The Ramblings of the Titanium Don

Pathwalking 174

I look at the clutter around me, and find that this is my mindset manifest.

I have never been known for keeping my workspace neat. When I had an office or a cubicle it was nearly always strewn about with papers and files and books and stuff.

My desk at home spends maybe a day or two uncluttered. I clear it off, I shift stuff around, things get filed – yet somehow my desk almost appears to spontaneously generate paper and other clutter.

Unfortunately this is my mindset currently. Crowded, cluttered, unclear. I sort-of know what’s amongst all this stuff, and it’s not as thick and unruly as it has been known to get…but it is a mess none-the-less.

I have been working over the past several weeks to hone my focus, to shift my consciousness in order to create a better reality. I know from past experience that this is necessary if I want to create a specific path. Some of what I have found on the paths I am traveling I am ready for, excited about and enjoying. Some, though, I am uncertain about and dreading.

I have often written here about how a negative mindset can create a tone you do not want. Negativity is unavoidable, it surrounds us pretty much daily. How I hold onto that negativity, though, is entirely up to me. Do I see what’s going through my head and plunge into it, or do I see it and work to expel it?

Just to add a little more complexity to all of this, I am not dealing so much with negativity as I am with uncertainty. There are aspects of my path that I am completely sure of, that I have no doubts about the conclusion of. Yet there are other aspects of my path that I am thoroughly unclear about. How can I possibly get from here to there?

All the paths I have been taking have been merged to a single path. My emotional path, my spiritual path and my social path are all together, and I know that where I am going is where I want to be. But my professional path is uncertain, and I am finding that I face it with great trepidation, uncertainty, and even a little fear.

I think the clutter on my desk represents a manifestation of this uncertainty. I see before me what I want to do, and I see several possibilities…but I am unclear how they will come about, and because of that I am finding it difficult to move forward.

I have been going on and on the last couple weeks about manifestation. I believe that I can make what I want in my life manifest if I put my focus on it, if I believe in it thoroughly, and if I give it the necessary energy. This is easier to do in theory than it is in practice.

Why? It is not because there are too many things on my plate that this is difficult. I have the majority of the things I am working on in hand. The things I don’t have under control are driving my dis-ease, and that is why my mind, like my desk, is cluttered and disheveled and disorganized.

How do I alter this? First, I need to get my head back in line. I need to not give focus and attention to all the things around me over which I have no control. I can empower myself, but I cannot change anyone else, and I have no control over how others interacts with me.

The five agreements put forth by Don Miguel Ruiz and Don Jose Ruiz, which I have written about previously, are excellent tools I am not utilizing to their fullest. These simple tools can provide organization amidst the chaos and clutter in my mind. I have recommended these before, and for more intricate detail I suggest you read the Ruiz’s works, but the agreements are: 1) Be Impeccable with your word. 2) Don’t take anything personally. 3) Don’t make assumptions. 4) Always do your best. 5) Be skeptical but learn to listen.

There are a number of things that have been happening in my life that I am taking personally, and there are any number of things upon which I am making assumptions. This does not serve to help me empower myself, and I need to take this into account, rework on my focus and approach the things I can in order to make manifest what I truly want, and to clear up the clutter which has shown up in my life.

I know that this particular Pathwalk is all over the place. See what happens when you work from a cluttered mind? A milestone in my life is just a couple of days away, and when that is complete a lot of the stress and a lot of the outside influences that are weighing on me will be cleared. Until then, I know what I need to focus on, and I know that I can still walk the path I choose.

Is your mind, and subsequently your space cluttered or organize?

 

This is the one-hundred seventy-fourth entry in my series. These weekly posts are specifically about walking along the path of life, and my personal desire to make a difference in this world along the way. Feel free to re-blog and share.  Thank you for joining me.

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