Do I have enough intention and desire to go where I truly want to go?
That’s the question I am trying to answer currently. As I am walking my chosen path, I have to examine if I have sufficient conviction.
Why is that important? Because if I do not put enough thought, feeling and intentional action into this, I will remain stationary. I have to give this more than just lip-service in order to achieve my goals.
It is my belief that I can manifest what I want from my life. I have done it before, as I have stated in many previous posts. The main issue is focus. If I do not focus my attention on my intention, I will move at a snail’s pace, if at all.
I have gotten really good at seeing the path I want to take, envisioning the conclusion, and then beginning my trek. Except then, as I start along my journey, I get distracted, or I spread out my focus, or I don’t give enough time and effort as I should into making the desired thing happen.
A perfect example – my business idea. Several years ago I started Off the Compass Solutions, which I set-up as small-business consulting. I leveraged my IT knowledge, writing skills and general office capabilities as a business.
Rather than focus on one specialty, I multitasked across several fields. Because my attention was divided, my intention was unclear…and my business barely twitched and went nowhere.
Give your intention attention.
One of the biggest obstacles to Pathwalking I have encountered along the way is my own indecision. I have often been wishy-washy about my desires, I have split up my focus, and I haven’t always given my 100% attention to…well…anything.
I pride myself professionally on my ability to multitask. Hell, on more than one occasion it has been the necessity to switch roles at a given job that has kept that job interesting for me. I sometimes have a short attention span, which is not helpful to conscious reality creation.
In addition to my sometimes insufficient attention span, my fear of failure and equal fear of success often prove able saboteurs. So many times I have decided to not decide, or made a very soft and ineffectual decision. This has been one of the greatest challenges I’ve encountered.
I recognize my issue here. I see that I need to give my intention more attention. The challenge before me is how to do that.
Logically, I understand what I need to do. I look at how I have manifested my desires before. The trouble I encounter, though, is maintaining my focus. Shutting out the distractions and the doubts and making this thing happen.
Thought is intention.
I have several ideas for the path I most want to walk. This has usually been my experience. Choosing only one at a time has frequently been a challenge. What if I choose wrong? Then, what if I put all my energy into this one thing, and I fail? What if I give this my all and I succeed? Then, what if I screw it all up somehow?
Because of that reaction, I split my attention. I have a back-up plan, I have an alternative path to choose when and if this one becomes unnavigable. I have another idea I can try, and I am always considering the alternatives.
Talk about divided attention. Is it any wonder I struggle with this like I do? Because my intention is fragmented, I find myself facing the same issues over and over.
What am I ultimately afraid of? Disappointment. If I fail/if I succeed, I might disappoint people, myself included. Abandonment. If I fail/if I succeed, I might be abandoned by those who love me. Ultimately, it’s a fear of the unknown and not being entirely willing to accept it and still act.
I want to walk my own path in life because I don’t just want to exist, I want to experience life. I want to learn new things, have interesting experiences, and ultimately be happy. Further, I want to share that with others, which is part of why I write about my work on conscious reality creation. I don’t want to continue to work meaningless jobs, wasting most of my day…I want to be, have, and do more than that.
Intention requires action.
When I was healing from my injuries, I gave my entire attention to the process. There was never an alternative. I would heal, completely, no question. Every step of the way, through therapy and recovery, the only outcome I saw was complete healing. My intention got my whole attention, and it worked. If I don’t show you my scars or tell you about it, you would never know the extent of the damage to my body.
I intend to earn my living as a writer. I want to write these blogs, my novels, and perhaps television and movies. It would be completely acceptable to work on freelance copywriting, copyediting, web content and SEO writing. I am a writer, and I intend to put my energy into writing.
The biggest obstacle to this path is my attention. I need to stop distracting myself with thoughts of inadequacy. My fears need to be acknowledged, but not allowed to rule me and my actions. I need to hyper-focus on seeing myself as a successful writer, no matter what genre I work in. It’s important that I see this as the only possible outcome.
No contingencies, no back-up plans. I can have other paths in mind, but I cannot walk more than one path at a time…nobody can. I need to focus my attention on this intention. From there, I believe I can consciously create reality, and manifest the life I most desire.
Do your intentions get your attention?
This is the two-hundred ninety-sixth entry in my series. These weekly posts are ideas for and my personal experiences with walking along the path of life. I share this journey as part of my desire to make a difference in this world along the way.
Thank you for joining me. Feel free to re-blog and share.
The first year of Pathwalking, including some expanded ideas, is available here.
If you enjoy Pathwalking, you may also want to read my Five Easy Steps to Change the World for the Better.