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Am I Worthy and Deserving?

I am worthy and deserving of awesomeness in my life.

It’s interesting how often I need to remind myself of this.  There have been many instances where I do not feel as though I deserve to have the things I desire in my life.

Worthy and DeservingCrossing the Bridges is the most personal of my weekly posts.  I am exploring not only my philosophies and approaches to life, but my actual, factual life.

In Positivity I pointed out that YOU are amazing!  Part of the reason for this is because recognition of worth is something we take too often for granted.  Along this same line, Pathwalking involved looking at the empowerment of praise.  Praising can raise our frequencies.  Higher frequencies are associated with better feelings.  I don’t know anyone who doesn’t want to feel good.

For much of my life, I have struggled with my self-esteem.  Some of this is borne of depression, some of it is life experiences along the way.  Recognizing my own self-worth, and deserving of good things has proven to be challenging at times.

While getting outside validation of my worth can help, it’s really a matter of me recognizing my own deserving.  Am I worthy of success, abundance, and overall good things in my life?  Logically, I know the answer is yes.  But feeling it is where the challenge often lies.

Feeling emotions has been a struggle for me most of my life.  Sure, there are several instances from my past I can point to for this, but they do not matter now.  No, I am an adult.  I need to take responsibility for how I feel.  When I am not feeling right, it’s up to me to work in the here-and-now to adjust that.

There is never a quick-fix when it comes to this.

Recognizing being worthy and deserving is not a selfish act.

One of the other issues that comes from this is a fear of being perceived as selfish.  We are socially so inundated by stories of unbelievable greed and selfishness, it’s hard not to see any act that does not help other people as one that’s not selfish.

Taking care of ourselves is not the same as being selfish.  Being selfish comes from a lack mentality.  It’s the notion that there is not enough to go around, so I have to hoard what there is.  Greed is of the same ilk, and a monetary form of selfishness.

When I say I am deserving and worthy of awesomeness in my life, I am also suggesting that you are, too.  But in order to have more to give, I need to have some for myself.

We live in an abundant universe.  This is not an easy thing to recognize, because our society is hyper-focused on lack and scarcity.  Consciousness creates reality.  The more we focus on what we don’t want, the more we are in danger of creating.

I am a good person.  Maybe I am not always the best office worker, and from time to time I can be stubborn.  But I am a good person, with a good heart.  I want to live a life with abundance and prosperity.  Not just so that I can have more of the things I want, but so that I can also give more.

The awesomeness I am worthy and deserving of is both tangible and intangible.

Nobody but you can determine your own worth.  Yet regularly, we turn to peers and loved ones for affirmation.   The thing is, even if they tell us we are worthy, we might not feel it.

This is why I am stating in the open that I am worthy and deserving of a good life.  Because everyone is.

We are worthy even when we screw up.

Every single one of us is perfectly imperfect.  Part of the human condition is that we’re going to get it wrong.  We will cause someone to feel hurt, or disrespected, or unloved.  We will make mistakes.  There will be foul-ups both great and small along the way.  These are the lessons that help us to grow.  They do not lessen our worth.

I have been reciting a new Mantra or Mightiness, as Jen Sincero calls it, for almost two weeks.  As often as I am putting it out there, I need to do so even more.  It reminds me of my worth, and that I deserve to be abundant and happy.

There is always work to be done.  This is actually a good thing, because that work is how we grow.  I have a lot of things I am aiming to do with my life.  I know that I can make them happen.

Abundance and prosperity are things I am worthy and deserving of, just the same as you are.  It is ok to be aware of this.  Awareness is consciousness, and consciousness creates reality.

As always, thank you for crossing the bridges between my worlds with me!


This is the sixty-eighth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series.  My collectively published writing can be found here.

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Why Start Pathwalking?

Why did I start Pathwalking six years ago?

When I decided that I needed to blog weekly, I came up with this idea.  Pathwalking is the living, breathing process of using consciousness to create reality in order to manifest the life I most desire.

Consciousness creates reality.  How do I know this?  Because I have done it.  I know that when we are aware and totally present in the here-and-now, we can build our existence however we most desire for it to be.  We are only as limited as we believe or disbelieve.

One of the largest issues I have faced with this process has been my ability to be in the here-and-now.  Often, I find myself thinking ahead or looking back.  More dangerous than that, though, I allow myself to become distracted with things happening way outside of myself in the here-and-now over which I have no control.

You don’t have to spend all that much time on Facebook or Twitter to encounter messages of lack, intolerance, hatred, and numerous other forms of negativity.  Truth be told, if we spend too much time focused on this, not only will we lose hope, but we will also believe the world is an awful, terrible place going straight to hell in a handbasket.

StartYes, there are some pretty terrible things happening out there.  Greed, corruption, a lack in compassion and empathy appear to be at an all-time high.  Things are difficult for many people in the world today.  But the truth of it is…things are not nearly so dire as they may appear.

How can I say that?  Because the vast majority of people out there are simply going through the motions and living their lives.  They experience triumphs and tragedies along the way, but overall they simply live.

We can start to look for the better things out there.

The news media, whatever form it takes, is going to aim at sensationalism.  It really doesn’t seem to matter if there is bias or not, they are going to shout something loud and intriguing to get your attention.  More often than not, they will spin negatively, because getting people angry, no matter which side they are on, sells.

Yes, it sells.  When the sales pitches are fear, lack, scarcity and us-versus-them, usually we are having something sold to us.  And let’s face it, when we are told there is a limited supply or that we don’t want the other guy to have an advantage over us, we tend to buy.

It is for this reason that it’s so important to start being aware of our own lives, right here, right now.  Why?  Because the only thing we have any control over, directly, is our own lives.  It is our individual thoughts, feelings and actions that we can have any true influence over.

Rather than be concerned with things out of our control, we need to alter our focus to those things we can change.  What I am thinking about, feeling through and intentionally acting upon is going to allow me to manifest my life.

Unless, of course, I let my subconscious do most of the heavy lifting.  When we do not work in the here-and-now and be mindful of how we think, our subconscious will take over, and we will wind up not being where we want to be.

I have refined the process of Pathwalking over the years, but I am still developing it.  I expect, because this is how life works in general, that I will always be developing it.

Start now, not later, to change focus.

I recently signed up for an online course by Jen Sincero, author of my favorite self-help book, You Are A Badass.  She is witty, clever, funny, and an engaging writer and speaker.  The course is in releasing old habits that do not serve for new ones that do.

There are several habits I hold onto which I believe are interfering with my Pathwalking.  One of the primary methods for building new habits is repetition.  As such, I have created what Jen Sincero calls a “Mantra of Mightiness” that I am repeating frequently, in order to better empower myself.

Conscious reality creation will start to become manifestation when you see only one outcome.  You may not know exactly how you will get to the place you want to be, and the total details might be vague.  But there is no doubt, no second-guessing, no other option but success in manifesting what you are desiring.

This can be ginormous.  It can also be microscopically small.  But that doesn’t matter, because the more we consciously create our realities, the better realities we can make for ourselves.  This, in turn, can show other people they, too, can do better.

Pathwalking is not just a philosophy, but a practice.  The best way to start is to become aware of your thoughts in the here-and-now.  Once you have this awareness, you can examine your feelings as well.  After that, it gets easier to find intentional actions to take.  It is from intentional actions that we manifest that which we are desiring.

Another key factor I need to reconcile myself with is that this needs to start fresh every single day.  When I start letting my day go by rote, and routines and patterns set in, my subconscious will be doing the driving.

Start anew every day.

Every single day is new.  No matter how similar today may be to yesterday, it’s a new day.  There are differences, and variations to everything.  Some of these are noticeable while others are not.  The really cool thing about this is that no matter how awful the day before was, today has the potential to be whatever you want it to be.

I know things outside of our control happen all the time that can make any given day unpleasant.  We are emotional creatures, and bad things happen because that’s the nature of the Universe.  Bad things happen so that we will know the good things.  When we start by anticipating bad things, we set our subconscious loose to run the show.  Right here, in this moment, in the here-and-now, we can sit down in the driver’s seat and take this bus anywhere we really want to be.

I hope that this new year brings you down an incredible path.

What new thought processes will you start today?


This is the three-hundred-fourteenth entry in my series. These weekly posts are ideas for, and my personal experiences with, walking along the path of life.  I share this journey as part of my desire to make a difference in this world along the way.

Thank you for joining me.  Feel free to re-blog and share.

The first year of Pathwalking, including some expanded ideas, is available here.

If you enjoy Pathwalking, you may also want to read my Five Easy Steps to Change the World for the Better.

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Crossing the Bridges: What Inspires Me

One of my favorite books is The Alchemist, by Paulo Coelho.  I have read it more than once, and listened to it countless times (the audio book is brilliantly narrated by Jeremy Irons).

Nothing I have ever read has resonated with me like The Alchemist.  Doesn’t matter if we’re talking fiction or non-fiction, this book speaks to me like no other.

It is not a long book.  But it is very, very deep.  Although it is a work of fiction, many of the points it touches upon are real.

Everyone has the ability to follow their heart to live out their dreams and realize what Coelho calls one’s “personal legend”.  We are all capable of communing more with nature, listening to our hearts, following the signs and omens laid out for us as we move forward in our life.

Every time I re-read or re-listen to this book, I become inspired.  I want to follow the omens and listen to my heart and live out my own “personal legend”.  I want to take the necessary chances to find my own “treasure”, wherever it is buried.  I want to live each day intensely, to know that my time on this planet has not been wasted but rather well spent, and that I am happy with my life.

The Alchemist is all about the journey.  It’s another example of Joseph Campbells’ “Heroes’ Journey”, but it also touches upon The Law of Attraction and Consciousness Creating Reality and living in the moment in the most approachable way I have ever encountered.

I am not the only person for whom this book has an impact.  The Alchemist has been on the NY Times Bestseller list for nearly 8 years!  It’s been translated into numerous languages, and is a beloved allegory.

I tried to write my own story, inspired by The AlchemistVortex Pilgrimage is an homage to Coelho’s allegory, imbedded in an alternate reality to our own and written from a 1st person perspective (which is not my normal style).  It is an embellishment of my own travels to visit the energy vortexes in Sedona, AZ.

I have read much of the rest of Coelho’s works.  They are all excellent, but none has stuck with my like The Alchemist does.  Such an incredible tale, it makes me feel content every time I listen to it.

What has this got to do with my own work as an author?  I want to be as inspiring as Paulo Coelho is.  It’s not just The Alchemist, the rest of his works are also inspiring.  Past that, he blogs and Tweets frequently, and shares his wisdom freely.  He has endured a lot of hardship in his life, and has risen above it to become one of the bestselling authors of all time, and an influential figure.

I guess if I have any hero at all, Paulo Coelho would be it.  There are many other writers who inspire me, whom I would like to emulate in some form or other, but Coelho is a man I deeply admire.  More than the success he has achieved, I want to be as capable as he is at inspiring!


Like my new mantra says, I am a successful writer who empowers people to be inspired.  I want to help people imagine, dream, see the world as a place of possibility, excitement and potential.  I want to help people be empowered, so that they can take responsibility for their own lives, and find more happiness and peace.

Why is this so important to me?  Because I believe that we can only make the world a better place for everyone if we each individually find our own way.  It’s not easy, and there are days when it feels terribly daunting.  But we are all capable of taking control of our lives, of our thoughts and feelings and ultimately our actions.  When we do that, we can choose to seek out our dreams and live as fully as possible, just like young Santiago in The Alchemist does.

Yes, I want to ultimately be a successful author.  I want my books to be well-loved, inspiring people’s imaginations.  I want my blogs to have a positive impact on people, and to help them see a world of expansion and hope rather than compression and fear.

We are all more capable than we are led to believe.  We can all listen to our hearts and seek our dreams, and live each day with excitement and passion.  I know this can be hard, but when I do it I am so much happier for who I am and how my life is.  That is what I most want to achieve with my life.  I want to be as whole, happy and able to share as I possibly can be.

Everybody experiences ups and downs in life.  That’s part of being human, that’s part of our every day.  What we often neglect is our ability to take control, to make choices and to seek out a better destiny than the one we think has been set before us.  The Universe is a place of abundance, not lack.  I believe this to be the truth.  This is what I want to focus on.

The possibilities are many, the potential is vast.  I am a work in progress.  Thank you for crossing the bridges between my worlds with me!


This is the tenth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series.  My collectively published writing can be found here.

Crossing the Bridges: Affirmations and Mantras

Last week I came up with a new mantra for my life and my goals:

The fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself.  I gain more than I lose when I act upon my dreams.  Fear is the mind killer, and I am not afraid.  Do or do not.  Remember that there is no spoon.

I have managed to memorize this, but truthfully it’s a tad long.

I believe that I have mentioned previously that I have hired a coach to work with me on figuring out how to move forward with my various goals and aspirations.  I like my job and my coworkers, but I really want my writing to be a greater source of income.  SO, as such we have been working on my approach to life and how I am handling certain things.

One thing she pointed out to me is that the above is not a mantra.  Why, I questioned?  She explained to me the meaning of mantra.

From the Sanskrit: the root, man, means “to think”, while the suffix, tra, which is designated as tools or instruments; ergo, mantra comes out to mean “instrument of thought”.  Mind you, there isn’t really a literal translation for mantra, but the concept is that it provides a focal point for the mind.

This is why om, when meditating, is a mantra.  You focus on the one point of thought to help connect you to source energy, and as such to clear the noise and chatter and achieve a greater sense of mindfulness.

Last week I delved into my fears.  Not just the things that I am fearful of, but really the root of my fears.  Why am I afraid of these things?  What consequences am I concerned with?  The conclusion I reached was that I am most afraid of suffering.  Suffering would be feeling disconnected, depressed, miserable, and a wide range of negative emotions.

My coach pointed out that what I had called my mantra was really more of an affirmation.  A lot of people look at affirmations as hooky-spooky new-age mumbo-jumbo BS.  Ok, I can see that take, but on the other side of the coin what harm is there in considering them?  Why not affirm positive ideas about the self to help get where you want to go in life?

One of the biggest issues I face is a lack of clarity.  I have this vague idea of just what I want to do, but at the same time I have a myriad of notions about what shape that should take.  Further, I was struggling for some time with this notion that I am not one, but two or three different writers, and how on earth do I rectify that?

One of the reasons I created this particular blog post was to address the various mixed aspects of my life.  Professional, personal, recreational, and all the different places my life goes.  I have a good job that occupies most of my weekdays, I write the blogs and works of fiction, I have the SCA and jobs I do in the medieval society, not to mention social time with friends and loved ones.  Bridging the gap between the three variations of my writing, however, has been a particular matter I have found needs more definition.

Fiction, self-help/philosophy, business/professional.  These are the three categories I write in.  My first love is fiction, since I began writing sci-fi and fantasy back when I was 9 years old.  Now I have been blogging self-help, holistic ideas and philosophy for nearly 5 years.  Writing professionally, whether it’s press releases, general informational materials, SEO, website content or what-have-you also is fulfilling.  Yet tying all of these together, and really getting at the heart of my love of the written word has still been challenging.

Working with my coach this week, however, we hit upon it.  She and I broke down just what it is I want as I strive to promote myself and my work further.  In doing so, I now have the idea of how I can combine all of my writing into a singular notion I can work with to take things where I want to go.


Why do I want to write?  Because ideas, worlds, characters and a lot of what I think are cool ideas are in my head, and I need to get them out there.  Why do I want to share what I write?  Why is it important to me to make a living as a writer and eventually a speaker?  Because I want my ideas, whether fiction or non-fiction, to provide inspiration.  I want people reading my work, be it philosophical or fantastical or professional, to be inspired.  It doesn’t matter if they feel creative inspiration or self-awareness inspiration or professional inspiration, I want them to be inspired.  I want to empower the imagination, and I want to have a positive impact on people.

And that was the missing key.  What do I want from my writing, and why do I want to share it with the world?  Because I want to help people feel empowered, inspired, open to greater creativity and awareness and their own empowerment.  Even my works of fiction feature characters who are striving to improve their lives or find their paths or work out their own destinies.

All of my writing has the same end goal.  Thus, my new mantra has been born:

I am a successful writer who empowers people to be inspired.

At the end of the day, this is where I want to see my life be.  It is a statement made completely in the here-and-now, because living in the past or living for the future usually causes you to be stuck in the middle of nowhere.  I have made that mistake many times, and I am working with new tools to be stronger, happier, and maybe even wiser.

The challenge now is to live my mantra.  I need to absorb this notion completely into my being, and work with it to get where I want to go.

Life is a constant work-in-progress.  There is something new to be learned, new experiences to be had every single day.  I am psyched to see what all I can do with this.

Thank you for crossing the bridges between my worlds with me!


This is the ninth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series.  My collectively published writing can be found here.

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