The Ramblings of the Titanium Don

Why Am I Afraid to Succeed?

How does the question “what if I succeed?” evoke subconscious fear? This question has been plaguing my path for a long time. Every time I work on a path I desire to follow – something happens that causes me to abandon it, stop giving it my full attention, and/or self-sabotage. This is, of course, not conducive to success. Why? Why do I always do this? How come I am constantly getting in my own way? What causes me to get

Want Guaranteed Failure? Don’t Even Try

For a lot of my life, I was so afraid of failing that I didn’t do anything. Hence, I had a guaranteed failure. I would reach a crossroads and just stand there, indecisive. There, right in front of me, were multiple choices. Yet I could not decide which – if any – to choose. I’d have an idea for something I desired to do – but indecision paralysis set in. Nothing was done, and I did not leave the crossroads.

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Why do I feel so stuck?  Why does it feel for every step forward I am taking two steps back?  Why is it for every perceived win I have two losses?  Why do I feel like I cannot manifest what I want to? The short answer is Anger. I have a lot of anger within me.  As I have become more adept at meditation I am getting better at digging into my inner psyche, and what I am seeing is

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I am not a fraud. Why am I stating this?  Because I am sitting here in front of my computer, and struggling.  What am I supposed to be writing about this week?  What words of wisdom should I be sharing?   Why do I feel like I am a big fat liar? For over four years I have been writing about this notion of walking my own path and finding my own way in the universe.  For over four years I

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There are a lot of different things on my mind, and it is causing me to lack in focus. Some are pretty big picture, way out of my personal control matters.  Some are very much in the here-and-now.  And some are dreams, desires and destinations I want to reach. Everybody gets caught up in this.  We all have personal matters, professional matters, and worldly concerns.  As I analyze this, I am beginning to think that we often allow the things

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There are a lot of different things on my mind, and it is causing me to lack in focus. Some are pretty big picture, way out of my personal control matters.  Some are very much in the here-and-now.  And some are dreams, desires and destinations I want to reach. Everybody gets caught up in this.  We all have personal matters, professional matters, and worldly concerns.  As I analyze this, I am beginning to think that we often allow the things

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It is important to leave the past in the past. As much as I am never one to hold a grudge, I do still hold onto many things from my past.  And unfortunately, not in a good way. We always can learn from the past.  The key, however, is to not take it with you into the present and on to the future. Let me explain in more detail. When I went to college I began with zero direction.  I

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Lately I have been experiencing a lot of anxiety. This is not a regular sensation for me, I don’t get anxious easily.  But I am well aware that anxiety, as a disguise for fear, gets in the way of Pathwalking. So what am I feeling anxious about? The first step in dealing with anxiety is identifying it.  I know that there are several things giving me anxiety, some of which I can deal with directly, some less so. Current anxiety

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Trying to align my beliefs, emotions, thoughts and actions is an interesting challenge. In order to manifest anything, I know that I have to combine thought with feeling and then take intentional actions. That’s a major oversimplification of the process, however.  It is much more involved, and the pitfalls can be overwhelming. What am I going on about?  Let me explain. I have successfully manifested things in my life.  I have managed to make things happen through a combination of

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Anger is a fascinating subject. I have a lot of anger in me.  Some is, at least as far as I am concerned, completely rational and likely justified.  Some, however, is old, long ignored, semi-forgotten…but still there. While fear is probably the biggest obstacle I face as I walk my path, anger is a close second. I have not written much about anger before because I work very hard to keep my anger in check. Unfortunately, that does not release

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