The Ramblings of the Titanium Don

Explorations of Conscious Reality Creation and Other Matters

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How Does Thought Drive the Universe?

Thought is one of the main driving forces of the Universe.

Everything that ever was, currently is, or ever shall be begins with thought.  Somewhere there was an idea that led to a feeling from which action was taken.  Thus is reality as we know it made manifest.

There are certain aspects of our reality that are completely universal.  The sun, moon and stars, air, water, earth, and so on.  But even these can be altered by thought.  There are currently colors of roses that were created by mankind.  Water nurtures plants in deserts entirely by our design.  Solar cells transform sunlight to energy.

We humans are capable of manifesting absolutely amazing things.  It is possible for us all to live bigger, better, healthier, happier lives, when we choose conscious reality creation.

The question that comes to mind is, how come we live in such a chaotic world?  If consciousness creates reality, then how did we get to this somewhat scary place we’re at right now?   The simple answer is a lack of awareness, allowing for the subconscious to create reality.

I am in no way knocking teachers, schools and education.  However, while we are taught reading, writing, arithmetic, languages, science and social studies, we are not taught the difference between conscious and subconscious thought.

Consciousness is awareness.  Consciousness is active, premeditated, and receptive.  Subconsciousness is passive, unintentional and inattentive.  Subconsciousness goes with the flow and allows things to happen, while consciousness directs the flow and MAKES things happen.

Society has certain expectations of us.  Go to school, get a job, go to work, raise a family, retire.  Everything in between is supporting structures like friends, family, weekends, play, vacations, self-care and such.

Anyone and anything not following the societal expectation gets looked upon askance.

Active thought can create opposition.

While we are all, at our deepest core the same, all of us being energy, we are also completely different.  This is because of thought.  No two people think alike.  No matter how similar our thought process and general ideas and notions might be, we still take different approaches to them.

A lot of this is nature versus nurture, life experience, cultural indoctrination, education, and numerous other factors.  We all had different experiences growing up, which shaped us and our thought processes differently.  As a result of this, we each individually form our thoughts in our own way.

But then we have to account for the Law of Attraction.  Like attracts like.  People with similar mindsets come together to share their experiences.  Yet even with similar mindsets, they still think differently.  Everyone creates their own thoughts in their own ways, and that may produce a similar end result, but we still have our individual differences.

When people turn over their active thought process to their passive subconscious thought, they get carried along in the current.  They let whatever collective consciousness they have connected with float them down the river.  And that is, I believe, how we get cults, blind faith followers, and Trump supporters.

It is easy and often comfortable to let your subconscious do the driving.  In especial when you have fallen into a particular pattern for your day.  Thus, when we begin choosing to be more aware, and consciously create reality, there may be opposition.

While we are not, in fact, in competition with one another, because our collective consciousness is rooted in a fear-based society with a lack mentality, competition has been artificially created.

Please note that I am in no way advocating for participation trophies for everyone.

Individual thought does not create competition.

There are healthy forms of competition.  I have been fencing for 26 years, and I know I am more capable and skilled than some, and less capable and skilled than others.  Professional sports are healthy competition (at least in regards to the participating athletes).  Merit has merit.  If we regarded merit with more importance than we currently do, the American government would not look like it currently does.

We often do not differentiate between healthy and unhealthy competition.  We end up competing for love, abundance, happiness, acceptance, wealth, opportunities, and so on.  Because the collective consciousness is rooted in fear and lack, we believe there is not enough of these things to go around.

But the Universe is an abundant Universe.  There is plenty of love, abundance, happiness, acceptance, wealth, opportunity and so on for everyone.  When we become aware of our thought, we gain the ability to touch upon this for real.  We get to manifest our lives to be something apart from the collective consciousness.

I get that some people are perfectly content to just be.  More power to you if you are happy going with the flow.  For those of us that want something more than what we are presented with, Pathwalking is choosing to use thought and feeling to drive intentional action to manifest something that excites us.

Thought is the driving force behind the inventions that have connected us in ways considered unimaginable half a century ago.  We have instant global communications, information at our fingertips far beyond anyone but certain sci-fi writers’ imaginations.  When we think for ourselves, our thoughts can create incredible things.

Be aware of your thought.

Consider what you are thinking, and how you are feeling.  Thought is just the beginning.  Where we go from there, however, can be absolutely incredible.  Thought suffused with feeling inspires intentional action…and that can shape your world as you’d like it to be.

What thought do you have towards improving your life?

 

This is the three-hundred-eleventh entry in my series. These weekly posts are ideas for, and my personal experiences with, walking along the path of life.  I share this journey as part of my desire to make a difference in this world along the way.

Thank you for joining me.  Feel free to re-blog and share.

The first year of Pathwalking, including some expanded ideas, is available here.

If you enjoy Pathwalking, you may also want to read my Five Easy Steps to Change the World for the Better.

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What Am I Manifesting?

Manifesting frequently happens subconsciously.  This is why being present and aware in the here-and-now is so very important.

I know that on more than one occasion, I manifested what I wanted without giving it much thought.  Sometimes this was a thing I desired, other times not-so-much.  What I can tell you is that conscious reality creation is the most ideal form of manifestation.

ManifestingWhen I was younger, I was pretty high-strung.  I was frequently tense, subconsciously anxious, often unsure of myself.  What I wanted from life was a mystery.  Part of that was because who I wanted to be was an unknown, too.

It was at the end of college that I began to understand the concept that we are all energy.  Everyone and everything at its most base root is energy.  Energy produces vibration, and vibrations have frequencies.  All the energy in the universe vibrates at frequencies all across the spectrum.

The Law of Attraction posits simply that like attracts like.  Energetically, a like frequency attracts a like frequency to itself.  Hence, manifesting when consciousness creates reality.

If you are logical and scientifically minded, this may seem like just a new-agey notion with spurious scientific backing at best.  While I am a tremendous supporter of the sciences, I still believe there are inexplicable aspects of our reality, beyond the scope of science.

Let me make one thing about my personal beliefs clear.  Any higher-power, if there is such, doesn’t just make things happen.  Good and evil are human constructs, despite what religions postulate.  People gain the most when we are empowered, and our empowerment derives from the self.  Empowerment comes from within, not from other people, leaders, or some God/Goddess or such.  When we empower ourselves, we become capable of manifesting all sorts of possibilities.

Manifesting happens, consciously or subconsciously.

As I strive to be more aware of myself and the world around me, I am frequently astounded by how many people make no effort in this area.  I mean, really, how can so many people support liars, cheaters and outright scum if they are at all aware of the world around them, and themselves?  Because the subconscious is doing the work, they’re reaching a given frequency aligning with a portion of the collective consciousness.

Everyone needs a break from time to time, to escape from responsibilities and stressors and the like.  While remaining aware of the here-and-now can seem exhausting, it beats being a victim of circumstance.  Because that’s what letting your subconscious manifest your reality tends to get you.

Manifestation of reality can be epic or microscopic.  For example, in my life I’ve created both wanted and unwanted realities.  When I am conscious I tend to manifest what I want.  Yet when my subconscious is driving, it’s much iffier.

For example, I knew my last employment was going to end.  The writing was on the wall.  Sure, it got dragged out for several months, but it wasn’t a surprise that it came to an end.

Had I chosen to take conscious actions in regards to that job, likely I could have made it stick.  I could have kept it, probably even improved it.  But I chose not to.  I kept in the back of my mind that the job was going to be lost, and because subconsciousness creates reality as much as consciousness does, I ceased to be employed there.

That job didn’t make me happy.  Overall, wasn’t all that fond of the people I was working with and for.  I could have consciously chosen to leave, or I could have chosen to fix it.  I chose neither.

Am I manifesting what I want for my life?

This is a work in progress.  Last week I wrote all about change, because we moved to a new home.  With this change I have a real home-office space to work from.  I have a much better set-up to create and write and edit with fewer distractions.

Yes, I have some concerns about my ability to succeed at this.  Do I have sufficient discipline to make the most of my time?  Will I take advantage of this space to be more creative and prolific as a writer?  Am I capable of manifesting more than enough money to pay bills and live with the abundance I desire?  Will I actually get caught up with my daily reading, resume meditating regularly, and catch up with my online coursework?

Nobody has the answers but me.  I am empowered to be successful on whatever level I choose to measure success.

That, by the way, is as true for me as it is for you.  Manifesting reality is arguably our greatest gift as human beings.  The other animals on this planet follow their instincts to survive, while we can build amazing tools to not just survive, but thrive.  It is not just the purview of the “great minds” or inventors of the world – every single one of us has conscious reality creation ability.

I think I can manifest the life I want to have.  I need to believe it, feel it as if it’s already done.  Then, with intentional actions, I will be manifesting the amazing life I know I can have.

Thought, feeling, action.  Awareness of the here-and-now.  I have the tools.  Now it’s time to use them.

As always, thank you for crossing the bridges between my worlds with me.

 

GOAL LOG – Week 48:

The goal log was not at all maintained.  It may be done for the time being.

 

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How Does Pathwalking Lead to Manifestation?

Consciousness creates reality.  Think it, feel it, act upon it, and the manifestation of your desire can come into being.

I know that this feels like a lie.  Despite how topsy-turvy and chaotic the world at large currently is, the truth of this does not change.

However, in order to manifest anything into reality, there are several truths we need to embrace.  Not just accept or acknowledge, but really embrace.  These truths can feel like lies, because they run counter to society, and much of the collective consciousness.

The first truth when it comes to manifestation is that we live in an abundant Universe.  This particular notion is obviously desirable, I mean, who doesn’t want abundance?  But we live in a fear-based society where we are constantly bombarded by lack and scarcity.  We are frequently told that there is not enough of ‘x’ to go around, that we are out of ‘y’, and so on.

Most of the truly awful people in government today got there by playing off the fears of constituencies.  The “they”, be it race, gender, foreigner, religion other than yours, and so forth – the “they” will take the limited resources away from you.  They sell it, perpetuate the fear of it, and people eat it up like the tastiest banquet there is.

The truth, however, is the opposite of this.  We live in a Universe of abundance, of more-than-enough, of unfathomable possibility.  Find that hard to believe?  Do you realize how gargantuan the whole of the cosmos is?  The stars, the galaxies, the planets?  Distances on a scale most human minds can’t calculate?  That abundance applies to everything.

When we break free of the societal expectations, and we recognize that this is an abundant Universe, almost anything is possible.

There is a paradox to the notion of manifestation.

On the one hand, manifesting your dreams into reality is stunningly easy.  On the other hand, however, this is majorly challenging.

Yes, we can manifest almost anything we can imagine.  Key word here, however, is almost.  You cannot become a world-class brain surgeon is you do not study medicine to begin with.  You cannot create mythical beings if you are not some kind of geneticist.  Basically, there has to be at least some form of path you are following from where you are now to where you want to go.

Yet anything is possible.  Sure, you can’t become an astronaut without being a scientist, or in the military, or otherwise in training to be an astronaut.  That is, unless you buy a seat on a Virgin Galactic flight.  Oh look, you CAN be an astronaut.

Further, you can’t just wish something into being.   I want a million dollars to appear in my bank account!  Sorry, it won’t just appear.

That’s not to say you cannot make a way to manifest the money.  It begins with the thought – I want a million dollars.  From this thought, you have to feel it out.  What will it feel like to receive a million dollars?  How excited will I be?  What will I do?  How will I react?  What means are there by which I can feel this happening to me?

This is not just a feeling like, oh, that would be nice.  Or maybe someday.  You have to feel it in the here-and-now, as though it has already happened.  It’s totally and completely real.  You have the million dollars.

Manifestation does require some action.

You have to take an action.  Maybe it’s Photoshopping a million dollars into your bank statement.  You write that blog you never started, but always wanted to.  That novel you finished you need to go ahead and self-publish.  Perhaps you need to Google how to get that idea you have for that invention to someone who can create it.  Apply for that job, whether you think you are qualified for it or not.

Big or small, if you feel the inspiration to act, act.  Manifestation is the end result of conscious reality creation, and nearly everything we want to manifest comes of thought, feeling, and action.  Without intentional actions of some sort, we often get stuck without achieving our goals.

Just taking some sort of intentional action is a step in the right direction.  However, it has to be intentional.  If you are acting just for the sake of taking action, you will not be effecting your conscious reality creation.  It has to be a logical step that you want to take after your thought and feeling.  The action should feel natural, make you feel as if you are advancing your intent to manifest whatever it is you are after, and incite you to find more actions to help the process.

When all is said and done, working on manifesting any given thing can cause a useful feedback loop.  Think it, feel it out, take an action, new thoughts arise…new feelings come up, and from there you take more actions…which lead to new thoughts, new feelings…and so on.

This is a fun, feel good process.  Conscious reality creation is exciting, and manifesting dreams into reality feels incredible.  It is in order to manifest the life I most desire that I began Pathwalking in the first place.

Manifestation empowers.

When we actively work on manifesting our dreams, we empower ourselves.  It is through this process that we feel out new strength, explore new possibilities, and truly take control of the lives we most want to lead.

Which do you want to do – let life live you, curl up in a ball and wait for death, or grab life like the bull by the horns and ride it for all you are worth?  Pathwalking is about making the most of this life, choosing and deciding for ourselves to create the best we can, and getting more out of everything we have.  I certainly know what I prefer.

What manifestations are you working on for your life?

 

This is the three-hundred-tenth entry in my series. These weekly posts are ideas for, and my personal experiences with, walking along the path of life.  I share this journey as part of my desire to make a difference in this world along the way.

Thank you for joining me.  Feel free to re-blog and share.

The first year of Pathwalking, including some expanded ideas, is available here.

If you enjoy Pathwalking, you may also want to read my Five Easy Steps to Change the World for the Better.

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What Changes Do You Want to Make?

Choosing what changes we make for our lives is a key goal of Pathwalking.

The entire cosmos is in a constant state of change.  I think probably one of the only constants in the universe is that everything changes, constantly.

Human nature seeks stability.  We like to know who we are, where we are, and what we are.  As such, there is resistance to change, which can even get pretty violent at times.  Yet no matter how much we want things to just BE a certain way…they will change.

Why is this true?  Because if everything stayed the same, we’d never grow.  Mankind wouldn’t even exist if the ecosystem of Earth hadn’t changed along the way.  There are numerous points of human history that it is best we left behind as we grew and learned along the way.

Recognizing this truth for what it is would probably make the entire world a far better place.  I know I keep bringing this up, but the current positions of a huge number of American political leaders are entirely founded on undoing already-completed change.  They refuse to accept that you can’t go back, in especial to a time and place that only existed in certain-people’s minds.

Other examples include the whole Brexit debacle in Britain, Islamic State extremists across the globe, and climate-change and science deniers.  They see certain changes as scary, economically unsound, or in opposition to their desires, and resist with obstructionism.  Change is stull occurring, and we all get to choose to obstruct or work with it.

In Pathwalking, we look to make choices for the life we want to lead, and as such choose changes to be made.  It’s important to acknowledge that we can change who we are, what we are, and everything else about our individual lives.

 Choosing changes for ourselves is empowering.

I need to do a better job of recognizing that there are many things happening in the world today I can do little or nothing about.  When I get upset about awful things I see happening, my focus goes to negativity, and I disempower myself.  Pathwalking is conscious reality creation, and choosing for myself the life I most want to manifest.

If you are a decent human being, it’s pretty hard to ignore what’s happening to the world at large.  I would not suggest we should ignore it, but we should alter our focus.  Write letters, make phone calls, march in protests, but then work on your own life.  Do the things that will empower you.  Find happiness, joy, and manifest positivity for yourself.

This is NOT a selfish act.  In this fear-based society filled with anxiety, surreal greed and other negatives, it can be challenging to see the difference between selfish and self-care.  When we neglect to care for ourselves, we have far less to give than we realize.  This contributes to stress, dis-ease, illness, and general unhappiness.

I have things in my life I am striving to change.  Rather than just let them happen, I want to choose for myself.  When I work on changes for myself, I am empowered.  When I am empowered, I can do more to empower other people in the world around me, directly or indirectly.

Nobody can change anybody else, unless they allow themselves to be changed.  You can’t help people who do not want to be helped.  But we can do for ourselves, strive to be the best people we can be.  Each of us can choose paths to empowerment, and do more good from those places.

Pathwalking directs changes to manifest better.

Consciousness creates reality.  Rather than just let the world turn around me, I want to have a direct impact on this.  My life is mine, and mine alone.  Yes, I choose to share it in many ways with many different people.  When faced with change, I want to choose for myself where that can and will take me.

I long ago saw three distinct ways to live life.  The first, and most pervasive, is to let life live you.  You go with the flow, things happen around you in their own time, and you do little to choose changes along the way.  The second is to curl up in a ball and wait for death.  This is sometimes literal, but more often than not involves waiting for others to do for you.  It’s about avoiding living in the here-and-now in any number of different ways.  It involves placing lots of blame and letting life totally pass you by.

The third way is where Pathwalking was born.  Grab life like the bull by the horns, and take it for a ride.  You strive to choose what you want for life, decide where to go and what to do.  Changes are made to empower conscious reality creation.  Effort is made to get the most out of life, see if for all its wonders and possibilities.  Live life, rather than let life live you.

There are times this is not easy.  But then, truly, nothing worth having is ever all that easy.  I want to manifest the most joyful, interesting life that I can.  I know that change happens, and even when I am content and want things to just be as they are, changes will occur.  By choosing my paths, I decide the forms this can take.

Make the changes you want for you.

As you are reading this, I am working from Boxhenge.  We are about to move, and this is going to be a pretty big change in my life.  I am moving two hours south, to somewhere rather new to me in many ways.  After over twenty years somewhere within an hour of NYC, now I will be less than an hour from Philadelphia.  Also, for the first time, I will have a full home-office space, and a fairly unfamiliar locale to explore and get to know.

This is both exciting and scary.  It’s a major change, but a welcome one.  We chose it for ourselves.  I can hardly wait to see what new paths will open before me, and what else I can manifest from here.

These are changes I want to make.  I believe they will help me to create the life I most want for myself.  I decided to choose them for myself, and am looking forward to where they will take me.

What changes do you want to make in your life and for your paths?

 

This is the three-hundred-ninth entry in my series. These weekly posts are ideas for, and my personal experiences with, walking along the path of life.  I share this journey as part of my desire to make a difference in this world along the way.

Thank you for joining me.  Feel free to re-blog and share.

The first year of Pathwalking, including some expanded ideas, is available here.

If you enjoy Pathwalking, you may also want to read my Five Easy Steps to Change the World for the Better.

Please take a moment to subscribe to this blog!  Even if you have done so before, there is new material, and a gift with your subscription.

 

 

How Does Being Aware Take Me Across The Bridges?

For me, being aware of my mindset, mindful of what I am thinking and feeling, is the key to creating what I truly desire from this life.

Conscious reality creation is the ultimate gift humankind has.  The other animals on this planet, no matter how intelligent they may be, don’t have the same capacity to create as we do.  We are the only animals that can build tools to allow us to travel anywhere across the globe, infinitely expand our knowledge base, and live in any environment.

AwareTo create anything at all, I have to begin with thought.  I have to think of an idea, and bring it into existence.  This applies to characters and worlds for my writing; a job I envision working; relationships with friends and lovers; ideas to make life better.

Great or small, thoughts are the starting point of everything.  I have had some pretty cool thoughts and ideas, but if I did not go to the next steps, they never got past this first point.

This is where I usually face the greatest challenge.  Feeling.  To consciously create reality, you cannot just think of a thing, you have to feel it.  I have been struggling with feeling for most of my life.

Let me get really personal here.  I was a smart, sensitive kid.  Didn’t know it back then, but as an empath I was good at feeling the feelings of others.  Due to things that happened in my youth, mostly around my parents’ divorce (and for the record, I am NOT blaming my parents here) I went into therapy.  Because this was the early 1980’s, there were no drugs like Prozac and such.  It was a difficult time, and I was hurting.  Some thirty years later, I learned that I had shut down.

I was aware of feelings, but not feeling them.

Logically, I reasoned out what these emotions were supposed to feel like.  I shared that with my therapists, and they thought I was adjusting.  For the most part, I was.  But…my ability to truly feel emotions was less developed than anybody realized until much later.

In my thirties, I found the best therapist I have ever had.  Together, we realized what I had done, and started the process of repairing it.  With that work, I became more aware of my emotions.  For the first time in my life, I was truly mindful of both thoughts and feelings.

Important tangent here.  I know a lot of people who have had traumas both emotional and physical, greater and less than my experiences.  In this week’s Pathwalking I wrote about accountability.  Thing is, while I could blame any number of people and factors for the issues I had in regards to emotions, I recognize that ultimately I did this to myself.  Blame could not fix it.  So I made a choice to acknowledge and then repair the damage, rather than get angry or depressed about it.

Once I became aware of the issues I had regarding emotions, I did the work to learn how to truly feel them.  It was in this process that I began to truly understand the idea of conscious reality creation.  I saw how I had healed from my accident faster and more completely than expected, because my thoughts and feelings wholly supported, expected, and worked towards that outcome.

Still, this has been an ongoing struggle for me.  Because the emotions I have recognized and expressed the longest are negative ones, like depression, anger, jealousy, and other fears, when I am not mindful and fully aware, guess where my subconscious goes?

Being aware will take me across all the bridges.

Because I am an empath, I feel the emotions of other people around me.  Due to spending probably too much time on social media, I get inundated with a whole lot of negativity.  Our fear-based society is being pushed around in new and horrifying ways.  Those in power are hiding their selfish agendas less and less, yet still enjoying control over a huge swath of the collective consciousness.

I am working to better recognize when I allow my subconscious to drive the bus.  I set myself up in my Pathwalking post to regularly ask at least two questions about my mindset, so that I am better aware of what I am thinking and feeling.

When my thoughts and feelings are aligned, taking intentional actions to manifest what I am desiring is virtually effortless.  When I allow doubts, or the negativity of the collective consciousness to get between my thoughts and feelings, I am like an inverted bicycle.  You can pedal the wheel round and round as much as you like, but you are not going to get anywhere at all.

I challenged myself to ask at least two of these questions several times a day.  What am I thinking?  What am I feeling?  How am I feeling?  Where is my mind?  What am I thinking about?  What am I focused on?  I know that when I ask these questions, I become aware of the here-and-now, and allow my conscious self to take the wheel.

One additional challenge with this that I tend to get down on myself when I do not live up to my own standards.

I need to be more aware of how I think about myself.

For most of my life I have chewed my fingernails off.  Trust me, I know this is a terrible habit.  For a while, I mostly stopped.  There they were, fingernails, and I actually needed to clip them like a normal person from time to time.  Recently, I have found myself chewing them off again.  If I do not make a conscious effort to restrain myself, when I am bored or nervous or frustrated I find myself removing a fingernail with my teeth.

It does not matter how aware of this, or any other emotion I am.  What matters is what I do with that knowledge.  Do I stop from biting my nails?  Will I acknowledge the negative feeling, and do something to change it?  Am I going to get mad at myself for not doing this, that or the other thing, or will I make the necessary change?  Being aware is only the beginning.  What I do with that mindfulness is the difference between manifesting the life I want, or never quite going to the places I desire to be.

I am aware.

What will I do with this awareness?  Stay tuned.  As always, thank you for crossing the bridges between my worlds with me.

 

GOAL LOG – Week 45:

Diet:  I was very conscious of what I was consuming, but not so good about writing it down.

Exercise:  Fenced once, did a bunch of walking.  Need to up this game.

Writing:  Three blog posts, and some other writing work.

Meditation: I really need to resume this.  One day this week, about 8 minutes.

Gratitude:  I was not tracking gratitude again.

 

This is the sixtieth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series.  My collectively published writing can be found here.

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What Have I Done With Challenges?

Some challenges are better than others.

As I have mentioned before, the reason why this blog is called The Ramblings of a Titanium Don is due to two reasons. A title I get to assume from the Society for Creative Anachronism (the medieval re-enactment society I’ve been a part of for over 25 years); and the three titanium plates holding together my right clavicle.

Me, NYE 1999/2000. I am in a wheelchair in this picture.

In case you missed this: On the last day of November, 1999, I was struck by a car crossing a street a quarter-mile from home.   I suffered pretty severe injuries to my right leg, right clavicle, and nerve damage to my right arm.  What followed was a year of serious recovery and therapy, and some pretty wicked scars.

Yes, it was a hit-and-run.  No, they never caught the driver.  Now, nearly 18 years later, unless I show you the impressive scars (or you manage to hit the titanium plate with a sword while fencing against me) you wouldn’t know how broken I was.

Important life lessons were learned.

As I was starting my recovery, I discovered that there were three primary ways to live life.

  1. Go with the flow.  Let life live you.  Go about the routine, let time have its way with you and the natural ebb and flow of life carry you along.
  2. Curl up in a ball and wait for death.  Don’t experience life, complain about everything, blame everyone else, pray for the afterlife but mostly avoid this lifetime.
  3. Grab life like the proverbial bull by the horns, and take it for ride.  Make choices, take chances, fight and push and manifest what you desire.

I quickly learned that I preferred option 3.  My recovery surprised and delighted my therapists, my doctors, and my family and friends.  I defied expectations of both the speed of my recovery, and the totality of it.  It was during this period of my life that I came to recognize the power of consciousness creating reality.  I knew only one option.  There was no other choice.  I would walk again normally, I would fence again.  Hell, I would even run again with a fused tibia/fibula in my right leg.

This incident would redefine my life.  Over the course of the next decade and a half I shaped my life philosophy, and majorly embraced conscious reality creation to manifest my desires.  It’s not been without its struggles, and challenges, but it has redefined me in all sorts of unexpected ways.

Using the past to improve the present and future.

Every November there is a wonderful contest called National Novel Writer’s Month (NaNoWriMo).  The challenge: Compose a 50,000 word novelette in 30 days.  The prize:  The satisfaction of completing such a work.  I have faced this challenge several years, and completed a couple works (such as Vortex Pilgrimage).

In 2006, my second attempt at NaNoWriMo, I was debating what to write.  Several friends suggested that I should write out the story of my accident and recovery.  In particular many of the bits that had become some pretty funny stories years later.  I think we determined it might be an inspirational and humorous read for people.

This took my out of my comfort zone in several ways.  I was working a genre I did not normally do.  At that time I wrote sci-fi and fantasy more-or-less exclusively.  I also determined, because of the nature of the tale, to write in first person.  I normally work in third person perspective.

Most of all…there was a LOT of potential for embarrassment.  Yes, on the one hand I had this amazing recovery going on.  On the other, I was doing some rather uncool things (like cheating on my girlfriend).  How would this be received, not only by those involved in the story (even with the names changed), but by anyone who read it?

The very definition of Crossing the Bridges.

Suffice it to say, I wrote the story out.  I gave it an edit or two, and when I put up my author page, I included it in PDF for download.  When we first started dating my wife read it…and despite my less-than-chivalrous actions portrayed in the story, she stayed with me.

For a long time I have resisted sharing this.  Even though I have been told by several who read it this is one of my best works, I’ve been uncomfortable with taking it to a wider audience.  One reason is because I feared it might actually BE one of my best works.

What’s that all about?  Well, for a long time I was a sci-fi and fantasy writer.  It was these genres in which I most wished to be known.  I had a hard time wrapping my head around the notion of becoming known for anything else.

I am getting over that.  Hence this blog, and hence why I have finally have edited, and subsequently published The Journey of a Thousand Miles Begins With a Trip to the Post Office.

A sordid, funny, hopefully inspirational tale.

I hope you will consider getting a copy of my book, read, enjoy, and please review it!  I poured more of my heart and soul into this particular work, and told the story as truly as I could.  As always, thank you for crossing the bridges with me!

 

GOAL LOG – Week 28:

Diet:  Onwards and forwards.

Exercise:  Fencing two days, two days of a single lap around the small lake.  One day with a ton of walking.

Writing:  The three blog posts were done.

Meditation:  Five of seven days last week, never less than 6 minutes.

Gratitude:  I expressed gratitude for 5 things on three days last week.

 

This is the forty-second entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series.  My collectively published writing can be found here.

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What Will be the Rewards and Consequences of my Decisions?

Conscious reality creation takes place in the now.

We cannot undo the past, and as Yoda says, “Always in motion is the future.”  The only part of reality we truly control is the present.

This week has marked several changes on my part.  All of them involved decisions.  One was in regards to changing this blog for its growth, one will close a long-standing issue I’ve spent more than half-a-decade trying to resolve.  In both instances I had to make a choice, to decide to take an action, each with consequences both real and perceived.

As I was writing Pathwalking this week, I had a moment where a lightbulb went off in my head.  Yes, I long ago recognized that I am the most successful at sabotaging myself, but this is not a matter of sabotage, but of perception.  That matter of perception is a large part of the why behind my not yet manifesting the reality I desire.

To reiterate that point, I constantly feel like I am on the cusp of creating what I want, on the verge of consciously creating my desired reality…and because I keep it just ahead of me, just about to happen, it never manages to actually happen.  So close…but not yet here.

Consciously creating reality requires being aware and present in the here-and-now.  When I am aware, I am able to think what I want, to feel what it will feel like, and take the necessary actions and make the decisions to do it.

Changes and decisions made.

I spent more money than I was comfortable spending shifting this blog from being hosted with the limitations of wordpress dot com to a new host and using the tools of wordpress dot org.  I spent even a bit more because I set-up the ability to move more of my domains to WordPress, so that I can make them better and more powerful, too.  The consequences of that choice were both tangible and intangible.  The former being the money spent is spent, the intangible being the concern of losing what I had already created.  I am pleased to note that, thus far, that does not appear to be the case here.

I took steps to resolve a long-standing matter both personal and financial.  An investment I am no longer benefitting from has been hanging over my head for some time.  The investment is not mine alone, it is shared with family.  We have had different priorities in regards to this, and it’s been the cause of some strife for several years.  The other party has taken action to resolve this, and while I requested specific remuneration, they disagreed.  I disagreed with their reasoning, but rather than draw this out even further, I chose to accept what was offered and move ahead.  The consequences of this choice were both tangible and intangible.  The former being getting less than I feel I should be, the intangible being lost respect between myself and the other party.  This is not yet complete, but I expect no further issues in finally getting resolution.

In both instances there were choices to make.  Though they are vastly different matters, they are the same in being steps forward versus remaining in the comfort zone I am existing in.  Both involved being in the now, and accepting the consequences, good or bad, of my actions.

Being present to manifest.

The point has been driven home this week multiple times how important it is for me to be in the present.  I can only work in the here-and-now to consciously create my reality, and that will only be accomplished when I take my choices and make decisions for action.

I need to stop viewing the manifestation of the reality I desire as being just slightly ahead of me, on the cusp of actually BEING.  I need to see it NOW, here and present and happening.  Last week I discussed the power of I AM in crossing the bridges, but this is exactly that.  By thinking, feeling and saying, “I am on the cusp of making this happen!” I am leaving the reality I want to live in just ahead of myself.  There it us, just out of my grasp, almost, nearly visible through the haze.  So.  Close.

I need to decide that “I am manifesting my reality.”  In the present, in the here-and-now, I am creating the reality I want and manifesting the life I believe I am capable of having.  This is a decision no different from the others I have made this week, albeit composed of more intangibles.

I need to choose to think in the here and now, “I am consciously creating my reality.  I am doing it.  It is manifesting all around me, right here, right now.”  The consequences of this choice are both tangible and intangible.  The former is getting to do what I really want to be doing with my life and truly practicing what I write about.  The latter is the concern that the people I care about will think I am off my rocker, that they will abandon me and I will fail.

I think this is a decision I will ultimately be happy with.  I know that, here and now, I am.  As always, thank you for crossing the bridges with me!

 

GOAL LOG – Week 24:

Diet:  Overall I have been good on my food intake.

Exercise:  Fencing three days, one to four laps around the small lake three different days.

Writing:  The three blog posts were done, worked on my modern alchemist story one day.

Meditation:  Every day last week, never less than 5 minutes.

Gratitude:  I expressed gratitude for 5 things every day last week.

 

This is the thirty-eighth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series.  My collectively published writing can be found here.

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How does the use of I AM matter in Crossing the Bridges?

There are actions I can take, right now, to change my life.

The challenge with this is in mindfulness.  While the action I am looking to take is relatively simple, it requires a great deal of mindfulness.

I have written before about the power of the words I AM.  These two little words will ultimately define me, in the here and now, in absolute and specific ways.  I AM is far more powerful than the retrospective I WAS or the future-tensed I WILL BE, because it is a totally definitive declaration.

How I AM is followed is a clear-cut statement.  It will also determine perspective, expectation, and even intent.  What’s more, I AM is a true presentation of belief.

Because consciousness creates reality, what we think about and believe is made manifest.  I AM is so powerful, that it will create more of the representation it is stating.  It is a statement in present tense, which is the most powerful place for manifesting conscious creation.

Yet I know I tend to just toss around I AM statements without much thought.  I think most people do, because we really do not recognize how powerful that statement is.  It’s not about someone else, it is about ME, and as such it is intentional and focused.

How do we consciously create reality?  Thought, focused into feeling, and from feeling taking intentional action.  I AM is an intentional action statement, and is capable of creating all sorts of things, both desirable and undesirable.

Be Aware of what you think and say.

It’s all-too-easy to neglect the power of I AM, and to make statements that might seem innocuous, but in truth are powerful conscious creators.  For example, saying I am tired, I am overwhelmed, I am unhappy, I am depressed, I am fat, I am useless, I am a screw-up will make me precisely that.  I will be tired, overwhelmed, fat and depressed if I continue to abuse the power of I AM in this way.

I know that many of these are true statements.  I may be feeling tired and unhappy, and it may be a fact to state that I am overweight or suffering from depression – but making the statement of I AM reinforces these matters, and empowers them even further.

I am not advocating lying, or denying negative thoughts and feelings.  Lies cannot build much of a foundation, are impossible to sustain, and frequently become harmful, especially to ourselves.  We are going to feel negative emotions, because we’re only human, and if we didn’t know the bad we’d be incapable of knowing the good we most desire.

What I am advocating here is taking just a little more time and consideration in the use of I AM.  Knowing the manifestation power of these two tiny words, it’s hugely important to use them only with care and consideration.

Use I AM to build up, not to tear down.

Despite the truth that may be brought forth in using I AM, exercising thought and restraint in its use can totally change the world I am creating for myself.  Whenever I follow I AM with a negative statement, true or not, I am basically telling the universe this is who and what I believe that I am, so please give me more.

The action I can take, right now, to change my life, is to consider what I am thinking or saying whenever the words I AM are employed.  If I am feeling something negative, rather than express it with an I AM statement, I need to take a more impersonal viewpoint.  I need to step back from it.  For example, let’s say I am feeling tired.  Rather than say or think I am tired, I need to consider either giving that no acknowledgement at all, or an impersonal one, such as I think I could use more sleep or I feel the need for more rest or even I feel tired.  Yes, this last might be splitting hairs, but in not stating I AM, I am not taking ownership and telling the universe this is how I am and want to continue to be.

I AM is a statement of empowerment.

The universe doesn’t recognize the concept of don’t want, it only recognizes want.  Stating I AM TIRED tells the universe this is what I am and what I want.  I am owning the feeling or attribute as me, and in so doing empowering it, and telling the universe I want more of it.  This is why it is important to be aware of the statement that follows I AM, so that I can be more of what I truly want to be.  For example, I AM AWESOME.

That is the immediate, life changing action I am taking.  Every time I think or say I AM, I will take extra time to consider if the statement I am making is one I want, or one I don’t want.  Being aware is going to be a challenge, but one I think could make a massive difference in consciously creating the life I desire.

I am capable of doing this.  I am able to manifest the destiny I want.  I am grateful. Let’s do this.  As always, thank you for crossing the bridges with me!

 

GOAL LOG – Week 23:

Diet:  I am still working on maintaining a reasonable diet.

Exercise:  Couple single lap walks around the small lake, a day at the gym, a night of fencing.

Writing:  The three blog posts were done, worked on my modern alchemist story one day.

Meditation:  Five days last week, never less than 9 minutes.

Gratitude:  I expressed gratitude for 5 things six days last week.

 

This is the thirty-seventh entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series.  My collectively published writing can be found here.

How do you recognize if you’re walking the right Path?

How do I know if I am on the right path?

This is probably the most basic, yet most challenging question to ask.  The answer is both amazingly simple, and yet fairly complicated.

Pathwalking is making choices about living life, in order to work to consciously create our personal reality as we want it to be.  Rather than simply going along with life and letting whatever happens, happen; as we walk our chosen paths we strive to be present and aware.  We don’t want to let life just occur, we are working on living life to its fullest.

There is always more than one path.  That’s how the universe works.  If consciousness creates reality, as this blog asserts, then we can choose virtually any path we might desire.  As such, there is more than one “right” path for us.

It’s important to recognize that the idea of “right” is fairly loaded.  Right is often the extreme opposite of wrong, but in this context right is a matter of feeling, desire, and drive.  Further, today’s right choice could be wrong for us tomorrow.

I recognize that that’s pretty vague.  This is because the specifics of what is right for me are not going to necessarily be right for you, or for anyone else for that matter.  “Right” in this particular context is a matter of feeling, belief and faith.

How do I recognize the right path?

The short answer is that the right path will feel good.  It will almost seem like its too easy, and the work you do along the right path feels less like work, and more like play.  It’s surprisingly easy to lose track of time when you are on the right path, because you get so caught up in it you just take action because it’s what you need to do.

For example, when I am writing, and really getting into my work, whether it’s my blog or my fiction or even writing for business, I often just flow with it. Time loses meaning, and I come away from a project feeling complete, content, and like I wasn’t working at all, just doing what feels good to me.

I desire to be writing more frequently.  I am driven to write, and that is how I am certain that this is the path that is right for me.

It feels good.  It feels like it is what I am supposed to do.  That is how I know my path is the right path.  But to really be travelling upon that path, it’s important to believe and have faith.

What’s the difference between belief and faith?

In many respects these are similar concepts, but not in this context.  How does this work, then?  Belief is important to Pathwalking, because if you don’t believe that consciousness can create reality, and that you can choose your own destiny, your own path in life, then you are going to be incapable of living this way.

I believe that I can create the life I desire.  I have made this work before, more than once.  And that is where faith comes into play.

I believe in this…but I don’t necessarily have faith.  I believe, in the abstract, but my faith in my own belief is open to scrutiny, questioned by my own skepticism.  But more than that, what this boils down to is my faith in myself.  I believe that consciousness creates reality, but I have no faith in myself to consciously create it.

If I am responsible for consciously creating my reality, then I need to have faith in myself.  I am the only one who can make MY life what I want it to be.  But if I lack faith in myself, what can I do?

How do you create faith in yourself?

When you believe in yourself, you believe you are capable of almost anything.  We nearly all feel this way as children, but as we get older and we are exposed to certain “realities”, this fades.  We can regain our ability to believe in abstracts, but after that we have to have faith – faith in ourselves.

Skepticism, cynicism, self-doubt, self-recrimination, second-guessing and self-deprecation are all born of a lack of faith.  Despite what you might believe about conscious reality creation, you don’t have sufficient faith in yourself to achieve it.  This is evident if your self-talk is frequently negative, such as I am no good; I am unimportant; I am fat; I am lazy; I fail more often than I succeed; if I don’t joke about myself everyone else will; and so on.  When you speak ill of yourself, it shows a lack of faith in who you are capable of being.

You may not be who you want to be right now.  That’s ok.  One of the reasons to choose Pathwalking is to become the person you most want to be, even if that is not who you are now.  To do that you have to think about it, feel it out, take inspired, intentional actions – and believe in the possibility; have faith in your ability to succeed.  When it feels like you can conquer the world, and you believe in conscious reality creation and have faith in yourself, you will know that are on the right path for you.

Do you have faith in yourself and your ability to choose your own destiny?

 

This is the two-hundred eighty-fourth entry in my series. These weekly posts are ideas for and my personal experiences with walking along the path of life.  I share this journey as part of my desire to make a difference in this world along the way.

Thank you for joining me.  Feel free to re-blog and share.

The first year of Pathwalking, including some expanded ideas, is available here.

If you enjoy Pathwalking, you may also want to read my Five Easy Steps to Change the World for the Better.

Can I Cross These Bridges? Dreaming vs Doing

I am afraid to do the thing I should do.

Afraid is not actually the correct feeling, however.  At least, not in the face of logic.  Maybe, the more correct thing here is I am concerned about the consequences that would come of my doing the thing I know I should do.

What is the elephant in the room?  My job.

I have a decent, reasonable paying, low-pressure job. The hours are okay.  The commute is generally not problematic.  This job covers our health insurance.

I am bored out of my mind.  Half of the job I was originally hired to do has been given to someone else, and I have almost no work to do in the remaining half.  I have done all the makework I can for it, and I tolerate the majority of my coworkers, but several of them hold majorly opposing political views, and I find them often insufferable.  More than once I have walked away from my desk to avoid getting into a discussion with people who cannot be reasoned with.

Now comes the guilt.  I am employed.  I am making a decent salary.  I want to be grateful for having this job…but I am feeling like my time is being wasted.  And I feel like an asshole because I am so discontent, rather than grateful.

I have been here before.  Frankly, I get here pretty frequently with jobs.  I reach the point where I am feeling no love for what I am doing or where I am doing it, and I will either walk away or lose the job because it gets emotionally overwhelming.

I know lots of people in low-paying jobs.  I know several people without jobs.  I know several people who have truly hateful jobs.  I know people who work for truly awful people.  My situation is not so bad…so how come I want to get out of it as badly as I do?

This is not me.  This is not where I want to be for eight-and-a-half hours of my day, five days a week.

Facing a crisis of conscience.

I know what I should do, but I can’t.  I have bills to pay, responsibilities to uphold, and I know in almost every logical way this would be a mistake to act on that impulse.

Does this make my a hypocrite?  I think it does.  I have been preaching Pathwalking, choosing my own destiny, for five-and-a-half years.  But if I was walking my own path, I would not be in this position, I would not be in this place where I have to choose between the right thing and the right thing.

How’s that?  Well, the right thing for me to do is get out of the situation.  I should leave the job that makes me miserable and take the actions I believe can and will make me money.  Yet, at the same time, I know I should keep the job and the good pay and benefits, and trudge through so I can stay in the black and pay the bills and contribute to my household.

This is and has been my greatest issue.  I simply do not believe sufficiently in my own power.  I talk a good talk, I write all about it…but I simply do not believe it.  Not completely.  I have tried and failed enough times in this life that I am choosing the familiar, the known, the soft and flabby reality I am living in.

There are many questions.

Is this really who I am?  Am I really going to just allow myself to live a life I find dull, lackluster, and half-assed?  Where is my gumption, where is my drive?  I have studied so much and read so many things…how come I still cannot trust my instinct?  Why am I still so skeptical?

I am the only one who can choose my life.  Whatever choices I make will have consequences and repercussions.  In the end, the only person who’s feelings matter in all of this is me.  I am the only one who can feel what I feel, and how I feel.  I am the only one who thinks as I do.  This is wholly and entirely on me.

This is the ultimate challenge of my own belief system.  Do I accept the notion that consciousness creates reality, for real?  Am I able to really, truly embrace this, and work with it to build a life I desire to live far more than this one?

Choices and decisions.

This is the biggest test of faith I have ever faced in my life.  This is where I choose if I want to live a life as is expected of me, or if I will live the life I really want to live.  Do I believe in my own abilities, my own strengths and skills to do this?  Can I walk the walk to match up to the talk?

This is huge.  I have a big question before me, and there is nobody who can answer it, save me.   Do I believe my own hypothesis…or am I just another dreamer who cannot become a doer?  There are no easy answers.  Let’s see what I do with this from here.

 

GOAL LOG – Week 22:

Diet:  I am maintaining a reasonable diet.

Exercise:  I spent Saturday walking all over the place, Sunday doing the same and shooting archery.  I fenced Tuesday, hit the gym Wednesday.

Writing:  The three blog posts were done, worked on my modern alchemist story one day.

Meditation:  Four days last week, though only 3 minutes on one of those day and less than 10 minutes otherwise.

Gratitude:  I expressed gratitude for 5 things four days last week.

 

This is the thirty-sixth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series.  My collectively published writing can be found here.

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