The Ramblings of the Titanium Don

Explorations of Conscious Reality Creation and Other Matters

Month: April 2017 (Page 1 of 2)

Crossing the Bridges: Time

We are obsessed with time.

Time factors into our lives in ways we hardly pay attention to, but there it is.  We are constantly exploring matters of time, events, dates, appointments, past, present, future, and on and on.  Time is everywhere, and we are frequently coping with a perceived shortage or overage of it.

Why am I going on about this?  Because I am sitting here, spending my time doing nothing.  On the plus side, as I write this, I am getting paid to do nothing.  Some people might tell me I am looking a gift horse in the mouth, and I should take more advantage of this situation.

However, my own moral code makes me feel rather guilty about that.  Not a useful emotion, guilt.  But I do not like taking money from people when I am not really doing any work for them.  Sure, I do work when it comes my way, but otherwise, what do I do with my time?

Here I am, in this office, killing time before I go to somewhere else for my “lunch” break; I will spend half an hour taking a walk or reading, making some productive use of time; then I will return to the office, and if I have little work still I will continue killing time before I go home where I have some time to spend having dinner with my wife before I go to fencing practice.

I am perceiving much of this as time being wasted, misspent, abused.  And yet…those paychecks every-other week really make life much sweeter.  But I have a certain level of work ethic, and would much rather be doing things related to my job while at my job, then spending time feeling as if my self-worth is irrelevant.

This is a matter of perception, I know.  I see this a certain way not everyone might agree with.  All of us mark time in our own manner.  We all have different values of time, and our perception of time well spent versus time wasted or time misused or time saved vary wildly.  Einstein told us long ago now that time is an illusion.  “The only reason for time is so that everything doesn’t happen at once.” – Albert Einstein.

We are all painfully aware that our time in these bodies is limited.  While our beings are made of energy, this particular consciousness, this perception of reality, this body will only exist for (hopefully) the better part of a century.  In the grand cosmic scheme of time, that’s not long.

This is why, when we perceive time as past, present and future, short and long, abundant and lacking, light and dark, good and bad – and every single possibility between these extremes – we allow ourselves to obsess about it.

While I have not been successful this week in getting to the gym in the morning, I have been meditating daily.  I find that the time I take to meditate is really helpful, and gives me focus and clarity and calm…for a little while.  The trick with this now will be to carry it with me.

The questions before me in regards to my current situation are thus:  How do I make the most of my time?  Where is my personal ethical, responsible line in regards to how I use the time I have?  How can I turn the feelings of wasting time, killing time, or any other negative sense of time into a positive?  How is any of this doable?

That’s the biggest question of them all.  How do I do this?  I do not know a process nor a procedure to alter my perceptions of, and obsession with, time.  Since I do not have the option, just now, of being somewhere not right here, what will help me to not feel negative about the measure of time I am here for?

If I have any answer at all to the questions I am posing, it’s this:  I need to adjust my focus.  I need to keep to the end goal.  I want to be a best-selling writer.  I need to focus on what it will feel like to be somewhere other than here, doing something I want to be doing, and making the most of my time, rather than feeling like time is slipping away.  Time, like the universe, is made of abundance.  If I perceive lack, I get lack.  Perceive abundance, get abundance.

It always seems to come back to this same thing, doesn’t it?  Abundance.  I need to do better at focusing on and seeing abundance in my life.  It’s not just about love and money and space and peace, but also time.  I need to see that there is more than enough time, and not time wasted, abused, or lacking.  Focus.

Think.  Feel.  Act.  Ask.  Believe.  Receive.  Abundance.  Think and act abundant.  Feel and ask for abundance.  Believe and receive abundance.  It might seem like hooky-spooky mumbo-jumbo BS, but if consciousness truly creates reality – and I thoroughly believe that it does – then I know what it is I should do.

Do or Do Not.  There is no try!” – Yoda.

Have I got this?  Only time will tell…however that time is perceived by me.  As always, thank you for crossing the bridges between my worlds with me!

 

GOAL LOG – Week 17:

Diet:  Still continuing with the lower carb, lower sugar diet overall.

Exercise:  I fenced Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday, took a walk around the lake Thursday.

Writing:  The three blog posts were done.

Meditation:  Five days last week, one day for 6 minutes, otherwise 9-14 minutes a day.

Gratitude:  I have expressed gratitude for 5 things five of seven days last week.

 

This is the thirty-first entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series.  My collectively published writing can be found here.

Pathwalking 278

Breaking the routine is hard.

When you have set up habitual ways of doing things, it is tremendously difficult to change them.

We don’t recognize all of our habitual behaviors as habits.  When we think of habits, we think of things like smoking and drinking and chewing off our fingernails and so on.  But any routine we do on a regular basis is a habit.

Oftentimes, when we get stuck on the path we are trying to traverse, or having issues with conscious reality creation, we need to identify and change bad habits.

The thing is, “bad” is a relatively subjective term.  Many of the habits we deem as bad are extremes.  Many of our other habits that are bad are simply unhealthy, unproductive, often poor behaviors that sabotage our progress or hold us hostage in some way.

I have been working on changing my morning routine.  I want to get to the gym.  I have started to get up earlier, and set the coffee maker on a timer every night.  I have been working to shift away from my old routine of get up, make coffee, go online, putter about for an hour or two, then go to work.

Breaking from routine is challenging.  There is often comfort in routine.  Like an old bathrobe you luxuriate in, routine is soft and familiar and safe.

Many of the self-help themed books I have read and listened to describe how, to make changes and get where you want to be in life, you have to get uncomfortable.  You need to do things that are not the norm, that break your routines and patterns and create new behaviors and habits.

I need to step berating myself and using poor self-talk when I do not reach the goal I am setting.  I need to let every day stand all on its own, because then the next day has the potential it needs to be different, and to represent the changes I need and want to make.

Pathwalking is about choice.  I have chosen a path I want to take.  However, more than just choice, I also have to look at what I do from day to day along the way.  If, as I frequently have written, the journey is as important, if not more important, than the destination…then every action while on the journey should not be ignored, and needs to be considered.

Pathwalking is not easy.  There are days I face my choices and become flustered, uncertain, even displeased and distressed.  Why am I doing this?  How come this is taking so long?  Why doesn’t this seem to be working?  Will I ever run out of questions?

Life is all about learning.  I am learning new things every single day.  There is always something new to learn, something more to understand and to discover.  Quite probably the best way to learn is to ask questions.  Questions bring us awareness, and awareness is key to conscious reality creation.

As I write this, I am perfectly aware that I am feeling frustrated.  I am not where I want to be, and I cannot see how or when this situation might change.  I am feeling blah, feeling defeated, tired, distressed and unhappy.  I am questioning many things about my existence, and I am not seeing answers.

Yet I know that I need to persist, to break through this moment.  I can choose to let this negative feeling linger, or I can seek out a means by which to overcome it.  I can wallow in self-pity and annoyance over not making the change to my habits I want, or I can move past it, and I can shift my focus to positive things.

I am affected by weather.  Grey skies tend to bring down my mood.  I am affected by politics.  I cannot even begin to describe the largely negative emotions I feel over the current situation in the USA and elsewhere.  I am, like everyone else, affected by the world around me.

Like working to change my habits, I get to choose whether to allow these outside influences to dominate my thoughts and feelings…or to acknowledge them, find a healthy means to release them, and then move on.  Maybe I need to type out a long and angry rant about things…maybe I need to find a punching bag to beat.  Maybe I need to scream and shout and push out the negative feelings.

If I am not succeeding at making change, I need to acknowledge that, then work on letting it go.  Once I release it, and only after I release it, I can work to build something better.

Breaking the routine is hard.  Life is generally made up of many different routines, so imbedded in our days that we seldom even see them.  Getting free of them is tricky, because first you have to see them for the ineffectual habits that they are.  Then, you can’t hold onto the ways they make you feel bad if you want to change them.  You have to find a way to release, to let them go…and then you can move forward.

We all have good days and bad days.  The challenge is allowing negativity to linger and continue to bring us down…or to find release, and seek out better.  Breaking the routine is a challenge, but I believe the end result, even if I cannot currently see it, will be totally worthwhile.

What routines do you need and want to break in your life?

 

This is the two-hundred seventy-eighth entry in my series. These weekly posts are ideas and my personal experiences in walking along the path of life.  I share this journey as part of my desire to make a difference in this world along the way.

Thank you for joining me.  Feel free to re-blog and share.

The first year of Pathwalking, including some expanded ideas, is available here.

If you enjoy Pathwalking, you may also want to read my Five Easy Steps to Change the World for the Better.

Positivity: You Know Yourself Better Than You Think You Do

Who knows you best?

Easy.  YOU.

Nobody knows you, quite like YOU do.  You are the most cognizant of your strengths, your weaknesses, your hopes, your dreams, your fears, your goals, your moral compass, your ethics, etc.

You are the leading expert on YOU.  You, and you alone, know your every secret, every laudable and damnable detail of your whole entire life.  You are your own most intimate companion.

Why is this a part of positivity?  Because you have the ability to choose how you view yourself, and that is an incredible opportunity for creating massive good and tons of positivity.

We all have thoughts about the people around us.  Some are rather passive and benign, while some are much more rigid and, frankly, may be judgmental.  Likewise, people have opinions about each and every one of us.  Some are passive and benign, and some of course are rigid and judgmental.

All too often we care more about what these people think of us than what we think of ourselves.  Worse, we often let the opinions of others cloud our opinion of ourselves.  We spend all sorts of time trying to figure out what so-and-so’s problem with us is, and then start to question what we do and how we do it, we start to second-guess matters…and that way leads madness.

That’s not to say that the opinions of others are completely valueless.  If multiple people tell you that you are being too hard on someone, or worse too hard on yourself, it could prove to be the reflected image of yourself you need to see in order to make necessary adjustments.

You know what is best for you.  You know what you need, who you need, what you want, and you know why.  And when you do not have the answers right away, or you have decisions to make and are full of uncertainty, you know yourself better than you think you do.  You are the ultimate receptacle for everything about yourself, and that is positive in ways that are truly immeasurable.

No other animal on Earth, at least as far as we know, has the ability to think and reason and evolve in the same way that we do.  We get to choose where and how we want to live, what we want to do with our time on this planet, and whether to be a caring and generous person or a selfish and greedy individual.

But no matter what you choose, you know you better than anyone else.  The positivity of that is the biggest advantage you have for creating the happiest YOU that you can be.

Finding positivity is not hard, but it does require action.  Knowing that you are the subject expert on the topic of YOU, you can make all kinds of choices to generate tremendous positivity in your life.  When we realize that we know ourselves better than anyone else can, and we embrace the power to create what we need and want from life that that represents, we empower ourselves.  When we feel empowered, we often spread that feeling to others around us, and as such can build more positive feelings in the collective consciousness.  We can use the positive feelings this generates to dissolve negative feelings.  When we take away negative feelings, we open up space to let in positive feelings, and that is something we can be grateful for.  Gratitude leads to happiness.  Happiness is the ultimate positive attitude.  Positive attitude begets positive energy, and that is always a good thing.

 

This is the one hundred sixty-ninth entry of my Positivity series.  It is my hope these weekly messages might help spread positive energies for everyone.  Feel free to share, re-blog and spread the positivity.

In relation to Positivity, check out my Five Easy Steps to Change the World for the Better.

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Crossing the Bridges: Nothing to Fear

Fear is like an obscuring mist, covering each step in uncertainty.

Doubt, uncertainty, dis-ease, discomfort, anxiety are all specific manifestations of fear.  Worst of all, they come from a most intangible and illusive fear.

I have written quite a lot about fear.  Both for Pathwalking and Positivity and even amongst my topical rants, fear is a subject I come back to rather frequently.  Why?  Because fear is one of the most pervasive driving forces of our modern society.

Those in power, or striving to obtain power, use fear constantly.  Fear of the unknown, fear of outsiders, fear of the rich, fear of the poor, fear of anyone with a different sense of gender or religion or sexual preference.  Fear is how they disempower you and I while they empower themselves, and provide false empowerment to their direct followers and believers.

Crossing bridges, or doing anything that involves working consciousness for creation, can be easily derailed by fear.  More often than not it’s subtle, almost invisible.  But that does not lessen it.  Nor does that properly express the negative effect it can have on me and my psyche.

I want to be a best-selling author.  Do you know how many people will tell me that I am crazy for wanting that?  Do you know how often I have read about or been told that writers seldom make a living just by writing?  Worse, my primary genre is sci-fi and fantasy.  Niche audiences are an even harder sell.  Madness.

This of course stirs up all kinds of fears that get in the way of my conscious reality creation process.  I get the thought part mostly settled, but the feeling?  Really hard to maintain the necessary positivity to set-up the vibration for manifestation when fear draws me dawn.

I doubt.  I question my own sanity.  Then I start to look at my job history, and feel bad about my career choices or lack of career choices, and I question my talent and abilities and become increasingly frustrated which makes me feel down and…oh, look at that!  I am still not making the kind of money I want, nor doing a job I really want to do, and spend far too much of my time wanting but not working on that want.

Fear is a swarm of gnats.  You can swat them away, you can douse yourself in bug repellant, but they always seem to follow you, get in your ears, drive you slightly mad.

But eventually you will escape the gnats.  This is also true of fear.

I have mentioned in other posts that everything I fear is intangible.  I fear failure, I fear success, I fear most of all being rejected and abandoned because of fear of success or becoming someone nobody wants to know anymore.  Reasonable?  Not even a little bit.  Fear, like matters of the heart, is seldom reasonable.

Last week I discussed taking the first step, and that was putting the thought out, all by itself, and working with it and not overthinking or overanalyzing it.  I want to be a bestselling author.  Next step is feelings.  This is where fear has crept up on me, and begun nagging.

I am working on feeling what it will be like to be a bestselling author.  What will I feel when I am seeing the amazing number of books I have sold and the number of people I have reached?  How will it feel to know I am making my living from this?  And more.  But then I am met with other, nagging thoughts intruding on these questions.  Are you really a good enough writer to become a best-seller?  Do you think your work is that good?  Do you really believe you can make money as a writer?  Shouldn’t you choose a more stable career path finally?

How do I overcome my doubt, my self-depreciation, my fear?  That’s the ultimate challenge for me.  I have taken any number of steps and combinations of steps to address this.  Better diet, exercise, meditation, affirmations, writing out statements of abundance, visualizing, Prozac.  I am constantly trying out different combinations of all of the above.

My toolbox for coping and adjusting my emotions is full of variable implements.  The challenge is figuring out where and how to use them most effectively.  I feel, for the first time in my life, like I am really, truly on the cusp of manifesting the reality I most desire.  Despite issues with the world at large, I believe I can get where I want to go, and fear will not stop me.

Isn’t this a crazy ride?  But that, of course, is life.  As always, thank you for crossing the bridges between my worlds with me!

 

Bonus thought.  One of the all-time best quotes on the topic of fear and coping with fear, after FDR’s “The only thing we have to fear is fear itself,” is the Litany Against Fear from Frank Herbert’s Dune:

“I must not fear.

Fear is the mind-killer.

Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.

I will face my fear.

I will permit it to pass over me and through me.

And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.

Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”

 

GOAL LOG – Week 16:

Diet:  I am continuing with the lower carb, lower sugar diet overall.

Exercise:  I fenced Tuesday, took a good 20+ minute Monday, and hit the gym Tuesday and Wednesday.

Writing:  The three blog posts were done, and I did some editing on Harbinger over 2 days.

Meditation:  Two days last week, for no less than 4 minutes.

Gratitude:  I have expressed gratitude for 5 things six of seven days last week.

 

This is the thirtieth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series.  My collectively published writing can be found here.

Pathwalking 277

Give up, change tactics, start over, or keep pushing on?

Everybody experiences points where you realize that you have to choose.  Give up the path you are on, change tactics for your approach to it, start a new approach to the path from the beginning, or keep pushing as you are.

This can be a loaded issue, because there are pros and cons to all four options.  Only you can decide which is going to be best in the given situation.

I am not a fan of giving up.  I often feel that giving up is telling the Universe, ok, fine, you win.  I am obviously barking up the wrong tree here, so I quit!  Giving up is not surrendering to the Universe to let things happen, giving up is admitting and accepting defeat.  You came, you saw, you tried, and you are done.

That’s not to say that, sometimes, it is necessary to give up.  Maybe you realize that this path you have chosen is NOT the right one for you.  Maybe you have a new view or opinion, and you just cannot see this to its conclusion.  Maybe this path is simply wrong for you.  Giving up is loaded down with negative connotations, but sometimes this is the best response.  Sometimes you just have to admit, yes, I chose poorly or I have had enough of this or the likeThe key to avoiding the negativity of giving up is making a new effort immediately after.

Rather than give up, there are other options.  Changing tactics is looking at the path you are on, how you are traversing it, and recognizing that, perhaps, this is not working.  Is it the path itself, or the way in which you are traveling it?  This is where changing tactics comes into play.

It is easy to forget the importance of the journey itself.  We live in a society that is all-but obsessed with achieving goals.  Yet frequently during the course of the journey itself, we are likely to make all kinds of new and unexpected discoveries.  This can be of tremendous value to our given paths.

Very few paths are straights and obstacle-free.  Most twist, turn, double back, have bumps and detours and boulders along the way.  Along the course of the path itself there are always new discoveries to be made.  When, in the process of travelling a given path, we see that it is too strewn with obstacles, we might need to change the tactic for walking this path.

How do you change tactics mid-path?  The approach changes.  You may have been going at it from one angle, but now you see you need to try another angle. You may have been working on a frontal assault, now you realize you need to approach from the flank.  You may have been using a boat to sail the steam, now you need an ATV to cross the rocky shoreline the stream ended at.  Same path, new tactic for approaching it gets employed.

Sometimes you have come a long way down your path, and you reach a point where you realize you need to either quit or change your tactics.  But there are times when simply changing tactics is likely to produce the same result, and you are still completely certain of this path you have chosen, so quitting is not an option.

Maybe you need to start over.

There is a difference between starting over, and choosing a wholly new path.  Starting over is working with the same end goal in mind, but rather than remain on the path you chose in the beginning, you start over.   You reach this point when you know with certainty that this is the path you desire, but you see that you need to begin it all over.

One way to look at this is like looking at dealing with getting lost.  Sometimes when you get lost, and you are still attempting to go somewhere you want to go, you go back to the beginning and start again.  Maybe you choose a different tool to help you get from where you are beginning to the end goal than you chose before.  Maybe you walk instead of drive, fly instead of swim or similar.  Same path you have been traversing, but now you start all over, and change how you trek upon it.

And then, from time to time, you decide that your best course of action is to just keep pushing on.  You may consider giving up, you might think about changing your tactics, you might consider if you need to start over…but determine you are going where you need to, how you want to, and you should keep pushing on.

This will often keep us from quitting when it gets hard or deciding to mess up what we’ve already accomplished by beginning anew or changing our tactics.  The pitfall of this, of course, is continuing the same thing again and again and expecting a different result.

All of these choices are perfectly valid.  The key to making them, and any decision in regards to Pathwalking, is clarity.  It begins with thought, which gets transmitted to feeling, and from there actions are taken.  Thought is the first step on the path, feeling is the next, action the next, repeat as necessary.

Give up, change tactics, start over, or keep pushing on?  You alone know what will work for you, and so long as you keep your mind as clear of negativity as you can, and you stay focused, you cannot choose wrong.  And somehow, even if you do, you can make new choices and seek and travel new paths.

What will you do when you reach that point of choice on one of your paths?

 

This is the two-hundred seventy-seventh entry in my series. These weekly posts are ideas and my personal experiences in walking along the path of life.  I share this journey as part of my desire to make a difference in this world along the way.

Thank you for joining me.  Feel free to re-blog and share.

The first year of Pathwalking, including some expanded ideas, is available here.

If you enjoy Pathwalking, you may also want to read my Five Easy Steps to Change the World for the Better.

Positivity: Seeking Help

When do you recognize you need some help?

When do you stop and realize that no matter what you have tried, maybe you need outside assistance?  When do you accept that maybe it’s time to ask for help, seek treatment, or start taking the medications to restore balance?

This is a matter of Positivity.  Knowing that you need help, and then getting it is incredibly powerful.  Nothing is more positive than acknowledging limitations and then getting assistance to overcome them.

We often receive conflicting messages on the notion of getting help.  On the one hand we are encouraged to seek assistance, and to ourselves help others.  On the other hand, we are encouraged to do for ourselves, and to hold tightly to what we have and only help when we reach overflowing ourselves.  Help is good, help is bad.   Seeking help makes us stronger.  Seeking help makes us weaker.

There is a difference between seeking help with something, and allowing outside influence to alter out paths in life.  Seeking help is an acknowledgement of too little information, or a need for assistance to pass a barrier or get from one point to another.  Outside influence is taking the ideas of others, unsolicited, and accepting them as our own, even when we don’t truly want that which we are being persuaded to take.

When we realize we are stuck, or lacking information, or in need of a hand for something, we are building positivity because it feels good for most to give help, and we feel good when we receive it.  Help doesn’t always come from a person, it can come from a book, a random source in information, food before a sugar crash, water when we are dehydrated, or medication to restore a chemical imbalance in our brain.

Why is seeking help positive?  Because we all have limitations.  We all need a hand sometimes, and asking for help should not be a matter of shame, but one of pride.  Everybody needs help from time to time…EVERYBODY.  Recognizing that, we can use seeking help as a means to generate positivity, both for ourselves and for those who can offer us the help we need.

People abuse seeking help less often than some realize.  Most people only seek help when they really need it.  So long as we make the best efforts we can to do for ourselves, reaching the point of needing and seeking help remains a positive, because we open ourselves to growth, knowledge, information, and maybe even opportunity when we recognize we need help, and get it.

Finding positivity is not hard, but it does require action.  Knowing that everybody needs help in one way or another from time to time, we can turn this into a tool to generate and build some major positivity.  When we recognized our need for help, and then we seek it out, when all is said and done we empower ourselves.  When we feel empowered, we often spread that feeling to others around us, and as such can build more positive feelings in the collective consciousness.  We can use the positive feelings this generates to dissolve negative feelings.  When we take away negative feelings, we open up space to let in positive feelings, and that is something we can be grateful for.  Gratitude leads to happiness.  Happiness is the ultimate positive attitude.  Positive attitude begets positive energy, and that is always a good thing.

 

This is the one hundred sixty-eighth entry of my Positivity series.  It is my hope these weekly messages might help spread positive energies for everyone.  Feel free to share, re-blog and spread the positivity.

In relation to Positivity, check out my Five Easy Steps to Change the World for the Better.

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Crossing the Bridges: Taking Steps

Crossing the bridges is only possible when you start taking steps.

I intend to become a best-selling author.  While I write several different things in different genres, one of the intents of this particular blog is determining better ways to traverse bridges between these writing styles.

However, in many respects, the first bridge I need to cross is between the life I currently have to the life that I actually want to have.

I have written it before, and I will surely write it again (and again and again): Consciousness Creates Reality.  I need to be fully and completely aware of my present reality.  From here, I need to THINK about what it is I desire from my life.  Then I need to FEEL what it will feel like to have that particular desire.  Once I have thought of it, and felt it, I have to take ACTION to set the ball rolling.

The first step is not the action.  The first step is the thought.  And it needs to be more than just a random, half-formed thought…it needs to be a fully realized idea.

I think this is where I manage to get hung-up.  I have this concept, this half-baked notion in my head, or the start of what I think could be a really cool something, but then rather than clarify and congeal and allow the thought to take on its full, complete and ultimate form I jump ahead.

I wonder if I do ‘x’ if it will get me to ‘y’?  If I do this, then add this, then do this I will get the result!  Maybe in addition to this idea I need to work out how that will work…and so on, and so on.  I jump multiple steps ahead, try and work out multiple results and alternatives and hows and whys and only sort-of step forward.

The thought needs to be whole and complete.  I want to be a best-selling author.  One, simple, complete and whole thought, right there.  The trouble I often engage in is over-thinking it.  But in order to become a best-selling author I will need to do this.  But to do this, I might need to do that?  What if I do the other thing here instead…see the circular logic problem here?

We humans have a maddening tendency to over-complicate EVERYTHING.  We reject the simple in favor of the massively-analyzed, and apply that to just about anything you can think of.  Yes, this has allowed us to unravel the mysteries of the cosmos, to unlock amazing scientific secrets and create some fantastic things.  Yet at the same time, we have come to tune-out the instinctual, to disregard the signs and signals the rest of the animal kingdom relies on, and to require massive study and then proof of concept to achieve most things.

Consciousness creating reality is a simple matter.  One of the reasons we often do not use it is because we have come to accept that simple is not only simple, but also foolish.  Yet simplicity and a lack of intellect are not necessarily one-in-the-same.  Simple in this context is a synonym for uncomplicated or straightforward, not for uninformed or idiotic.

The Universe is abundant.  Don’t believe it?  Despite anything you perceive yourself lacking at this moment, consider what it takes for you to BE.  The incredible number of components, tangible or intangible, that were brought together to make you into you.  Only in an abundant universe could that be accomplished.

The simple thought of I want to be a best-selling author is enough.  I need to hold onto that thought, let it really take root in my consciousness; let it percolate all on its own.

It is upon this one thought, and this one thought alone I need to create feeling.  How does this, the thought of being a best-selling author, make me feel?  What will I feel when I am seeing the amazing number of books I have sold and the number of people I have reached?  How will it feel to know I am making my living from this?  How will it feel to partake of the ancillary aspects of being a best-selling author, like going to Cons and such?  I need to really FEEL these things, and more than that…visualize them.  I need to make them feel as real and solid as I possibly can.

I often get so caught up in trying to work out how, I never get clearly from the basic idea to the next step.  I need to feel this out, but when I get all caught up in thought I frequently am unable to feel the feeling.  Knowing this, I have a new template to work from.

First step is pure, simple thought.  In my case, it’s I want to be a best-selling author.  Next step, feel the feelings of my accomplishment.  The next step after that will be action…and from the uncomplicated thought to the deep, visualized feelings I should be able to identify an inspired, intentional action to take.  That of course would be the next step in the process.  But I need to remember that the solid thought is, in fact, the real FIRST step.

Crossing the bridges is only possible when you start taking steps.  Yet the steps need to be with purpose and intent to accomplish a given goal.  The question is, will I now put this notion to good use to get where I want to be?

As always, thank you for crossing the bridges between my worlds with me!

 

GOAL LOG – Week 15:

Diet:  I have continued the lower carb, lower sugar diet overall.

Exercise:  I fenced Tuesday, took a good 20+ minute Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday.

Writing:  The three blog posts were done.

Meditation:  Three days last week, for no less than 4 minutes.

Gratitude:  I have expressed gratitude for 5 things every day last week.

 

This is the twenty-ninth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series.  My collectively published writing can be found here.

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Writing makes me feel good.

It doesn’t seem to matter what I write.  It can be words for business, it could be web content, it could be this blog, or it could be my next great work of fantasy.  Whatever it is, writing grounds me, centers me, makes me feel good and opens the channels of creative energy.

Not everyone is a writer.  But everyone has a thing, or even more than one thing, that produces this sort of feeling.  We all have actions available to us that will help us to feel good when we are feeling down or otherwise negative; we all have actions that provide us comfort.

Unfortunately, we frequently are made to feel that we have to deny ourselves these things.  Certainly some may not be appropriate at certain given times; but that does not lessen their importance to us.

When did we decide that living in joy was not important?

Seriously, how many people are almost constantly doing things that make them happy?  We believe that happiness comes in small doses.  While this might be true, it doesn’t mean that the small doses cannot be frequent and regular.

Except that we have accepted that small doses of happiness are just that…small.  Short times, bits and pieces here and there.  But overall, we have to be “responsible adults” or “contributing members of the society” or “grown-ups” or any other trite statements to the effect that happy is less important than acceptable to the norm.

Why is it that we accept it as duty or obligation to spend so much of our time doing things that don’t make us happy?  No, I know I am not writing for everyone here – lots of people get to do their dream jobs, or live the life they most desire…but for every one of those people I suspect there are at least three people who don’t.  Based on an utterly unscientific survey and reading of my friends and their jobs, I would even submit my 1 to 3 ratio is pretty conservative.

To some degree, this is simply the nature of our society.  When you have to work to live, in-as-much as it’s accepted that you need to work to earn money to have food, shelter, clothing and transportation, let alone anything above and beyond that, it’s often easier to work a job that might not make you happy, but pays enough to cover your expenses.

To some degree society says that work shouldn’t be fun.  How many TV shows and movies have come out where work is the enemy, the killer of joy and happiness and fun?  How many times when we were growing up were we told we could play only after our chores and homework were done?  Is it any wonder we don’t equate working with being happy?

One of the main reasons for Pathwalking is to find and make my own destiny.  I want to make my way in this world, and live life…not let life live ME.  Because consciousness creates reality, I need to shift my thoughts more consciously towards what I actually want, rather than allowing myself to just accept what is.

Present reality, I have mentioned before, is the result of past thoughts, feelings and actions.  That can be a hard truth to believe, but if you are not seeing your present as what you wish it to be, you need to create a better one.

Hooky-Spooky Mumbo-Jumbo?  No, this is conscious reality creation in action.  If I get all hung up on things as they are, lamenting them, focusing on them, being displeased or otherwise unhappy with them, then I am subconsciously creating MORE OF THEM.  Why?  Because I am not working on conscious creation.

That’s how this works.  If you don’t do it consciously, you do it in your subconscious, and you get what you get and life lives you.  Think of what you want, feel what it feels like to have it, and take actions that are inspired and intentional to help it along.  That, or keep allowing your subconscious to drive the bus, and hope you get lucky or fate intervenes or you stumble upon it.  I know what I would rather do.

I want to be happy more than I am sad, depressed, or unhappy…don’t you?  How come we are so quick to accept that we only get to be happy on occasions few and far between, when it’s clear all of us would want much more than that?

Pathwalking is ultimately about being happy.  I used to say that content was good enough, but frankly content IS happy.  If I am content then I am happy.  Happy is not this big, unattainable thing that eludes us like a needle in a haystack…happy is what I believe, ultimately, each and every one of us desires from anything and everything we do.

Writing makes me feel good.  When I get to write I feel grounded, I feel centered, and I feel good and productive.  Knowing this, I want the path I walk to involve more writing, and with that abundance on every level, be it financial, physical, spiritual or otherwise.

What things make you happiest?  How often do you make them a part of your everyday life?

 

This is the two-hundred seventy-sixth entry in my series. These weekly posts are ideas and my personal experiences in walking along the path of life.  I share this journey as part of my desire to make a difference in this world along the way.

Thank you for joining me.  Feel free to re-blog and share.

The first year of Pathwalking, including some expanded ideas, is available here.

If you enjoy Pathwalking, you may also want to read my Five Easy Steps to Change the World for the Better.

Positivity: The Inconsequential is Important

Coffee.  Conversation.  Tea.  Meditation.  Sleep.  Holding the door for a stranger.

Every one of these is equal in its power to generate positivity.  Every one of these can elevate your mood and improve a given day.

The seemingly inconsequential is easy to disregard, especially in the face of impersonal matters like terrorism, poverty and corruption; or more personal matters like jobs, bills to be paid, not feeling able to find enough time for loved ones and fun.  What does the pleasure derived from a cup of coffee matter in the grand scheme of things?

In truth, it means everything.  The Big Picture is usually pretty overwhelming.  Yet we place almost all of our attention there as a society, because we believe that if we don’t, we will be left behind or shut out or contribute to the problems further or worse.  The needs of the greater good, impersonal or personal, we have been told should outweigh our own needs.

However, when we take this approach, we disempower ourselves.  If we have nothing for ourselves, how can we possibly give to anyone else?  Yet many people come to feel selfish if we take that break or enjoy that small thing or do anything else strictly for ourselves.

We have to do things to feel good for ourselves.  If we don’t we have no fuel to provide anything of use to anyone else.  Without having our own things to feel good about, we become depressed, we get sick, we become withdrawn and worse.

Coffee.  Conversation.  Tea.  Meditation.  Sleep.  Holding the door for a stranger.  Do these feel good to you?  Do these generate positivity for you and allow you to be totally in the now and aware?  What other seemingly inconsequential things happen throughout your day that can build up your positive energies?

The inconsequential is not unimportant.  It is a tool to build bigger and better for ourselves.  I know that might not always feel true, but believe me when I tell you that we all need to treat ourselves better.  We need to love ourselves more than we do, because when we love ourselves we empower ourselves.  When we are empowered, in especial by our own will, we not only have something for ourselves, but we have energy to share with others.  It’s not selfish to build up our own positivity, because without it we cannot be selfless and sustained at the same time.

What seemingly inconsequential things make you feel good?

Finding positivity is not hard, but it does require action.  Knowing that things we do regularly but consider to be inconsequential are important to our mental health, we can derive more positivity from them.  When we make use of these things to build up our positivity, ultimately we can help other people more, because we empower ourselves.  When we feel empowered, we often spread that feeling to others around us, and as such can build more positive feelings in the collective consciousness.  We can use the positive feelings this generates to dissolve negative feelings.  When we take away negative feelings, we open up space to let in positive feelings, and that is something we can be grateful for.  Gratitude leads to happiness.  Happiness is the ultimate positive attitude.  Positive attitude begets positive energy, and that is always a good thing.

 

This is the one hundred sixty-seventh entry of my Positivity series.  It is my hope these weekly messages might help spread positive energies for everyone.  Feel free to share, re-blog and spread the positivity.

In relation to Positivity, check out my Five Easy Steps to Change the World for the Better.

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Crossing the Bridges: Self Talk – What follows I AM

I speak less highly of myself than anyone else.  I am my own worst critic.

Always have been.  Know how that feels?  You always manage to find something to be critical about?  The one person you criticize the most, whom you give the absolute least amount of slack to being you?

I know that this does me no good.  If my plans are not completed or I get distracted or I fail to do as planned, I can count on myself to be completely harsh.  In my head I will berate myself, belittle myself, get mad at myself for any and all failings, mistakes, missteps, and so forth.

The self talk that comes of this is hugely demoralizing.  You’re a big fat failure, which is why you stay fat and out-of-shape; you allow distractions to get in the way of writing and editing, that’s why you’re never going to be a best seller; you will always get that red light at that same intersection, because the Universe enjoys messing with you; you have never established a proper career, that’s why you deserve half-successes at best.

These messages break down at their core to inform me thusly:  Failure.   You will never succeed.  You will always be a victim of circumstance.  You are undeserving.

This is why it is massively, hugely, unbelievably important that I be more conscious of my self-talk habits.  When I do not reign in my thoughts about myself, and I just let them  take flight of their own accord, it’s astoundingly easy to be down on myself, and that will only lower my vibrational frequency, and, this should come as no surprise, not allow me to manifest what I am seeking.

This harkens back to my Pathwalking this week, and discussing dealing with the squirrels in my brain.  Often, my personal squirrels chasing each other about are negative notions about who I am, criticizing, berating, demoralizing and otherwise providing me poor report of myself.  They make me feel negative, which lowers my vibrational energy, and thus takes me further away from the things I want to manifest.

The power of the words “I AM” is so, so much bigger than we realize.  I AM is a definitive statement, and what follows it describes us in detail.  The Universe hears I AM loudly and clearly.  As such, when I believe that I AM FAT or I AM A FAILURE or I AM UNDERSERVING or I AM UNLOVED or any other negative statement, the Universe hears, and will give me exactly that which I don’t want.

It is not lying to tell yourself that you are thin when you are not.  Of course, if you don’t believe it when you state it, you have no emotional energy available to generate anything.  You have to make statements you can get behind.  I AM GETTING INTO SHAPE and I AM SUCCEEDING and I AM DESERVING and I AM LOVED AND LOVING will raise your vibration, and they are statements you can get behind because they are active statements.

I make plans.  I take actions, but not always enough actions.  Frequently, when I do not accomplish what I have set out to, I will be the first (and frequently the only one, frankly) to tear me down.  This keeps me feeling low, causes me to question everything I am doing, and before I know it I am fighting the same battle over and over and over.

How do I stop being so critical of myself?  This is the question I have been asking for a long time now.  I believe that the answer to this question is how I learn to more frequently manifest what I desire for my life, and will make me happier.

I need to take an action.  This is the only way to develop anything meaningful.  Actions.  Forward motion.

I AM needs to be followed by something positive.  When I find myself feeling low, feeling depressed, feeling unworthy, I have to talk to myself.  I need to make statements such as I am extraordinary.  I am awesome.  I am deserving.  I am worthwhile.

Some days it is easier than others for me to recognize this about myself.  One of the most difficult things for me to do is to think more highly of myself, to really, truly love myself, and to recognize my own worth.  This is not about conceit, this is about recognizing that I deserve every success, and that I am worthy of the abundance of the Universe.

This has been a lifelong struggle for me…but because I deserve to be happy, I will continue.  We all have bad days, we certainly get bombarded by massive negativity from the world without – but that in no way lessens the true abundance of the Universe.  There is more than enough good for us all, we just have to work to find it.

I am deserving of all the good I desire.  So are you.  As always, thank you for crossing the bridges between my worlds with me!

 

GOAL LOG – Week 14:

Diet:  I have continued the lower carb, lower sugar diet overall.

Exercise:  I fenced Tuesday and Thursday, took a good 20+ minute walk Monday.

Writing:  The three blog posts were done.

Meditation:  Only one day last week, for about 6 minutes.

Gratitude:  I have expressed gratitude for 5 things six of seven days last week.

 

This is the twenty-eighth entry of my personal journey, the Crossing the Bridges series.  My collectively published writing can be found here.

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