When the other shoe drops, do you pick it up?
I have been anticipating this situation for several months now. I had hoped to depart on my own terms, but I suspected this was coming. So it was not much of a surprise.
The job I have held for the past year, and been duly grateful for, has come to an end. Now my eight hours a day in a place where I was all-too-often bored, and frequently unhappy, is no more.
I am not upset nor angry about this. Rather, I am seeing it as an opportunity to move my life forward. Consciousness creates reality, and I know what it is I want to create. There are bridges I want to cross, and cross them I will.
Since I was let go from the job, I have made excellent use of my time. A while back I created a schedule I called A Day in the Life – The Life I Most Desire. In that schedule I laid out my work day (starting at 8:30am), giving myself time for writing and editing, exercise, reading, lunch. I even gave myself time to goof off in the morning, play games, put my brain in gear at my own pace.
How will this make me money? That is not what I am currently focused on. I am concerned with living life in the manner I have long desired, and from this action find everything I need to live as fully as I can.
Can I sustain this? That remains to be seen. I am striving to find a way, because this is how I want my life to be.
Can I make money doing what I love?
This is the elephant in the room, the question that most needs to be answered. Can I work this all out so that I will make money doing this? How can I make this happen? Is there a way I can get this blog to make money; more books to sell; other options that involve writing for money?
The first step in manifestation is believing. Faith, which I mentioned before, is important to conscious reality creation. Most of all, faith in myself as a creator, and from there faith in the Universe. Faith in my belief in conscious reality creation and manifestation.
I know that this works, as I have made it work before. I need to apply it to now, to my life as it currently is, and to become whom I want to be. To do that I have to think it, feel it, take actions like following this schedule I created to make it so.
The Secret approaches conscious reality creation with different words – Ask, Believe and Receive. Action for the thought – ask; for the feeling, believe; for the intentional action, receive. In thinking about this life I want to live, I am asking of myself to become a professional, full-time writer. When it comes to feeling, I am believing that I have made this manifest. Lastly, my actions are a reflection of my receiving what I have asked for.
Where do I go from here?
Now that I am not spending most of my waking hours in a place where I was unhappy, I am better able to feel positive, to feel how it feels to succeed at what I want. Yes, I could dwell on the loss of my salary and changes to my benefits, but in what way will that be healthy? I instead am making a choice to take this situation and make the very best of it that I can.
Life is too short to spend so much of it unhappy. How come we accept so readily that this is what work is meant to be? I know that I need to make money to pay for the things I want and need in life, but do I have to miserable making it? Why do we so easily accept that at face value?
I think somewhere along the way we, as a society, have lost sight of what we work for. We are not on this planet for the limited time we get to be here just to go through the motions, we are here to live. We are here to experience life, good and bad, up and down, in all its amazing glory. Spending eight or more hours every day in a place that leaves us exhausted, unhappy and stressed does not make any sense.
Yet we all know that we have to earn money, and to earn money we have to work. The goal is often to earn as much money as possible, and that being the case we will take the jobs that pay the most and offer the best benefits, even when they do not make us happy. That’s the standard way we do it.
I am not a standard person.
I have never been “normal”, whatever that means. My life has regularly involved partaking of a different path, a unique way of being – sometimes by choice, but in my youth more often by circumstance. For example, I didn’t choose for my parents to divorce when it was an uncommon thing in the 1980’s. It was not my choice to be a part of the relatively small Jewish community in the ‘burbs of Minneapolis, surrounded by a majority of Lutherans. I chose to pursue theatre in my high school rather than with the local JCC. Then I chose to be the only graduate of my HS to attend Ithaca College in New York State.
Before I understood intentional actions and conscious reality creation, I frequently did unusual things. I made choices that were entirely my own. But due to my lack of understanding about conscious reality creation, I frequently have experienced being the square peg attempting to fit into the round hole. I need to leave no room for doubt, and create the life I most desire.
Sometimes this is more challenging than not, but I am going to make it work. As always, thank you for crossing the bridges with me!
GOAL LOG – Week 30:
Diet: I’ve been pretty good this week overall, following a weekend of not as good.
Exercise: Fencing one day, four days of various exercise at the gym, and an afternoon of swimming.
Writing: The three blog posts were done; editing of Harbinger occurred; I did some work on my sci-fi novel.
Meditation: Five of seven days last week, never less than 5 minutes.
Gratitude: I expressed gratitude for 5 things on five days last week.
This is the forty-fourth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series. My collectively published writing can be found here.
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