and now is where we have balance.  But when we live in the here-and-now, we have to pay attention to the world around us.  That would require accountability.

Being accountable is being mindful.

Another problem in modern society is a major lack of accountability.  Everyone finds someone to blame for this, that or the other thing.  We blame our parents for our emotional issues as adults.  Hell, the President tells outright lies and is seldom called out on it.  We almost take pride in avoiding being responsible for our feelings, thoughts or actions.

The sad truth is that accountability is not tremendously important in this society. Why does that matter?  Because when we do not take responsibility for our own actions, let alone our thoughts and feelings, we haven’t the strength to consciously create reality, let alone anything else.

When we are aware of what we are thinking, it allows us to be mindful of what we are feeling.  When I am thinking, damn this society is screwed up, that leads to my feeling sad, depressed, and angry.  If I do not accept this, and don’t take accountability for it, I can’t change it.

When I do take responsibility for how I am thinking and feeling, I can take control of them.  Rather than focus on my negative thoughts, I can instead think, if I write about conscious reality creation, that can be shared to spread more positivity.  From there, I will start to feel good about what I am doing, and that in turn will put me back in control.

When we think and feel negative, then act from there, consciously or subconsciously, we tend to create other than what we want.  Further, if we are not accountable for that creation, creating something new and better becomes that much more challenging.  This is why we need to be mindful of thoughts and feeling.

The mindful path is where we are now.

Being in the here-and-now allows us to truly be mindful of everything.  When we aren’t looking back to the past or ahead to the future, right here, right now, we just ARE.  This is the ultimate awareness, and this is where our paths can be found, traversed, and changed.

This is the hardest lesson for me much of the time.  I get caught up in all these outside influences, and lose track of the here-and-now.  When I work to be in the now, I can do more with my thoughts and feelings, and with that take better actions.

How do I stay in the here-and-now?  I need to ask myself more frequently, What am I thinking?  What am I feeling?  How am I feeling?  Where is my mind?  What am I thinking about?  What am I focused on?  Any one of this questions will snap my attention to the now.

It is so stunningly easy to lose track of the now.  Start browsing through Facebook or Twitter and see how long it takes you to get lost in social commentaries.  Watch how easily you can become flustered by news of idiocy and amoral politics.  Before you know it, you’re angry, feeling depressed, and your subconscious mind is driving the bus.

During the day, as we go about our activities and routines, it’s really easy to let our subconscious take control.  Because we tend to be utterly unaware of things, in particular our own hearts and minds, this becomes more and more the norm.  But we can do something about that.  We can be mindful of what we are thinking, how we are feeling, and what actions we take from there.

Being mindful is not as hard as it first appears.

This is my challenge for putting Pathwalking into practice for the next week.  I am going to ask myself at least two of the above questions three times a day for a week, and WRITE IT DOWN.  Not only will this keep me mindful of what I am thinking and feeling, but the action will make me accountable for it.

The goal of this practice is to make myself more aware in the here-and-now.  I believe that doing this will let me be a far better Pathwalker, and allow me to truly consciously create the reality I want to see.  Care to join me in this endeavor?

Are you mindful of your thoughts, feelings and actions?

This is the three-hundred-seventh entry in my series. These weekly posts are ideas for, and my personal experiences with, walking along the path of life.  I share this journey as part of my desire to make a difference in this world along the way.

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What Is Mindfulness?

Mindfulness is self-awareness.  It is knowing what you are thinking, how you are feeling, and who you are intent on being.

MindfulnessIt’s continuously amazing to me how easily we lose sight of mindfulness.  We get caught up in all the things around us, the attitudes and feelings of the people we surround ourselves with, and that in turn can overtake our own mindfulness.

Why is this important?  When someone is telling you about their bad day, or you are reading about the awful news from around the world, bombarded with stories of oppression, greed and people doing bad things to people – your mood, your attitude and your feelings are directly affected.

The idea of Positivity is to try and view life from a positive perspective.  Negative begets negative, and positive begets positive.  If you are looking at life through a dark and unpleasant lens, you will see an abundance of the dark and unpleasant things.  However, if you see life through a light and clear lens, you are now able to see it all.

Mindfulness is not about blindly seeing nothing but positive and happy and such.  It is about being aware of your thoughts and feelings.  It is about taking into account your surroundings, your mindset, your situation, your present self.  Being mindful is the first step towards being aware, and being aware is how you can choose to live more positively or more negatively.

How do I express mindfulness?

The simplest and easiest way to recognize mindfulness is to ask yourself direct questions.  What am I thinking?  What am I feeling?  How am I feeling?  Where is my mind?  What am I thinking about?  What am I focused on?  We are constantly asking our friends, families, coworkers, even random strangers questions like these.  Yet it is infrequent of us to direct these questions inwards.  Thus we lose mindfulness.

Positivity 197 - MindfulnessThis is not an act of selfishness.  Quite the contrary; you can do more for others around you when you know who and what YOU are about.  Being mindful begins with the self…but mindfulness of the self allows for greater mindfulness of those around you.  When you are more mindful of those around you, you will have a better idea of how you can help others in whatever ways you can.

Positivity is finding a positive place, a positive attitude.  Being mindful of what you are thinking, feeling, saying and thus projecting will allow you to break from negativity more easily.  This in turn will allow you to free yourself to be in a better, more positive headspace more frequently.  I believe that more Positivity in the world can only make the world a better, healthier, more balanced place for everyone.

Finding positivity is not hard, but it does require action.

Knowing that greater mindfulness is greater self-awareness, we can choose to focus on more positive things.  When we make the choice to focus on the positive we empower ourselves.  When we feel empowered, we frequently spread that feeling to others around us; as such, we can build more positive feelings in the collective consciousness.  We can use the positive feelings this generates to dissolve negative feelings.  When we take away negative feelings, we open up space to let in positive feelings, and that is something we can be grateful for.  Gratitude leads to happiness.  Happiness is the ultimate positive attitude.  Positive attitude begets positive energy, and that is always a good thing.

 

This is the one hundred ninety-seventh entry of my Positivity series.  It is my hope these weekly messages might help spread positive energies for everyone.  Feel free to share, re-blog and spread the positivity.

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