Keeping to the plan is easier said than done.
I am working rather diligently on consciously creating my reality at this time, and I have found that planning the plan is one thing, but executing it is quite another.
Last week I wrote about getting tripped up by my need to figure out the how. Manifestation is about idea, emotion and inspired action, but once you start taking action that is not inspired it is surprisingly easy to get off track.
The process of manifesting what you want should not feel like a chore. It should be a joyful, positive experience. That is how you know you are working WITH the Universe to make whatever it is you are after manifest.
When the process feels forced, makes you feel disconnected or unhappy or any other negative emotion – then you are not taking action in accordance with manifestation.
Oh come on, it takes tons of effort to get anything. Yes, it might take effort, but there is a major difference between effort and struggle. When you feel resistance, and you do not know if pushing past that resistance is a good idea – it is time to reevaluate your actions.
When you are trying something new, something that might be outside of your comfort zone, there is a good chance you will feel resistance. But you can tell when it is resistance against something new and different versus resistance against something you should not be trying for. The former you can sense is old habits, old fears, old ways of doing things creating an artificial barrier that, once past, you will make a gain. The latter you can sense is foreboding, dis-ease, that feeling that once past that barrier the gain may actually be a loss, or have some other price.
I’m going to share something I am working on to illustrate this point. I want a new car. Not just a random new car, a very specific car. I want to put this out there and work with the Universe to manifest the new car I desire.
Last year when I needed to replace my dying car, I was not specific. I set out that a sequence of events would occur, and I would have a newer and better car. Matters did occur almost exactly as I envisioned that they would, and my goal was made manifest, and I had the newer and better car. I combined thought, feeling and inspired action and I have no doubt I manifested my desire.
Fast forward to today. This time I am much more specific. I want the car I want, and I have set out my intent, how I will feel when I make it manifest, and I have begun to take inspired action.
But then I sabotaged it. How? By trying too hard to figure out HOW I was going to get from point ‘a’ to point ‘b’. How was I going to go from my current car to the shiny new car?
I did not trust that I could make this manifest. Last year I had no idea how I could possibly go from my dying used car to another car. I, like far too many people out there, have made financial errors over the years. My credit score is not impressive, I have other financial obligations I have not managed well, and other similar hardships. Yet I saw only the outcome, and gave no thought to how I’d get from where I was to what I wanted…and it worked.
So I started to take steps. Inspired steps included test-driving my desired car and envisioning what it would be like to have that car. I felt what it would be like to pack the car with my gear for events and to drive a piece of new and modern technology that I would relish.
But I was still caught up in the how. I could not fathom where I’d get the money to make this manifest. So I checked if I could get a loan from my bank. I started to explore what my current car is worth in trade, knowing I would need to likely roll some of what I owe on it into a new car.
This all began to unravel right about here. Exploring this showed me I could not get a loan nearly large enough to get the new car I want, and on top of that my current car is underwater (she’s not worth what I owe on her). Well, I said I’d have a new car before this week, so I took additional steps and began to look at other options.
The car I would have preferred when I acquired my current car is available used. I can probably get one of those. And I can probably roll forward what I will owe after trade on my current car into another five to seven year loan on a lower-mileage car more along the lines of what I want. Sure, I’ll have a bigger car payment in the end, but I will have a newer car.
Then I thought about it. What am I doing? In what way is this taking inspired action? I will find this other that is not what I actually want because it’s an action…but is it inspired? Nope. In fact, on further analysis, I am hating every aspect of this search, and the used car sales people, and the indecision because this is not what I set out to manifest. I have met the resistance I mentioned earlier, and I feel moving past it I will not make a net gain. I will, given the higher payment this would incur, in fact take a loss. This feels wrong, and I am going with that feeling…and stopping this process.
Last year I got to the dealership, looked at three cars on the lot and made a choice. I did not even test drive the car I took. Foolish? Possibly – but I was inspired. I knew my choice was completely right, I felt it to the core of my existence, and I was utterly certain I was acting on the manifestation I intended. A year later and the car gets better gas mileage than she’s rated for, is mechanically sound and pretty to look at and I am deeply grateful to have her. I do not regret my choice.
When I spent too much time on how I would manifest what I wanted, I sabotaged myself. Now I am aware of even more than I was before, and I am better equipped to work on conscious reality creation. I am not upset, nor angry, nor any other negative emotion in regards to this. I am seeing that I need to trust my instinct better, and to continue my work to manifest the life I most desire.
Do you choose to get upset about your mistakes, or to learn from them?
This is the one-hundred eighty seventh entry in my series. These weekly posts are specifically about walking along the path of life, and my personal desire to make a difference in this world along the way. Feel free to re-blog and share. Thank you for joining me.